But I still haven't found what I'm lookin' for.
Sadly I still don't know what I am gonna do tonight. But it's cool. I will do somethin'. That should be fine. I was out for Jeff b-day last night. I really realized that we were getting old. My old school drinking buddies went to a nice restaurant for the celebration. Couple of years ago, it would have been a different story. Beer, soju, and an-ju. But last night was different. A fancy dinner and drinks turned fromBeer and soju to wine and scotch. We went to a pretty fancy restaurant called the White House in Anaheim. The waiters all talked like Thurston Howell III. A great date place. Of course your favorite blogger, D. Fevah was drinking water and coffee. Strange how the world turns. Yeah it was pretty sad. No food, no alcohol, no fun. Maybe I should find a new hobby. Maybe I'll join Esther Chang's Scrabble club.....
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Oh boy. 2003 is going to disapear forever..... Another meaningless year gone. The year of 2003, was the year of weddings for me. I went to 9 weddings. There are plenty more weddings to goto in 2004. Al is going to Vegas for this new year's. I still don't have a clue on what I am gonna do. I want to do something but I will be a dud this year. Why? I won't be partaking in any alcohol nor food. I realized through my diet that alcohol and food is just about the most social thing one can do. Yes it is extremely hard to do anything social without food and alcohol. So I must find things to do that does not require food or drinks at night time... There is always coffee. Y'all know how much I love da bucks. A great alternative to alcohol and food. It has been freezing here in SoCal. Very cold. And the social idiot that I've become searches for the next adventure.....
Sunday, December 28, 2003
2003 was a transitional year for me. It seems like this year went by so slow. I don't remember what the heck happened this year. I know that 2004 is gonna be a great year. It has to be. Many things will change this coming year. My weight for instance. My diet is going well so far. It is true that I seek comfort in food. Andy says that I smoke more since I cut down on my food in-take. Well I hope it ain't true. It has been really cold lately. Very cold. It seems to me that it is colder than it has been here in socal for a long time. It's all good. I heard that you loose more weight when it is cold. If that is true, bring on the cold air. Hung out with Russel the Love muscle today. First time that I've seen him since he got engaged. He must be ecstatic that he is getting married. But surprisingly he was very calm about the whole thing. Oh I almost forgot. Andy Park JDS is leaving our church. I had a hunch about it. People leave and people come. I wonder who is gonna replace him. He and Laura will be missed.
Thursday, December 25, 2003
weather outside is frightful. But the fire it's so delightful. Since we've no place to go. Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain.
So its a rainy Christmas here is SoCal. Though gloomy, I kinda like this. For loved ones, it could be a romantic Christmas inside the house. Besides what can one really do on a Christmas day. Everything is closed. I am glad my mother is here and I don't have to spend another Christmas by myself. At times like this, I think that it would be nice to have a significant other. I saw Juliette Noh today at the Christmas service. Yes it's that time of the year where people come out of their holes and it's there big day where they attend church with their family. I have not seen her in years. She asked if we had significant others and I said, "Me and Hoon have each other". Jung Ki Koh was there also and he is married. David Lim is practically engaged. Juliette said that she is getting married. So there was me and Hoon. Assed out again. I think we need to find our significant other. Hoon is a good looking guy and all, but he doesn't quite do it for me. Hahaha. Anyways, Merry Christmas again.
So its a rainy Christmas here is SoCal. Though gloomy, I kinda like this. For loved ones, it could be a romantic Christmas inside the house. Besides what can one really do on a Christmas day. Everything is closed. I am glad my mother is here and I don't have to spend another Christmas by myself. At times like this, I think that it would be nice to have a significant other. I saw Juliette Noh today at the Christmas service. Yes it's that time of the year where people come out of their holes and it's there big day where they attend church with their family. I have not seen her in years. She asked if we had significant others and I said, "Me and Hoon have each other". Jung Ki Koh was there also and he is married. David Lim is practically engaged. Juliette said that she is getting married. So there was me and Hoon. Assed out again. I think we need to find our significant other. Hoon is a good looking guy and all, but he doesn't quite do it for me. Hahaha. Anyways, Merry Christmas again.
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
Oh man... It's Christmas eve. Another year is pretty much gone. Last night I went through another temptation test. Yup.... Kim, Pearl, Marcel and I went to TGIF at Brea to watch the Lakers in their ugly throw back Jersey. It was ugly. They lost to friggin Golden State. But when everyone ordered their meals, I was tempted again. (Yoda Voice) But strong with the force was I. Al joined us later. It was cold and everyone left. I had a nice long conversation with Marcel about my single life. He was more than encouraging. Marcel rocks. We talked till midnight and we went home. I am feeling like I want to do more exersize. Who'd down for some B-ball soon?
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Late Late Show
So I went to the taping of Craig Kilborn's late late show with Andy, his buddy Cyrus and Edwin yesterday. It was kind of silly but I was amazed by the work that was put into it. I was really impressed by th eguy who kept us entertained during the breaks. Kilborn was not that funny. but there was one of the guys in the audience that sat up in front. Many people were from out of town. But the schmuck that sat up in the front was a Canadian. He was annoying. Yelling out and trying to get prizes by being obnoxious. Stupid Canadian. of course this is not how I feel about all the Canadians. But this paticular one.... I wanted to kick his maple leaf ass. Just kidding. I would never get in a fight. But watch for us on Friday. They did a spot on Friday show yesterday. The guests we saw were, Dick Clark, BROOK BURKE, and saw Juliette Lewis sing in her band(they sucked).
[Diet Update]
Being the person that I am and loving the kind of food that I love, I am challenged by my diet everyday. It's difficult but not imposiible. I am really not gonna give in.
So I went to the taping of Craig Kilborn's late late show with Andy, his buddy Cyrus and Edwin yesterday. It was kind of silly but I was amazed by the work that was put into it. I was really impressed by th eguy who kept us entertained during the breaks. Kilborn was not that funny. but there was one of the guys in the audience that sat up in front. Many people were from out of town. But the schmuck that sat up in the front was a Canadian. He was annoying. Yelling out and trying to get prizes by being obnoxious. Stupid Canadian. of course this is not how I feel about all the Canadians. But this paticular one.... I wanted to kick his maple leaf ass. Just kidding. I would never get in a fight. But watch for us on Friday. They did a spot on Friday show yesterday. The guests we saw were, Dick Clark, BROOK BURKE, and saw Juliette Lewis sing in her band(they sucked).
[Diet Update]
Being the person that I am and loving the kind of food that I love, I am challenged by my diet everyday. It's difficult but not imposiible. I am really not gonna give in.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
I am gonna stop the insanity like this lady used to say.
Y'all might as well know. I am on a diet. It's been going pretty smooth so far. Last night I went to watch Lord of the Rings. It was a good movie. Even better than what I expected. Great battle scenes and pretty insane special effects. I was thrilled the whole time. After the movie, Al wanted something to eat. I said I was go with him but that I won't be eating. It was late. So I passed the first of many test to come. I did not eat. I drank 2 huge waters. But I was okay with it. I saw Al eating half order of chili cheese fries and Fried Calamari. He washed it down with 2 dark beers. Though there was a temptation, I did not eat. So there it is. I am on diet and I am gonna stick with it. I am gonna stop the insanity.
I realize that I will never be a skinny guy but I do not want to become fat bastard. Wish me luck y'all.
Y'all might as well know. I am on a diet. It's been going pretty smooth so far. Last night I went to watch Lord of the Rings. It was a good movie. Even better than what I expected. Great battle scenes and pretty insane special effects. I was thrilled the whole time. After the movie, Al wanted something to eat. I said I was go with him but that I won't be eating. It was late. So I passed the first of many test to come. I did not eat. I drank 2 huge waters. But I was okay with it. I saw Al eating half order of chili cheese fries and Fried Calamari. He washed it down with 2 dark beers. Though there was a temptation, I did not eat. So there it is. I am on diet and I am gonna stick with it. I am gonna stop the insanity.
I realize that I will never be a skinny guy but I do not want to become fat bastard. Wish me luck y'all.
Thursday, December 18, 2003
I feel like Christmas is in the air this year. I don't know why. But I feel good. Maybe it is staying away from work next two weeks. I am not sure what I will be doing this Christmas. Since my mother is here I will hang with my mom. My mother being here has already impacted my life tremendously. I just feel better. Ten years of not living with my mom has been tougher than I thought. And Kimmay, I am not a mamma's boy.
New commitment
I was reading my cousin's xanga entry about feeling blessed cause he got a C as his final grade. Well I think I'd rather be a C student than what my colleg profesor once told me. He called me a "B+ Student of life". Isn't that terrible? He said that I have all this potential but I never follow through with it. I have a new goal or a new years resolution. This time I am gonna follow through with it. I'll show him a B+ student of life! On my new goal I will get an A+. Oh I don't wanna tell you what my goal is till I am done.
New commitment
I was reading my cousin's xanga entry about feeling blessed cause he got a C as his final grade. Well I think I'd rather be a C student than what my colleg profesor once told me. He called me a "B+ Student of life". Isn't that terrible? He said that I have all this potential but I never follow through with it. I have a new goal or a new years resolution. This time I am gonna follow through with it. I'll show him a B+ student of life! On my new goal I will get an A+. Oh I don't wanna tell you what my goal is till I am done.
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
Vacation, Vacaciones, Hue Gah
I can't wait till this Thursday. That is when I start my 2 week vacation. What should I do? Also, what's going on this new years eve? Talkin' about new years eve, I haven't been to a good new years eve party since college. After last years debacle, Al and I vowed that we were gonna do something fun this year. We say this every year and every year it sucks. SO anyone doing anything fun? And don't say church cause I won't go. I never went to the new years eve service. I have never heard of it before at any other churches. But i am sure all the people go have late dinner afterwards. No thanks. I don't want to go. I 'll go to Christmas service. no need tp listen to 4 sermons in the span of a week or so.
I can't wait till this Thursday. That is when I start my 2 week vacation. What should I do? Also, what's going on this new years eve? Talkin' about new years eve, I haven't been to a good new years eve party since college. After last years debacle, Al and I vowed that we were gonna do something fun this year. We say this every year and every year it sucks. SO anyone doing anything fun? And don't say church cause I won't go. I never went to the new years eve service. I have never heard of it before at any other churches. But i am sure all the people go have late dinner afterwards. No thanks. I don't want to go. I 'll go to Christmas service. no need tp listen to 4 sermons in the span of a week or so.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Mommas Boys
I've heard that many Korean girls think that Korean guys are mamma's boys.... I wonder if this is true. I am curious. I haven't seen my mother for 2 years and now that I see her everyday, I feel like someone cares for me. Am I a momma's boy? I don't think that mu mom feels that way. In fact I am sure that she does not think I am. But I have some friends that shall remain nameless that are momma's boys. They are such wussies. I think that loving one's mother is one thing. But being a momma's boy is a whole different thing. I would think that women don't like momma's boys. Running to their mothers and of course Korean Ajummas love their sons because their sons would never do anything bad. My mother is different. I gaurantee this to my future wife(where ever she maybe), that my mother would probably take the side of her's not mine. My parents I am sure would have been happy to have a daughter. Since they don't have one, and they are stuck with me..... yeah. I can see it now. The three of them ganging up on me. Yikes. I'll bet my mother wishes that I was a little more of a momma's boy. Though I am not, this fact remains the same. I LOVE my mother. She is an awesome mom.
I've heard that many Korean girls think that Korean guys are mamma's boys.... I wonder if this is true. I am curious. I haven't seen my mother for 2 years and now that I see her everyday, I feel like someone cares for me. Am I a momma's boy? I don't think that mu mom feels that way. In fact I am sure that she does not think I am. But I have some friends that shall remain nameless that are momma's boys. They are such wussies. I think that loving one's mother is one thing. But being a momma's boy is a whole different thing. I would think that women don't like momma's boys. Running to their mothers and of course Korean Ajummas love their sons because their sons would never do anything bad. My mother is different. I gaurantee this to my future wife(where ever she maybe), that my mother would probably take the side of her's not mine. My parents I am sure would have been happy to have a daughter. Since they don't have one, and they are stuck with me..... yeah. I can see it now. The three of them ganging up on me. Yikes. I'll bet my mother wishes that I was a little more of a momma's boy. Though I am not, this fact remains the same. I LOVE my mother. She is an awesome mom.
Monday, December 15, 2003
Stress
I did not realize how bad it was.... But it is pretty bad. Damn it. Why the hell did I take that test. I took a stress test and my stress level was off the charts. Really really bad. They could not believe how bad it really was. Let me tell you, I was seriously stessed out. Everyone who took the test, my mom, my aunt, other people were either green or blue level. Only yours truly was at the red level. I am certain that it is due to my work situation.
I need one of these. A massage froma hottie. May be I should marry a masseuse.
I think I need to take better care of my health. I don't want to end up like Saddam Hussein...
Before stress....
After stress...
Yikes.....
Adding on to my stress. an email from Y.Y. Chang. Y.Y. is our.... I don't really know what he does. But I think he is our operation manager. He is a strange cat.
Our sales have slowed down since November. Our situation is still very
critical and need help from every one of our co-workers. If we work
together harder and smarter, we have good future since we do have
good potential. When we succeed, the reward to every one of us will
be significant. On the other hand, if we fail, we will all suffer and our
hard work for the previous many years will be in vain.
How encouraging......
I am glad that my mother is here though. She nagged me for last 4 days, but I needed it.
On a lighter note, here is the greatest pick up line that Marcel and I came up with at a yacht party on Friday night.
Me : I have to put you under arrest.
Her : Why?
Me : Cause your beauty defy the laws.
Is that great or what.
I did not realize how bad it was.... But it is pretty bad. Damn it. Why the hell did I take that test. I took a stress test and my stress level was off the charts. Really really bad. They could not believe how bad it really was. Let me tell you, I was seriously stessed out. Everyone who took the test, my mom, my aunt, other people were either green or blue level. Only yours truly was at the red level. I am certain that it is due to my work situation.
I need one of these. A massage froma hottie. May be I should marry a masseuse.
I think I need to take better care of my health. I don't want to end up like Saddam Hussein...
Before stress....
After stress...
Yikes.....
Adding on to my stress. an email from Y.Y. Chang. Y.Y. is our.... I don't really know what he does. But I think he is our operation manager. He is a strange cat.
Our sales have slowed down since November. Our situation is still very
critical and need help from every one of our co-workers. If we work
together harder and smarter, we have good future since we do have
good potential. When we succeed, the reward to every one of us will
be significant. On the other hand, if we fail, we will all suffer and our
hard work for the previous many years will be in vain.
How encouraging......
I am glad that my mother is here though. She nagged me for last 4 days, but I needed it.
On a lighter note, here is the greatest pick up line that Marcel and I came up with at a yacht party on Friday night.
Me : I have to put you under arrest.
Her : Why?
Me : Cause your beauty defy the laws.
Is that great or what.
Thursday, December 11, 2003
My Dream
I had a silly dream that my cousin Wonteh died. Some of you might know him as Dinko. I would never call him that cause it sounds wacked when I say it. In my dream I was going over to UCLA for some reason, and I told him that I would meet him at the dorm. But when I got there these white guys that I hired to fix my car killed my cousin.
This is him.
So I grabbed a bat and started bashing these whites kids heads in. But my cousin's ghost came to me and said " Even though I am dead, it's ok, cause I am here!"
Than I woke up. I came to work forgetting all about the dream and all of the sudden the dream hit me. So I called him and he seemed fine. I asked "You are not dead, are you?" He seemed fine.
Geez what a dream. We talked about this that and the other. I like my cousin. Infact here is a mental note. I should keep in touch with all my cousins.
I had a silly dream that my cousin Wonteh died. Some of you might know him as Dinko. I would never call him that cause it sounds wacked when I say it. In my dream I was going over to UCLA for some reason, and I told him that I would meet him at the dorm. But when I got there these white guys that I hired to fix my car killed my cousin.
This is him.
So I grabbed a bat and started bashing these whites kids heads in. But my cousin's ghost came to me and said " Even though I am dead, it's ok, cause I am here!"
Than I woke up. I came to work forgetting all about the dream and all of the sudden the dream hit me. So I called him and he seemed fine. I asked "You are not dead, are you?" He seemed fine.
Geez what a dream. We talked about this that and the other. I like my cousin. Infact here is a mental note. I should keep in touch with all my cousins.
My thoughts of the day
It seems that I lost these things for a long time now. No wonder why I seem so sad these days. This is what I learned. It is all about faithfulness and obedience...... Trust and obey, for there's no other way.
So my Madre is coming in today at 2 o'clock. I have not seen her for a while. Almost 2 years. It amazes me that I am so old now. My mother is gonna look so different.... I can't wait to see her. Oh boy it's gonna be emotional.
I was so ashamed of myself yesterday. I had lunch with a co-worker. He and I had a bet. I won. So we were eating and he shared with me his story of how he went back to God. It was amazing to hear his testimony and his faith that he has. His sure confidence that he has in the Lord and his commitment made me shrink. All the whining and bitching that I do to God... Sometimes I think, "how does He stand all my bitching and moaning?" All I can say is that God is good.
I realized that most of my thoughts are useless these days. I daydream about stupid things. Haven't read a book in quite sometime now. I should start reading again. Any good books you've read lately?
It seems that I lost these things for a long time now. No wonder why I seem so sad these days. This is what I learned. It is all about faithfulness and obedience...... Trust and obey, for there's no other way.
So my Madre is coming in today at 2 o'clock. I have not seen her for a while. Almost 2 years. It amazes me that I am so old now. My mother is gonna look so different.... I can't wait to see her. Oh boy it's gonna be emotional.
I was so ashamed of myself yesterday. I had lunch with a co-worker. He and I had a bet. I won. So we were eating and he shared with me his story of how he went back to God. It was amazing to hear his testimony and his faith that he has. His sure confidence that he has in the Lord and his commitment made me shrink. All the whining and bitching that I do to God... Sometimes I think, "how does He stand all my bitching and moaning?" All I can say is that God is good.
I realized that most of my thoughts are useless these days. I daydream about stupid things. Haven't read a book in quite sometime now. I should start reading again. Any good books you've read lately?
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Marriage
I was at my grandmother's last night.She called me so I went there to have dinner. One of her friends was there. They were watching a Korean Drama. My Grandmother and her friend started to drill me about getting married.
Grandma's friend : Seeing any girls?
D. Fevah : Not right now. haha.
Grandma : What is the matter with you.
What does that mean? Cause I am not seeing anyone something is wrong with me?
G's Friend : don't be too picky. You might become too set in your ways and it will become harder. Everyone has flaws.
D. Fevah : Haha. I know. I just haven't been lucky.
Grandma : Luck's got nothing to do with it. What happened to all those girls you hung out with? Look at your cousins. Min-Kyung and Min Jin(twins) are now 32 and they are not getting married.
D. Fevah : I know but I am still young and I am a guy!
G's Friend : 28 is ok. But you should still find someone.
Grandma : I can't die before you get married. So hurry.
D. Fevah : If that's the case I don't wanna marry for a long time so you can live longer.
HAHAHAHHA!
Random phone call from my dad's friend.
Ring Ring Ring.....
D. Fevah : Hello
Dad's Friend : Jung Young Eee?
D. Fevah : oh anyung ha seyo. (hello in Korean)
Dad's friend : So when is your dad coming back?
D. Fevah : I am not sure.
Dad's friend : dating anyone?
what the....
D. Fevah : no.. not right now.
Dad's Friend : Imma! Gyul Hone Parli he ya ji (korean)Translation - hurry up and get married fool!
D. Fevah : .... hhaha... I guess I should.
Dad's Friend : Ok. Well tell your dad to call me when he gets back ok?
D. Fevah : ok.
Jeez... what the heck was that?
Conversation with my mom.
mom : I will be there on Thursday.
Da Fevah : Ok.
Mom : have you lost some weight?
Da Fevah : No not really
Mom : What? you must loose some weight! How are you gonna find a wife! You are too fat! No woman wants a fat guy like you!
Da Fevah : Thanks mom...
I hope that was her form of encouragement.
Mom : ok. I will see you soon.
This is gonna be great. My mom is gonna nag me the whole time that she is here.
Well the topic of marriage is coming up everyday. Marriage? Me? Naw! Not yet. I have so much more to do. What is up with Koreans who try to force marriage on young people. I might get married one day. In fact I want to. But God does not want me to get married yet. Cause it is all according to His will. So there, I will marry when God brings me a wife till than, everyone should just chill.
I was at my grandmother's last night.She called me so I went there to have dinner. One of her friends was there. They were watching a Korean Drama. My Grandmother and her friend started to drill me about getting married.
Grandma's friend : Seeing any girls?
D. Fevah : Not right now. haha.
Grandma : What is the matter with you.
What does that mean? Cause I am not seeing anyone something is wrong with me?
G's Friend : don't be too picky. You might become too set in your ways and it will become harder. Everyone has flaws.
D. Fevah : Haha. I know. I just haven't been lucky.
Grandma : Luck's got nothing to do with it. What happened to all those girls you hung out with? Look at your cousins. Min-Kyung and Min Jin(twins) are now 32 and they are not getting married.
D. Fevah : I know but I am still young and I am a guy!
G's Friend : 28 is ok. But you should still find someone.
Grandma : I can't die before you get married. So hurry.
D. Fevah : If that's the case I don't wanna marry for a long time so you can live longer.
HAHAHAHHA!
Random phone call from my dad's friend.
Ring Ring Ring.....
D. Fevah : Hello
Dad's Friend : Jung Young Eee?
D. Fevah : oh anyung ha seyo. (hello in Korean)
Dad's friend : So when is your dad coming back?
D. Fevah : I am not sure.
Dad's friend : dating anyone?
what the....
D. Fevah : no.. not right now.
Dad's Friend : Imma! Gyul Hone Parli he ya ji (korean)Translation - hurry up and get married fool!
D. Fevah : .... hhaha... I guess I should.
Dad's Friend : Ok. Well tell your dad to call me when he gets back ok?
D. Fevah : ok.
Jeez... what the heck was that?
Conversation with my mom.
mom : I will be there on Thursday.
Da Fevah : Ok.
Mom : have you lost some weight?
Da Fevah : No not really
Mom : What? you must loose some weight! How are you gonna find a wife! You are too fat! No woman wants a fat guy like you!
Da Fevah : Thanks mom...
I hope that was her form of encouragement.
Mom : ok. I will see you soon.
This is gonna be great. My mom is gonna nag me the whole time that she is here.
Well the topic of marriage is coming up everyday. Marriage? Me? Naw! Not yet. I have so much more to do. What is up with Koreans who try to force marriage on young people. I might get married one day. In fact I want to. But God does not want me to get married yet. Cause it is all according to His will. So there, I will marry when God brings me a wife till than, everyone should just chill.
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
Monday, December 08, 2003
Braveheart
I am still sore as hell. Yes I played in the turkey bowl again. It was kind of a let down because lots of our starters could not be there. It sucked. But it was fun. I had too many decletions to count. How about Sam Chu and his brave heart at 34. Even P. Jin made huge impact on the last game. He was an animal! All the guys that were there, were guys with BIG hearts. I was really proud of them all. Even the guys who messed up. Or the guys that got burned, got penalties, droped balls, missed blocks, threw interceptions, missed interceptions, ran wrong routes, whatever it was, they did it with heart.
On Saturday, after the game I came home and thought about some of the guys that I've played with this year. Many guys just gave up and did not even bother to show up. Not everyone of course. Some had real good reasons and others did not. Some just had no heart in it and others just ran out of motivation. Some guys in college group that came out to practice did not bother to tell anyone why they did not play. I realize that some people just don't have the talent. I will not be negative, Yet I want to talk about finishing what you started.... I know that many people are scared to make mistakes and scared of being responsible for the mistakes that they make. I know that our strive for competition sometimes go overboard. With all the yelling and unchristian things that went on, it is easy for one to say that Turkey bowl is un-christian and it serves no purpose. But with that said, I want to talk about the brotherhood that formed. I want to talk about the fellowship that happened with other churches. Getting to know other Christians from other churches. A group of guys that I would have never known had it not been for the little event called Turkey bowl. How about guys in my own team. Some guys that I barely knew before, now when I see them and I see my teammates. I know that Turkey Bowl is not for everyone. I also know that some people really love it.
Personally, I love football. I would have played regardless of it being Christian or not. So it does not matter. But once again I want to talk about finishing what I started. That is just in my blood. Not saying that I am great or nuthin, but I am serious about loyalty and finsihing what I started. I am sure this can be a good thing or a bad thing. If I am on board for something, I want to stick with it till I am done. This is the reason why I am still at my job. Because there is something that I want to finish. This is why I do not church hop. I hope for those that played, it was a good experience for them. Though I am not satisfied with our result, I am extremely happy with the efforts that people who played. It just makes me think how we would have done if we had our entire squad.... the whole time.
To those who gave it their all with me.....
I would like to dedicate the last quote from the movie braveheart;
"In the year of our Lord, 1314, patriots of Scotland, starving and outnumbered, charged the fields of Bannockburn. They fought like warrior poets, they fought like Scotsmen...and won their freedom."
New version
"In the year of our Lord, 2003, memers of CPC, stupid and outnumbered, charged the fields of Da Valley. They fought like warrior poets, they fought like Koreans.... and won some respect."
Oh by the way, I would rather lose like we did than have ringers and win the whole thing. I almost gave into the temptation of using ringers....
I am still sore as hell. Yes I played in the turkey bowl again. It was kind of a let down because lots of our starters could not be there. It sucked. But it was fun. I had too many decletions to count. How about Sam Chu and his brave heart at 34. Even P. Jin made huge impact on the last game. He was an animal! All the guys that were there, were guys with BIG hearts. I was really proud of them all. Even the guys who messed up. Or the guys that got burned, got penalties, droped balls, missed blocks, threw interceptions, missed interceptions, ran wrong routes, whatever it was, they did it with heart.
On Saturday, after the game I came home and thought about some of the guys that I've played with this year. Many guys just gave up and did not even bother to show up. Not everyone of course. Some had real good reasons and others did not. Some just had no heart in it and others just ran out of motivation. Some guys in college group that came out to practice did not bother to tell anyone why they did not play. I realize that some people just don't have the talent. I will not be negative, Yet I want to talk about finishing what you started.... I know that many people are scared to make mistakes and scared of being responsible for the mistakes that they make. I know that our strive for competition sometimes go overboard. With all the yelling and unchristian things that went on, it is easy for one to say that Turkey bowl is un-christian and it serves no purpose. But with that said, I want to talk about the brotherhood that formed. I want to talk about the fellowship that happened with other churches. Getting to know other Christians from other churches. A group of guys that I would have never known had it not been for the little event called Turkey bowl. How about guys in my own team. Some guys that I barely knew before, now when I see them and I see my teammates. I know that Turkey Bowl is not for everyone. I also know that some people really love it.
Personally, I love football. I would have played regardless of it being Christian or not. So it does not matter. But once again I want to talk about finishing what I started. That is just in my blood. Not saying that I am great or nuthin, but I am serious about loyalty and finsihing what I started. I am sure this can be a good thing or a bad thing. If I am on board for something, I want to stick with it till I am done. This is the reason why I am still at my job. Because there is something that I want to finish. This is why I do not church hop. I hope for those that played, it was a good experience for them. Though I am not satisfied with our result, I am extremely happy with the efforts that people who played. It just makes me think how we would have done if we had our entire squad.... the whole time.
To those who gave it their all with me.....
I would like to dedicate the last quote from the movie braveheart;
"In the year of our Lord, 1314, patriots of Scotland, starving and outnumbered, charged the fields of Bannockburn. They fought like warrior poets, they fought like Scotsmen...and won their freedom."
New version
"In the year of our Lord, 2003, memers of CPC, stupid and outnumbered, charged the fields of Da Valley. They fought like warrior poets, they fought like Koreans.... and won some respect."
Oh by the way, I would rather lose like we did than have ringers and win the whole thing. I almost gave into the temptation of using ringers....
Friday, December 05, 2003
Turkey Bowl II (Da Playoffs)
So here it is. Another day for another chance for us the CPC warriors to go out and show all what we are made of. I haven't really blogged about this experience because we sucked last week. and if we do well in the playoffs, I am gonna be in pain.... No doubt about it. This is gonna be madness if you ask me. It's gonna hurt.... Oh the bad attitudes that people get when we go out there.... May be this is the reason that so many "Christians" don't want to particpate. I don't really know. I am certain that I will retire after Saturday. SO I am gonna go out playing the best that I can. Most people think that I am this crazy guy that want to hurt people out there. I am not. I just want to play my best and sometimes I hit someone hard and everyone calls me this killer. But I hope we do well.
So here it is. Another day for another chance for us the CPC warriors to go out and show all what we are made of. I haven't really blogged about this experience because we sucked last week. and if we do well in the playoffs, I am gonna be in pain.... No doubt about it. This is gonna be madness if you ask me. It's gonna hurt.... Oh the bad attitudes that people get when we go out there.... May be this is the reason that so many "Christians" don't want to particpate. I don't really know. I am certain that I will retire after Saturday. SO I am gonna go out playing the best that I can. Most people think that I am this crazy guy that want to hurt people out there. I am not. I just want to play my best and sometimes I hit someone hard and everyone calls me this killer. But I hope we do well.
Christmas is around the corner. ANother Christmas will be here and gone. just like everything. Here and gone. I am seriously getting the tar kicked out of me here at work. Things are pretty bad. Nothing really works here and I am just getting killed out there. I am so tired of this. Talk about shooting ourselves in the foot. That is what we do. We are killing ourselves. It sucks. All the visions and dreams getting crushed right in front of my eyes. I am hoping that someone buys us out or something. One great thing about right now is that it is Friday. But even that does not get me excited right now. This is bullsh*t. (pardon my French) But I just feel like saying that right now. It is not that I don't have joyful momments these days. I have plenty of them. But I also have extreme amount of stress bogging me down. I am so sick of it. I was ready to quit the other day. Just walk in and say that I quit! But I didn't. I am starting to lose my motivation to be here....... The light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer and dimmer........
Thursday, December 04, 2003
My mother is coming
I haven't seen my mom for over a year now. I miss my mom. She is not the most
loving of all the women in this world. But she does love me alot in her
funky way. I think this is the first time I blogged about my mom! Haha. I
love my mom. She is fiesty, short and funny. She used to tell me dirty
jokes when I was a kid. Isn't that awful? She and I were best friends when
I was a kid. She took me everywhere with her. My mom has been the strong
one of the family for a long time now. My mom is a terrible cook. But it
is because my mom is not interested in cooking. hahaha. The irony is that
I am bigger. I can't wait to see her.
I haven't seen my mom for over a year now. I miss my mom. She is not the most
loving of all the women in this world. But she does love me alot in her
funky way. I think this is the first time I blogged about my mom! Haha. I
love my mom. She is fiesty, short and funny. She used to tell me dirty
jokes when I was a kid. Isn't that awful? She and I were best friends when
I was a kid. She took me everywhere with her. My mom has been the strong
one of the family for a long time now. My mom is a terrible cook. But it
is because my mom is not interested in cooking. hahaha. The irony is that
I am bigger. I can't wait to see her.
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Niche Market
I was talking with Kimmay about marketing ourselves to the opposite sex. Yesterday I met P. Jin and afterwards I met Kim. I was telling P. Jin that I did not think I was mature enough to handle a woman. He gave some good advice. He was saying that most guys say that they want this that and the other in a woman. But when you see them they are a mess. P. Jin said he was pretty certain that some woman is going to completely change my views of the world. Well we will see about that. So Kim and I was discussing about marketing ourselves. PR for Da Fevah. Well I need a lot of help. Kim and I both felt that we had no idea where to start. But I am gonna have to come up with a way to get some hottie intersted in Da Fevah. I figure my marketing aproach would have to be pretty agressive. Like I am this fun loving guy that also has an edge.... but that is really not me. If truth was exposed, you will see that Da Fevah wasted his youth with stupidity and madness. May be I need to come up with a niche market. Like what kind of woman would be intersted in a guy like me. The sad thing is that the day that I meet Da One, my alter ego D. Fevah would die..... anyways that is a long time from now. What is important is what kind of women belong to Da Fevah's niche market. Who's eyes would sparkle when seeing Da Fevah..... A Korean/Asian Women all have there favorite brands of shoes or clothes or handbags. All the fashion company have a Niche Market. So what would Da Fevah be if Da Fevah was a brand?
Louis V?
Gucci?
Nah... Not me. I think I am more like Samsonite.... Not too fancy yet practical. Kinda bulky but working on a slim line. I wil tell you though. I may not be as pretty as these hand bags, but you can carry alot more woth me. So there is my marketing! I am Samsonite!
On Andy Lee's blog site, he asked if someone thinks that I look like a celebrity. I said people compare me to Chow Yun Fat. But I wish I was Chow Yun Fit... I think God will send some one my way to rescue me.
Who wants to rescue this luggage and take me home?
I was talking with Kimmay about marketing ourselves to the opposite sex. Yesterday I met P. Jin and afterwards I met Kim. I was telling P. Jin that I did not think I was mature enough to handle a woman. He gave some good advice. He was saying that most guys say that they want this that and the other in a woman. But when you see them they are a mess. P. Jin said he was pretty certain that some woman is going to completely change my views of the world. Well we will see about that. So Kim and I was discussing about marketing ourselves. PR for Da Fevah. Well I need a lot of help. Kim and I both felt that we had no idea where to start. But I am gonna have to come up with a way to get some hottie intersted in Da Fevah. I figure my marketing aproach would have to be pretty agressive. Like I am this fun loving guy that also has an edge.... but that is really not me. If truth was exposed, you will see that Da Fevah wasted his youth with stupidity and madness. May be I need to come up with a niche market. Like what kind of woman would be intersted in a guy like me. The sad thing is that the day that I meet Da One, my alter ego D. Fevah would die..... anyways that is a long time from now. What is important is what kind of women belong to Da Fevah's niche market. Who's eyes would sparkle when seeing Da Fevah..... A Korean/Asian Women all have there favorite brands of shoes or clothes or handbags. All the fashion company have a Niche Market. So what would Da Fevah be if Da Fevah was a brand?
Louis V?
Gucci?
Nah... Not me. I think I am more like Samsonite.... Not too fancy yet practical. Kinda bulky but working on a slim line. I wil tell you though. I may not be as pretty as these hand bags, but you can carry alot more woth me. So there is my marketing! I am Samsonite!
On Andy Lee's blog site, he asked if someone thinks that I look like a celebrity. I said people compare me to Chow Yun Fat. But I wish I was Chow Yun Fit... I think God will send some one my way to rescue me.
Who wants to rescue this luggage and take me home?
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Finally back in paradise.....(and I am not talking about Disneyland)
As some of you know I call my work place Paradice! I was not here yesterday due to my little visit to da 909. I am now sitting at my desk thinking about when to take my vacation. Cause I will lose a whole week if I don't take them by the end of the year.... Talking about vacation, Sam Keener, my old friend came out here with his new wife from New Hampshire. A terrible little state that I road a train through once. Anyways, they went to Disneyland and they told me that it was the busiest they of the year. Day after Thanksgiving.... Hearing that reminded me of my awful trips to Da Tragic Kingdom. The unhappiest place on earth. Disneyland.......
Here is Walt Disney. A man with a great vision who wanted to create the happiest place on earth. He loved children (not like Michael Jackson, who by the way loves Disneyland and disguises himself when he goes... Creepy).
Here is Michael Eisner. The man who is behind making Disneyland what it is today. A Multi-Billion dollar company who represents greed with that sadistic mouse.
My first trip to Disneyland was a very forgettable experience. Before I tell the story, I will tell you this. I loved Disneyland once in mylife. When I was in Korea, my friends who has been to California would tell me what a great place Disneyland was. So with this HUGE expectation, I went to Disneyland for the first time when I was ten years old with my parents. First of all here is the problem. Going with my parents... My dad hates places like disneyland. And we entered Disneyland at 11 AM on a dreadful summer day of 85'. A day that will live in infamy at least in my heart. Every ride that had a long line, my dad would say "That ride is not fun." So we went on line to lame rides like tea cup or other stupid rides with short lines. We waited in line for an hour for a moonburger. After that we went to Tom Sawyer Island. So I was going through the caves and what not. But I got lost.... So here is the situation. I don't speak a lick of English and I lost my parents. There are thousands of people just walking around the Island and I am in Panic mode. After 30 minutes of searching for my parents I had terrible thoughts of losing my parents forever. Than I heard this "Yah, Imma!" It was the voice of my dad! I was saved from becoming an Orphan! So I was walking back and I saw my mother teary eyed... I gave her a hug. ANd she first embraced me and than she smacked me in the forehead. Than my dad said "lets GO home!" So we left at 3 PM. So in total I was at Disneyland for 5 hours. I thought that Disneyland was the worst place on earth.
But when I went again with my friends, I thought it was great.... But here comes the tragedy. Everytime a cousin or a relative came from the motherland I went to Disneyland. Whether it was my aunt or anyone else. More and more I went, less and less I liked that God Fosaken place. I knew that place from corner to corner. What about the terrible crowd there. Lines after lines. And the people who work there... They have this unbelievable pride about working there. They are so sadistic. I am sure that many Korean American can understand why I HATE Disneyland.
I think I saw Captain EO like 70 times. The only redeeming part of Disneyland. I use to be able to say the lines verbatim. I must admit with shame, I was a big fan of Captain EO. It was great cause it represented my youth. Obviously I was a huge Michael Jackson fan. Who wan't? and I can just sit there for 20 minutes or so and relax from the madness that is Disney. No mouse, No duck or Goofy. But last time I went to Disneyland, it was honey I shrunk the audience. Which is not even nearly cool as Captain EO.
My final statement about why liked Captain EO : It was just another part of me... Woo HOO! (some of you who don't get this might be to young)
As some of you know I call my work place Paradice! I was not here yesterday due to my little visit to da 909. I am now sitting at my desk thinking about when to take my vacation. Cause I will lose a whole week if I don't take them by the end of the year.... Talking about vacation, Sam Keener, my old friend came out here with his new wife from New Hampshire. A terrible little state that I road a train through once. Anyways, they went to Disneyland and they told me that it was the busiest they of the year. Day after Thanksgiving.... Hearing that reminded me of my awful trips to Da Tragic Kingdom. The unhappiest place on earth. Disneyland.......
Here is Walt Disney. A man with a great vision who wanted to create the happiest place on earth. He loved children (not like Michael Jackson, who by the way loves Disneyland and disguises himself when he goes... Creepy).
Here is Michael Eisner. The man who is behind making Disneyland what it is today. A Multi-Billion dollar company who represents greed with that sadistic mouse.
My first trip to Disneyland was a very forgettable experience. Before I tell the story, I will tell you this. I loved Disneyland once in mylife. When I was in Korea, my friends who has been to California would tell me what a great place Disneyland was. So with this HUGE expectation, I went to Disneyland for the first time when I was ten years old with my parents. First of all here is the problem. Going with my parents... My dad hates places like disneyland. And we entered Disneyland at 11 AM on a dreadful summer day of 85'. A day that will live in infamy at least in my heart. Every ride that had a long line, my dad would say "That ride is not fun." So we went on line to lame rides like tea cup or other stupid rides with short lines. We waited in line for an hour for a moonburger. After that we went to Tom Sawyer Island. So I was going through the caves and what not. But I got lost.... So here is the situation. I don't speak a lick of English and I lost my parents. There are thousands of people just walking around the Island and I am in Panic mode. After 30 minutes of searching for my parents I had terrible thoughts of losing my parents forever. Than I heard this "Yah, Imma!" It was the voice of my dad! I was saved from becoming an Orphan! So I was walking back and I saw my mother teary eyed... I gave her a hug. ANd she first embraced me and than she smacked me in the forehead. Than my dad said "lets GO home!" So we left at 3 PM. So in total I was at Disneyland for 5 hours. I thought that Disneyland was the worst place on earth.
But when I went again with my friends, I thought it was great.... But here comes the tragedy. Everytime a cousin or a relative came from the motherland I went to Disneyland. Whether it was my aunt or anyone else. More and more I went, less and less I liked that God Fosaken place. I knew that place from corner to corner. What about the terrible crowd there. Lines after lines. And the people who work there... They have this unbelievable pride about working there. They are so sadistic. I am sure that many Korean American can understand why I HATE Disneyland.
I think I saw Captain EO like 70 times. The only redeeming part of Disneyland. I use to be able to say the lines verbatim. I must admit with shame, I was a big fan of Captain EO. It was great cause it represented my youth. Obviously I was a huge Michael Jackson fan. Who wan't? and I can just sit there for 20 minutes or so and relax from the madness that is Disney. No mouse, No duck or Goofy. But last time I went to Disneyland, it was honey I shrunk the audience. Which is not even nearly cool as Captain EO.
My final statement about why liked Captain EO : It was just another part of me... Woo HOO! (some of you who don't get this might be to young)
Monday, December 01, 2003
Business at Da 909
So I was at San Bernadino this this morning. It was obviously for work. And right next to the Minolta was a strip club anf their slogan was, "Stop imagining and start indulging!" Only in the 909 can you have a respectable business right next to a strip club..... Anyways, the weekend was intersting. Turkey day was great and so was seeing my old friends Fro and Sam. Turkey bowl was intersting. We barely made da playoffs. But going back to San Bernadino..... Oh the dreadful 909.... I think da Valley, and da Inland Empire is good for nobody. I see the people walking and talking just like people in LA and OC. But there is something different about them. There is a small bit of misery about the 909 and the 818. I feel that everytime I go to these places. Oh the 909.... I hate the 909. It's like regular people go there and get their souls ripped out. You will notice that people are just a little more rougher. Their manners are a little different. Absolutly no one has pride about living in da 909. To think that i'll be going to da 909 and da 818 often.... Jeez.
So I was at San Bernadino this this morning. It was obviously for work. And right next to the Minolta was a strip club anf their slogan was, "Stop imagining and start indulging!" Only in the 909 can you have a respectable business right next to a strip club..... Anyways, the weekend was intersting. Turkey day was great and so was seeing my old friends Fro and Sam. Turkey bowl was intersting. We barely made da playoffs. But going back to San Bernadino..... Oh the dreadful 909.... I think da Valley, and da Inland Empire is good for nobody. I see the people walking and talking just like people in LA and OC. But there is something different about them. There is a small bit of misery about the 909 and the 818. I feel that everytime I go to these places. Oh the 909.... I hate the 909. It's like regular people go there and get their souls ripped out. You will notice that people are just a little more rougher. Their manners are a little different. Absolutly no one has pride about living in da 909. To think that i'll be going to da 909 and da 818 often.... Jeez.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Dan Beaux
Last night Beaux came over. He wanted to watch a movie. He rented "Finding Nemo".... How gay is that. But Got over that real quick. So watched it last night. But before we watched Finding Nemo, I told Beaux that there is a Korean actor who looks like him. I have these Korean Music Videos on DVD. We watched the music video first and he couldn't even deny it... Hahaha
His name is Bak Jung Chul. I am ceratin Beaux is some how related to him.
Beaux would look like this if he was a fob! hahahaha!
Beaux is an intersting character. Last time he insisted that we watch How to lose a man in 10 days? is that what it's called? I don't remember. But he is a cool cat. In fact I can't believe he is still single. He loves ropmatic comedy. So ladies I can really vouch for this guy. You will be unbelievably happy with Beaux. No doubt about it. I don't have a picture of him but he really looks like that guy in the picture up there. He is a baller. Also in our football team he is our Prime Time. Beaux is not gay despite his taste in movies. A natural born entrepreneur. His Beaux brand shirts are famous in local areas. He has a good job. ANd he's got an urban hip hop style mixed with surfer boyish look to him. So a recap, loves romantic comedy, good at sports, looks like a Korean celebrity, natural business man, and will be good to you. The boy is smooth. Anyone intersted?
Last night Beaux came over. He wanted to watch a movie. He rented "Finding Nemo".... How gay is that. But Got over that real quick. So watched it last night. But before we watched Finding Nemo, I told Beaux that there is a Korean actor who looks like him. I have these Korean Music Videos on DVD. We watched the music video first and he couldn't even deny it... Hahaha
His name is Bak Jung Chul. I am ceratin Beaux is some how related to him.
Beaux would look like this if he was a fob! hahahaha!
Beaux is an intersting character. Last time he insisted that we watch How to lose a man in 10 days? is that what it's called? I don't remember. But he is a cool cat. In fact I can't believe he is still single. He loves ropmatic comedy. So ladies I can really vouch for this guy. You will be unbelievably happy with Beaux. No doubt about it. I don't have a picture of him but he really looks like that guy in the picture up there. He is a baller. Also in our football team he is our Prime Time. Beaux is not gay despite his taste in movies. A natural born entrepreneur. His Beaux brand shirts are famous in local areas. He has a good job. ANd he's got an urban hip hop style mixed with surfer boyish look to him. So a recap, loves romantic comedy, good at sports, looks like a Korean celebrity, natural business man, and will be good to you. The boy is smooth. Anyone intersted?
Coming close to the day of Da Bird
I love Thanksgiving. Its a day that I really appreciate because it is a day that I just consume so much food. Being da Korean that I am, (very good looking one) I never celebrated Thanksgiving with my mom and dad. On that day we always ate Galbi or other meat.
My thanksgiving meals usually looked like this.... Not that I am complaining, cause I love this stuff. My dad always hated Turkey. He would say, "Chil-Myun-Jo(Turkey In Korean) is dry and taste like wood!" My mother said "Americans are strange. Why do they slave over all day over a bird that taste so plain? I much prefer Chicken." Well until I came to America, I never had Turkey. Even after I came, I did not have Turkey for a long time. I disagree with my parents. Turkey is da bomb. When cooked right, Turkey is a very tasty bird. I've been a bum for last ten years and I've been going to other people's homes for thanksgiving. The Klein's Thanksgiving were always great. They really made me feel like I was part of their family. I could be a Korean Jew... A Kew! This year I am going to Frobucks house. An old fraternity buddy from college. They usually throw a feast. So this is dedicated to all those who have invited this latch key(good looking) child to eat at their homes. Not just for Thanksgiving, but for all da meals. Thank you. I love you. Nothing quite like celebrating killings of thousands if American Indians.... Eat up! Just kidding. Have a great Thanksgiving DAY Y'alls!
I love Thanksgiving. Its a day that I really appreciate because it is a day that I just consume so much food. Being da Korean that I am, (very good looking one) I never celebrated Thanksgiving with my mom and dad. On that day we always ate Galbi or other meat.
My thanksgiving meals usually looked like this.... Not that I am complaining, cause I love this stuff. My dad always hated Turkey. He would say, "Chil-Myun-Jo(Turkey In Korean) is dry and taste like wood!" My mother said "Americans are strange. Why do they slave over all day over a bird that taste so plain? I much prefer Chicken." Well until I came to America, I never had Turkey. Even after I came, I did not have Turkey for a long time. I disagree with my parents. Turkey is da bomb. When cooked right, Turkey is a very tasty bird. I've been a bum for last ten years and I've been going to other people's homes for thanksgiving. The Klein's Thanksgiving were always great. They really made me feel like I was part of their family. I could be a Korean Jew... A Kew! This year I am going to Frobucks house. An old fraternity buddy from college. They usually throw a feast. So this is dedicated to all those who have invited this latch key(good looking) child to eat at their homes. Not just for Thanksgiving, but for all da meals. Thank you. I love you. Nothing quite like celebrating killings of thousands if American Indians.... Eat up! Just kidding. Have a great Thanksgiving DAY Y'alls!
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Kim Kong
Kim and Al were over last night and we watched Memories of Murder. What a great movie. But when Kim trip and stepped hard onto the floor, it made this big boom noise. I said "damn Kim". She was like Kim Kong! Ravaging through the malls and discount stores. Hear her roar through out South Coast Plaza! She is dangerous. Kim Kong will shop till there is nothing left anymore. I wonder if Kim Kong tried to climb the empire state building whil she was in NY last week.
This is one my first real entries about my friend, beloved Kim Yu. Kimmay is a cutey with a nice booty. Kim has been a friend to me since college. She is funny and girly, honest and loyal. I can go on forever about Kim. She is like a sista that I never had. We did not always get along so well. In college, we had some episodes. But now she is one of my Favorite of favorites. How great is Kimmay?
But something also about Kimmay. She was like Mango from SNL.
"Can you touch the rainbow? Such was the Kim Yu."
She use to hate being touched. You touch her arm you might hear this "EEEEEK" like a mouse. She has gotten a little better. But I couldn't ask for a better friend. Kim Yu da woman! Also Kim Kong is single. So if some of you clowns have the Nad, you should ask her out.
This is one my favorite picture of Kimmay and I. You can also check out her Xanga here!
Kim and Al were over last night and we watched Memories of Murder. What a great movie. But when Kim trip and stepped hard onto the floor, it made this big boom noise. I said "damn Kim". She was like Kim Kong! Ravaging through the malls and discount stores. Hear her roar through out South Coast Plaza! She is dangerous. Kim Kong will shop till there is nothing left anymore. I wonder if Kim Kong tried to climb the empire state building whil she was in NY last week.
This is one my first real entries about my friend, beloved Kim Yu. Kimmay is a cutey with a nice booty. Kim has been a friend to me since college. She is funny and girly, honest and loyal. I can go on forever about Kim. She is like a sista that I never had. We did not always get along so well. In college, we had some episodes. But now she is one of my Favorite of favorites. How great is Kimmay?
But something also about Kimmay. She was like Mango from SNL.
"Can you touch the rainbow? Such was the Kim Yu."
She use to hate being touched. You touch her arm you might hear this "EEEEEK" like a mouse. She has gotten a little better. But I couldn't ask for a better friend. Kim Yu da woman! Also Kim Kong is single. So if some of you clowns have the Nad, you should ask her out.
This is one my favorite picture of Kimmay and I. You can also check out her Xanga here!
Monday, November 24, 2003
Hyung
I haven't been at work for a week and now that I am back, I feel like I was just here the other day. It was a pretty nice weekend. I came home and immediately went out to Bluenote for Sharon's birthday. I was tired the whole time. I remember Bluenote was a place that I went to almost everyday when I was in college. Yeah the place was alot different back than. All the hyungs that would buy us drinks and now it seems people that are my age have become hyungs. I go to Bluenote once in a while and it is something that I can say that never really changes. Only people. My buddy Paul can be seen there almost everytime you go there. But going back to being a hyung..... I really don't feel like one. Yeah hyungs were great back in the day. They would buy us drinks and take care of us and what not. But it seems the Hyunghood or Hyungness is dying these days. All the punk ass kids that I know would never call me hyung. They would say things like, "you have to earn my respect in order for me to to call some one a hyung." Does this mean that they don't respect me? hahahaha. I was just talking about this to some girls at church. One said "Calling some one Unni is so fobbish." Personally I don't really care if some one calls me hyung or oppa. It seems like it a dying art among Korean Americans. I remember back in the day even Korean Americans did the old hyung and noona thing. But it died one day. Back when I was in college I was all about the sun-bae, Hoo-bae thing. I was always(?) good to my hyungs and dong sengs. But one day all of that ended. I wonder what would happen if I started forcing people to call me these things now. hahahaha. I guess it wouldn't work out to well. Dat Nigga Sam already said he would never do that. hahahaha. I guess I can say that it is something many Korean Americans are missing out on. Because it is some thing that is pretty unique among the Korean peeps. I agree that respect is something that one must earn. But it is pretty awkward subject among the Korean American kids. I am part fob, part not, so it does not matter so much with me. If you are not Korean, sorry. But you can ask me to explain this to you later.
I haven't been at work for a week and now that I am back, I feel like I was just here the other day. It was a pretty nice weekend. I came home and immediately went out to Bluenote for Sharon's birthday. I was tired the whole time. I remember Bluenote was a place that I went to almost everyday when I was in college. Yeah the place was alot different back than. All the hyungs that would buy us drinks and now it seems people that are my age have become hyungs. I go to Bluenote once in a while and it is something that I can say that never really changes. Only people. My buddy Paul can be seen there almost everytime you go there. But going back to being a hyung..... I really don't feel like one. Yeah hyungs were great back in the day. They would buy us drinks and take care of us and what not. But it seems the Hyunghood or Hyungness is dying these days. All the punk ass kids that I know would never call me hyung. They would say things like, "you have to earn my respect in order for me to to call some one a hyung." Does this mean that they don't respect me? hahahaha. I was just talking about this to some girls at church. One said "Calling some one Unni is so fobbish." Personally I don't really care if some one calls me hyung or oppa. It seems like it a dying art among Korean Americans. I remember back in the day even Korean Americans did the old hyung and noona thing. But it died one day. Back when I was in college I was all about the sun-bae, Hoo-bae thing. I was always(?) good to my hyungs and dong sengs. But one day all of that ended. I wonder what would happen if I started forcing people to call me these things now. hahahaha. I guess it wouldn't work out to well. Dat Nigga Sam already said he would never do that. hahahaha. I guess I can say that it is something many Korean Americans are missing out on. Because it is some thing that is pretty unique among the Korean peeps. I agree that respect is something that one must earn. But it is pretty awkward subject among the Korean American kids. I am part fob, part not, so it does not matter so much with me. If you are not Korean, sorry. But you can ask me to explain this to you later.
Saturday, November 22, 2003
I am back.
Being at Northern Cal all week has taken it's toll on D. Fevah. But it was a great trip. I am so glad that I am back though. I was home sick. I gotta say, that I am like a SoCal Chone-Nom. I can't stand being out of it too long. I hung out with many people over the week. Danny Ronen is a friend from high school and it was good seeing him again. Titus is always friendly and we had a blast at the wedding. Jonathan in an amazing guy. I had a role in the wedding. I have never been to a Jewish wedding so it was a blast. They got a Rabbi from Germany. The Rabbi's accent was so funny. He said "pwease place da Wing in the bride's finger". Even the bride cracked up. I gave a toast and it was really odd knowing that I've given so many toasts at weddings. But the reception was unbeliveable! The wedding was at Tilden Park of the Berkeley Hills. It was beautiful. Hanging with Jonathan's Yale buddies was an interesting experience. It was incredible that I was in a room with so many extraordinary group of highly motivated and intelligent people. The group was diverse from real professionals to idealists. Lawyers to movie critics. Yes one of Jonathan's friend was a movie critic at a Boston Newspaper. It was cool. Seeing Jonathan's Family was awesome too. They have been so good to me through out the years.
Couple of things that happened to me up North that might be worth mentioning. During the week, all I did was work. On Thgursday morning, I was done with my meeting and I went to the local bucks. I ate something and enjoyed my Bucks. I was walking towards my car and I saw these 2 ghetto punk asses that were standing around my car, looking inside. I saw one of them looking around, positioned with his back to the door. But his hands were on the door handle of my rental car. So obvious that this clown was trying to open my door. SO I walked up to them with my cell phone in my hand.
Da Fevah - wassup guys?
Thug #1 - what...
Da Fevah - having fun?
Thug #2 - is this your car?
Da Fevah - It sure is.
Thug #2 - Oh shoot. My bad I thought it was mine.
Da fevah - I am sure that you did. Now get the hell away from the car.
They just walked away. What the hell man. In broad day light! Well this happened in a city called Alameda.
Next thing that happened is at a city called Emryville. I was having coffee after breakfast with some girl from the wedding. She went to the restroom and this Korean jackass comes up to me withg bunch of DVDs and says.....
Korean Jackass - Yo you wanna a DVD?
It was movies that has not come out on Video store yet.
Da Fevah - naw dog!
Korean Jackass - I'll hook you up.
Da fevah - It's alright.
K J - What kind of movies you like.
Da Fevah - Not those ones.
Than he gave me this creepy smile.
K J - U want porn?
Da fevah - What?
K J - Asian Porn?
Da Fevah - no man.
He walked away. I was offended. Do I look like a guy who would buy porn from the streets?
Anyways, I think that I really appreciate dthe fact that I was in SoCal when I was up north. I really can't live up north. But I reallly love my friends that are up north. It's intersting to see how my old friends change through out the years. It's sad and great. It's sad that our lives change regardless of our feelings and our needs. It's great to see us mature though. It was a great trip and I hope that Jonathan and Amanda are always happy together. I did sent out a quik prayer for them while I was leaving.
Being at Northern Cal all week has taken it's toll on D. Fevah. But it was a great trip. I am so glad that I am back though. I was home sick. I gotta say, that I am like a SoCal Chone-Nom. I can't stand being out of it too long. I hung out with many people over the week. Danny Ronen is a friend from high school and it was good seeing him again. Titus is always friendly and we had a blast at the wedding. Jonathan in an amazing guy. I had a role in the wedding. I have never been to a Jewish wedding so it was a blast. They got a Rabbi from Germany. The Rabbi's accent was so funny. He said "pwease place da Wing in the bride's finger". Even the bride cracked up. I gave a toast and it was really odd knowing that I've given so many toasts at weddings. But the reception was unbeliveable! The wedding was at Tilden Park of the Berkeley Hills. It was beautiful. Hanging with Jonathan's Yale buddies was an interesting experience. It was incredible that I was in a room with so many extraordinary group of highly motivated and intelligent people. The group was diverse from real professionals to idealists. Lawyers to movie critics. Yes one of Jonathan's friend was a movie critic at a Boston Newspaper. It was cool. Seeing Jonathan's Family was awesome too. They have been so good to me through out the years.
Couple of things that happened to me up North that might be worth mentioning. During the week, all I did was work. On Thgursday morning, I was done with my meeting and I went to the local bucks. I ate something and enjoyed my Bucks. I was walking towards my car and I saw these 2 ghetto punk asses that were standing around my car, looking inside. I saw one of them looking around, positioned with his back to the door. But his hands were on the door handle of my rental car. So obvious that this clown was trying to open my door. SO I walked up to them with my cell phone in my hand.
Da Fevah - wassup guys?
Thug #1 - what...
Da Fevah - having fun?
Thug #2 - is this your car?
Da Fevah - It sure is.
Thug #2 - Oh shoot. My bad I thought it was mine.
Da fevah - I am sure that you did. Now get the hell away from the car.
They just walked away. What the hell man. In broad day light! Well this happened in a city called Alameda.
Next thing that happened is at a city called Emryville. I was having coffee after breakfast with some girl from the wedding. She went to the restroom and this Korean jackass comes up to me withg bunch of DVDs and says.....
Korean Jackass - Yo you wanna a DVD?
It was movies that has not come out on Video store yet.
Da Fevah - naw dog!
Korean Jackass - I'll hook you up.
Da fevah - It's alright.
K J - What kind of movies you like.
Da Fevah - Not those ones.
Than he gave me this creepy smile.
K J - U want porn?
Da fevah - What?
K J - Asian Porn?
Da Fevah - no man.
He walked away. I was offended. Do I look like a guy who would buy porn from the streets?
Anyways, I think that I really appreciate dthe fact that I was in SoCal when I was up north. I really can't live up north. But I reallly love my friends that are up north. It's intersting to see how my old friends change through out the years. It's sad and great. It's sad that our lives change regardless of our feelings and our needs. It's great to see us mature though. It was a great trip and I hope that Jonathan and Amanda are always happy together. I did sent out a quik prayer for them while I was leaving.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Berkeley
I was at Berkeley last night and I gotta tell ya, they lack some good looking chicks. I could not find one hot chick. It was sad. My business trip has been really good. Made some real progress. This morning was the most sucessful. Yeah Berkeley was sad. I actually went to campus. No hotties in site. The whole time that I've been here, I saw one hot chick in SF at a Starbucks. Sad I know.
I was at Berkeley last night and I gotta tell ya, they lack some good looking chicks. I could not find one hot chick. It was sad. My business trip has been really good. Made some real progress. This morning was the most sucessful. Yeah Berkeley was sad. I actually went to campus. No hotties in site. The whole time that I've been here, I saw one hot chick in SF at a Starbucks. Sad I know.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
Jung vs. Da Fevah
I met up with my highschool friend Steve and his room mate Tim. They are grad students at Cal. Their major is Astro Physics. Tim is from Boston and he had that thick Boston accent. It was funny. He said "yeah I went to a highschool across the street from Fenway Paahk". Real Massachusetts accent like that Movie Good Will Hunting. They say "Hahvahd" instead of Harvard. One of the very few Bostonians that I've met that I liked. Steve, Tim and I had dinner at a Indian restaurant called Viceroy. They asked me what this "Da Fevah" was all about. I told them that "Da Fevah" was my alter ego. Jung goes to church every Sunday and Da Fevah goes out every weekend...... haha... Just kidding? I don't know. But what I do know is that with a alter ego like "Da Fevah", I talk about myself in third person. For example, "You don't want to mess with Da Fevah, cause Da Fevah will kick you ass..." It's like the incredible hulk. You get me staahted(Boston) on stupidity, I turn into Da Fevah.... Jung thinks Boston is a quaint little city with lots of history and beatiful architure. Da Fevah thinks Boston smells and is full of stupidity and ugly chicks. You see the difference?
I met up with my highschool friend Steve and his room mate Tim. They are grad students at Cal. Their major is Astro Physics. Tim is from Boston and he had that thick Boston accent. It was funny. He said "yeah I went to a highschool across the street from Fenway Paahk". Real Massachusetts accent like that Movie Good Will Hunting. They say "Hahvahd" instead of Harvard. One of the very few Bostonians that I've met that I liked. Steve, Tim and I had dinner at a Indian restaurant called Viceroy. They asked me what this "Da Fevah" was all about. I told them that "Da Fevah" was my alter ego. Jung goes to church every Sunday and Da Fevah goes out every weekend...... haha... Just kidding? I don't know. But what I do know is that with a alter ego like "Da Fevah", I talk about myself in third person. For example, "You don't want to mess with Da Fevah, cause Da Fevah will kick you ass..." It's like the incredible hulk. You get me staahted(Boston) on stupidity, I turn into Da Fevah.... Jung thinks Boston is a quaint little city with lots of history and beatiful architure. Da Fevah thinks Boston smells and is full of stupidity and ugly chicks. You see the difference?
I am now in a library in Foster City. Foster City is like the Irvine of Northern California. Yeah it's really wacked here. I found out that Foster City was once nothing but a plott of land owned by a man named Foster. He put limitations on what you can build and what color and such, just like Irvine. How wacked is that? It is boring up in this mug. Fo Sho! But I will be outta here after the meeting tommorow.
wassup y'all. I am in SF. So far I've seen some God aweful things here. A crack ho came up to me last night and asked for money. I said I did not have any. than she said "Can we date?" When I got passed feeling disgusted, I felt bad for her....
Today I saw a man who looks like George kastanza cuss out a homeless.
She was knitting something and she asked for money. He said "Get a job!" She said "I had one!" blah blah. The old man siad why don't you s*bleep* my d*bleep*. How mean is that?
Yikes..... Hope you are all doing well....
Today I saw a man who looks like George kastanza cuss out a homeless.
She was knitting something and she asked for money. He said "Get a job!" She said "I had one!" blah blah. The old man siad why don't you s*bleep* my d*bleep*. How mean is that?
Yikes..... Hope you are all doing well....
Friday, November 14, 2003
San Francisco/Oakland/Alameda
Above is a picture of SF in Legoland, This is where I will be next week. (In SF, not legoland) On a business trip. I am kinda glad I am skippin town next week. I am also gonna be at Jonathan and amanda's wedding on Friday. I hope that SoCal won't miss me too much. I am sure it won't. The funny thing about being gone for a week is that I finnaly a have my freedom from my tryniacal pops yet I won't be here. I will he up north. One of the perks about being a travelling sales man is that I get to leave once in a while. Away from the daily grind and in a new environment.
Since I am gonna be in Berkeley, you can be sure that I will visit Top Dog. I have one of their T-shirts.(thanks to Andycalbear) I am sure you've seen me wearing it.
Does it make you wonder why someone would want to live in SF. I think that SF is pretty cool and all. But I think it is a bit over rated. I love many things about that city. Especially their China Town.
There is a restaurant called House of Nanking. I kid you not, their food is Da Bomb. They are a small hole in the wall chinese restaurant. They serve you on metal plates. But you certainly don't go there for the ambiance. I have never been to a Chinese restaurants where the service was great. They pretty much throw their food at you. But the owner of the place is pretty cool. If you've never been there, and you see the owner, ask him to recomend somethin' and it is a winner.
But outside "the city"(as the Norther Californians like to say it), there is nothing else..... So once you get sick of "the City" (as if it was the only city in the world) it's over. How about their dreaded sports teams. Giants and Niners. Not too far away they have the Sac Queens. I hate them all with a passion. I really do. Oakland is Ok. They have the Faiders and the A's. But it's ghetto. So there it is. Why anyone wants to live there is beyond me. No parking and expensive. Yuck. But they do have the BART(Bay Area Rail Transit).[update] It is Bay Area RAPID not rail Transit. Some real cool person told me so.
The only thing that I am really jealous of. But its cool.
Final Say
I LOVE LA/oc!
Above is a picture of SF in Legoland, This is where I will be next week. (In SF, not legoland) On a business trip. I am kinda glad I am skippin town next week. I am also gonna be at Jonathan and amanda's wedding on Friday. I hope that SoCal won't miss me too much. I am sure it won't. The funny thing about being gone for a week is that I finnaly a have my freedom from my tryniacal pops yet I won't be here. I will he up north. One of the perks about being a travelling sales man is that I get to leave once in a while. Away from the daily grind and in a new environment.
Since I am gonna be in Berkeley, you can be sure that I will visit Top Dog. I have one of their T-shirts.(thanks to Andycalbear) I am sure you've seen me wearing it.
Does it make you wonder why someone would want to live in SF. I think that SF is pretty cool and all. But I think it is a bit over rated. I love many things about that city. Especially their China Town.
There is a restaurant called House of Nanking. I kid you not, their food is Da Bomb. They are a small hole in the wall chinese restaurant. They serve you on metal plates. But you certainly don't go there for the ambiance. I have never been to a Chinese restaurants where the service was great. They pretty much throw their food at you. But the owner of the place is pretty cool. If you've never been there, and you see the owner, ask him to recomend somethin' and it is a winner.
But outside "the city"(as the Norther Californians like to say it), there is nothing else..... So once you get sick of "the City" (as if it was the only city in the world) it's over. How about their dreaded sports teams. Giants and Niners. Not too far away they have the Sac Queens. I hate them all with a passion. I really do. Oakland is Ok. They have the Faiders and the A's. But it's ghetto. So there it is. Why anyone wants to live there is beyond me. No parking and expensive. Yuck. But they do have the BART(Bay Area Rail Transit).[update] It is Bay Area RAPID not rail Transit. Some real cool person told me so.
The only thing that I am really jealous of. But its cool.
Final Say
I LOVE LA/oc!
Today I am forgiven as I am everyday. I am refreshed. All the days of sadness and madness that consumes me have made me learn that I need Him more than ever. I am thirsty again for the Lord. I learned a tough lesson and I continue to make mistakes. But with da Lord I am invincible. I want the relationship to be better. I want the real fellowship with my Brothers and sisters again. I want my brothers and sisters to keep me accountable. I want to keep my brothers and sisters accountable. I need da Lord. I can't wait for what da Lord has in store for me.
Thursday, November 13, 2003
Food Coma...
I found a new restaurant for sushi. I kid you not. It is da bomb. It is almost up there with Maeda. Another all you can eat sushi place called Joe's sushi. It was really good. Hoon and I went to eat there for lunch. It was all that and a bag of chips. I was not at work today. I went to Anaheim. My dad left. We resolved our differences. I gotta say that God is always good. I hope everything goes well in Korea. So I will be up north all week next week and I won't be able to blog. I gotta say, Joe's Sushi is da bomb. anyone intersted in going, let me know.
I found a new restaurant for sushi. I kid you not. It is da bomb. It is almost up there with Maeda. Another all you can eat sushi place called Joe's sushi. It was really good. Hoon and I went to eat there for lunch. It was all that and a bag of chips. I was not at work today. I went to Anaheim. My dad left. We resolved our differences. I gotta say that God is always good. I hope everything goes well in Korea. So I will be up north all week next week and I won't be able to blog. I gotta say, Joe's Sushi is da bomb. anyone intersted in going, let me know.
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
Home Alone
So my freedom will be hear at last. My pops is going to Korea. I will be home alone again...... But this time I will be different. This time I am gonna be clean and rsponsible. This time I am gonna do everything like a normal clean red blooded guy near 30 is gonna live. Gone are the days that beer bottles are all over my apartment.(I quit drinking beers) Gone are the day of clothes all over the apt. Gone are the days Cigarette ash is all over the house. I am gonna be mean, clean, healthy machine! But you are all welcome to come over. May be I'll start movie nights again!
So my freedom will be hear at last. My pops is going to Korea. I will be home alone again...... But this time I will be different. This time I am gonna be clean and rsponsible. This time I am gonna do everything like a normal clean red blooded guy near 30 is gonna live. Gone are the days that beer bottles are all over my apartment.(I quit drinking beers) Gone are the day of clothes all over the apt. Gone are the days Cigarette ash is all over the house. I am gonna be mean, clean, healthy machine! But you are all welcome to come over. May be I'll start movie nights again!
The Old School Testament
The Old Testament is pretty awesome. This morning before work, Fou-Sen shared with me about the book of Genesis. I thought that it was pretty cool. He was saying that the 5 book of law is a mini bible. They all pretty much tell the whole story of the bible. Pretty cool.
Genesis - Plan from everlasting to everlasting.
Exodus - Plan of Salvation
Leviticus - Worship (proper guideline)
Numbers - Plans of daily living
Deuteronomy - Review of God's plans.
Pretty simple right?
Well here is something that is even more interesting. From the book of Genesis, there are 7 characters that represent the entire bible! Pretty rad! (feeling 80's again)
Here are names and what they represent
Adam - Sin against God
Caine - Sin against man
Noah - Deliverance (yet still sinful)
Abraham - Faith
Isaac - Promise
Jacob - Chosen by Grace
Joseph - example of Christ-like life
I just had to share all this with all of y'all.
The Old Testament is pretty awesome. This morning before work, Fou-Sen shared with me about the book of Genesis. I thought that it was pretty cool. He was saying that the 5 book of law is a mini bible. They all pretty much tell the whole story of the bible. Pretty cool.
Genesis - Plan from everlasting to everlasting.
Exodus - Plan of Salvation
Leviticus - Worship (proper guideline)
Numbers - Plans of daily living
Deuteronomy - Review of God's plans.
Pretty simple right?
Well here is something that is even more interesting. From the book of Genesis, there are 7 characters that represent the entire bible! Pretty rad! (feeling 80's again)
Here are names and what they represent
Adam - Sin against God
Caine - Sin against man
Noah - Deliverance (yet still sinful)
Abraham - Faith
Isaac - Promise
Jacob - Chosen by Grace
Joseph - example of Christ-like life
I just had to share all this with all of y'all.
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
Saving Jessica Lynch vs. Elizabeth Smart Story
Versus 
So on Sunday I was flipping through the tube and on NBC was Saving Jessica Lynch. I thought to myself, "How aweful!" It was pretty lame. I watched it for about five minutes and flipped to CBS. To my surprise it was Elizabeth Smart Story. The networks were battling over who has the worse tv movie of the week. Obviously the Lynch story is a story from Iraq and the Smart story is about that mormon girl who was brain washed. It was just unbearable. I wonder how many people watched these shows. May be they were great shows. I don't know. But I highly doubt it. How wacked is that on a Sunday night. So continued watching that bizzare football game b/t Rams and Ravens.
So on Sunday it was
Lynch vs. Smart
NBC vs. CBS
Rams vs. Ravens
Acording to ancient asian philosophy, there are always 2 opposite force going against each other.
Like Good vs. Evil. So on what if it was evil vs. evil. Like those shows on Sunday... Than what?
Remember Spy vs. Spy?
So in your opinion which is worse. Saving Jessica Lynch or Elizabeth Smart Story?
Versus
So on Sunday I was flipping through the tube and on NBC was Saving Jessica Lynch. I thought to myself, "How aweful!" It was pretty lame. I watched it for about five minutes and flipped to CBS. To my surprise it was Elizabeth Smart Story. The networks were battling over who has the worse tv movie of the week. Obviously the Lynch story is a story from Iraq and the Smart story is about that mormon girl who was brain washed. It was just unbearable. I wonder how many people watched these shows. May be they were great shows. I don't know. But I highly doubt it. How wacked is that on a Sunday night. So continued watching that bizzare football game b/t Rams and Ravens.
So on Sunday it was
Lynch vs. Smart
NBC vs. CBS
Rams vs. Ravens
Acording to ancient asian philosophy, there are always 2 opposite force going against each other.
Like Good vs. Evil. So on what if it was evil vs. evil. Like those shows on Sunday... Than what?
Remember Spy vs. Spy?
So in your opinion which is worse. Saving Jessica Lynch or Elizabeth Smart Story?
I am always ignorant of how blessed I really am. When others go through hard times I always tell them that diversity builds character. That is what I should tell myself. Mr. Wolf from Pulp Fiction says "Just because you are a character doesn't mean you have character". This is true. I am so blessed. I prayed with my boss Fou-Sen today. He is am awesome boss. he is also my mentor. Fou-Sen rocks.
Monday, November 10, 2003
So I am back home. I am just filled with weird thoughts right now. I had a strange day today. But it was cool. I am fully confident that God is gonna make it all right. yes God is da bomb. I love God. God is gonna kick me back in gear. He will give me the strength with everything. God kicks butt. Now I am hungry. I think I am gonna eat something. My dad is sick. Hopefully God wil heal him and take him under his mighty wings. Please pray for my father. Please pray that God will make my father better. My father is not a Christian. He is very strong man. Strong in will and very set in his ways. Though he does have a softer side to him. He might be the last person to become a Christian. Nevertheless I pray for him. I know that God can change him. I know that God can make him a Christian. Though we fought last Saturday, I am gonna make it better with him. I love my father. I am so sad when I see him getting old. My dad was the strongest man that I knew. He is battling time. I can't believe he is 60 years old. I hope that God will work on him sooner than later. If you are a Christian, please pray for my pops. Because I love my father. I just pray for him and I am certain that God has a plan for him.
I am writing this so that I can be a better person. I am kinda tired of myself. The guy who can never be serious, a guy who has no real direction in life, an ass(as some one puts it), a lazy bastard, so and and so forth. I can tell you that I need a vacation or this that or the other. I am sick of all of it. I am not happy with myself lately. I can't be productive at work. I can't be happy about lots of things. I seek comfort in nothing these days. Normal things that make me happy are not making me happy. I had a huge confrontation with my pops on Saturday. I am just sick of it all. So I am gonna reaccess mylife and just be until I need to do something. I need God more than ever but I am tired of reaching out to Him also. I need something to change. Whatever I need to change, I need it soon. I am gonna burst if I don't.
[update]
Just kidding. I don't feel much better, but no need to get overboard like the whole bursting part. I ask you to pray for me.
[update]
Just kidding. I don't feel much better, but no need to get overboard like the whole bursting part. I ask you to pray for me.
Friday, November 07, 2003
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Another Day, another smoke
I've been thinking about when I should give up my little habbit of smoking cigarettes. Most of my friends thinks that I shouldn't smoke, unless they are smokers themselves. Yeah I probabaly should give it up one day. To all my Christian friends that don't like it when I smoke, I always say that I am exercising my freedom in Christ when I smoke. But when it actually comes down to it I am about addicted as they come. Yeah I know that it's bad for me. The thing I don't like about smoking is the control that it has over me. To all those worried about my habbit, there will be a day when I quit. Till than I will enjoy it. Oh I am starting to get a head ache..... I think I need a smoke.
Everything that has a begining has an end
So I watched the last of the Matrix trilogy last night. I certainly don't wanna give the movie away so I won't go into it too much. But over all I enjoyed the movie. The ending was very vanilla compared to the series. But once again, overall I enjoyed the movie. I was listening to Kevin & Bean this morning and it seems that they did not like the ending. Al did not like the ending either. I am sure that many many people were disappointed by it;s underwhelming ending. One thing I will give away is this. Many movies and books use a Christ figure. Some more clear than others. And everytime they do, people point it out. Well it was no surprise to anyone that Neo was a Christ figure from the first movie so I will say that it hasn't changed in the 3rd movie. They are even more blatant about it. If anyone has seen the second movie, there was one thing about the movie that I hated. It was the scene when Lawrence Fishburne gives this lame speech and this funky tribal music comes on and all the people at Zion is dancing while Trinity and Neo have sex. That part was a drag. There was no parts like that in the third one. I was totally into it till the very end. I was really into it. Well even though the ending was disappointing, I guess you can say that it was a good movie. I didn't mind the message of the ending. In fact I really appreciated the message. What I didn't like was the delivery of the ending. That is all I will say about that. But there were some intense battle scenes and that rocked. Keanu was still terrible in acting but once again it did not matter. Now all I have to wait for this year is Lord of the Rings. I can't wait for that either.
So the Matrix gets a between a 4 and a 5.
It would have been a five but the delivery of the ending was regretfully disappointing.
So I watched the last of the Matrix trilogy last night. I certainly don't wanna give the movie away so I won't go into it too much. But over all I enjoyed the movie. The ending was very vanilla compared to the series. But once again, overall I enjoyed the movie. I was listening to Kevin & Bean this morning and it seems that they did not like the ending. Al did not like the ending either. I am sure that many many people were disappointed by it;s underwhelming ending. One thing I will give away is this. Many movies and books use a Christ figure. Some more clear than others. And everytime they do, people point it out. Well it was no surprise to anyone that Neo was a Christ figure from the first movie so I will say that it hasn't changed in the 3rd movie. They are even more blatant about it. If anyone has seen the second movie, there was one thing about the movie that I hated. It was the scene when Lawrence Fishburne gives this lame speech and this funky tribal music comes on and all the people at Zion is dancing while Trinity and Neo have sex. That part was a drag. There was no parts like that in the third one. I was totally into it till the very end. I was really into it. Well even though the ending was disappointing, I guess you can say that it was a good movie. I didn't mind the message of the ending. In fact I really appreciated the message. What I didn't like was the delivery of the ending. That is all I will say about that. But there were some intense battle scenes and that rocked. Keanu was still terrible in acting but once again it did not matter. Now all I have to wait for this year is Lord of the Rings. I can't wait for that either.
So the Matrix gets a between a 4 and a 5.
It would have been a five but the delivery of the ending was regretfully disappointing.
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
Looking forward to Matrix today! I am gonna watch thid movie at 6 o'clock in Irvine. I can't wait to see this movie. I just cannot wait. I am so excited about this that I feel like jumping up and down. I sucked at B-ball last night. I am begining top realize that I will never improve in Basketball. yeah I suck. But I can live with it. I will try again tonight. Don't have much more to say today. I will blog later when I get a chance.
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
"I am still young and I still have what it takes!" At least that was my thought when this young chick violated me. I was at the Pointe in K-town on Halloween night. Why did I go there? Cause it was Al's Last day at AHT. Going back to my statement earlier about being young and still having it. I was dancing because they had a Halloween special day and they had a DJ and a dance floor. I was just in the middle of floor when I felt this hand rubbing my butt and right up the crack. I had this confused look in my face when I turned around to see this young mad tight chick standing there. I was like "Aawwww Yeah!" (don't get me wrong I was not gonna do anything about it) But when something like that happens, its like a ego booster. Its like a girl saying that she thinks I am cute. All of a sudden, you feel this burst of energy running through you like you just became the incredible Hulk. Anyways, I turned around and at that momment I think she realized that I was not the person that she thought I was and she said "Oh My God". She ran away. hahaha. I probably should have said "Come back!" hahahahaha. Funny isn't it?
No mo Al
It's strange that Al is no longer here. Oh here is a something that I forgot. We took him out to a good bye lunch at Lucille's BBQ. It was halloween so the waitresses were all dressed up. One the waitresses was dressed like a nurse, but she wore a very naughty nurse outfit. Her butt cheeks were hanging out. I noticed Al checking her out. C-Note had a camera so I told him that I would take a picture of them together. Being the Al that he is, he was like no, being all shy. So Took the camera from Cnote and I said "Excuse me". our waitress and the nurse both turned around and said "yes". But here come Da Fevah and his insensitivity. I said "No, not you" "You. Will you take a picture with my buddy?" Not realizing that I probably made the the other girl feel ugly. I am such a jackass. I need to take some sensitivity classes.
Here is da pic
Al would not get close to her so I had to force it and said "Get close to her man!" Unfortunately you can't see her cheeks. But let me tell you. Being a Christian that I am, I looked at her cheeks once by accident. And that was it. I never ever looked again.
No mo Al
It's strange that Al is no longer here. Oh here is a something that I forgot. We took him out to a good bye lunch at Lucille's BBQ. It was halloween so the waitresses were all dressed up. One the waitresses was dressed like a nurse, but she wore a very naughty nurse outfit. Her butt cheeks were hanging out. I noticed Al checking her out. C-Note had a camera so I told him that I would take a picture of them together. Being the Al that he is, he was like no, being all shy. So Took the camera from Cnote and I said "Excuse me". our waitress and the nurse both turned around and said "yes". But here come Da Fevah and his insensitivity. I said "No, not you" "You. Will you take a picture with my buddy?" Not realizing that I probably made the the other girl feel ugly. I am such a jackass. I need to take some sensitivity classes.
Here is da pic
Al would not get close to her so I had to force it and said "Get close to her man!" Unfortunately you can't see her cheeks. But let me tell you. Being a Christian that I am, I looked at her cheeks once by accident. And that was it. I never ever looked again.