Its raining cats and dogs....

Bow wow...

Meow...

All these onomatopoeias...

Well... Tomorow is 2005!

Norton Simon Museum

It was rainy and cold. But we went anyway. To Pasadena, to enjoy a day of apreciating art. I took some pics....

here is one of my favorites..... Me and modigliani.


Of course I was clowning around again.


Look at this guy's nipples... Hahahaha!


Here is Lisa and my mom chillin at da Garden...


But the best work of art created by God..... Made in His image....

Leaving ya breathless.....

Now that is art!

Sadness....

(my mother at Taps)
Death toll can go up to one hundred thousand by the end of all clean up they say.

South East Asia... As if they didn't have it hard enough...

Donuts...

I miss em'. Yeah I am back on my diet. I feel like I am gaining weight these days. So I am back on the train. I ma gonna miss donuts alot....

So new year's resolution?
1. Take practical steps to praise Da Lord.
2. Lose more weight.
3. Do my best at my new job.
4. Save $$$$$$

Here I am at the nicest Dunkin Donut in Da world.... In Korea in Fall.


Man it's raining cats and dogs....

Victory is mine!


I can't wait till its 2005!

G-Mama on Christmas



My G-Mama wishes you a merry Christmas! (She is gangsta)

Its Christmas Eve....

Well, 2004 years ago tomorrow, Most important man in history was born....


Merry Christmas y'all!

Snobs...


The other day I came to realize that many of us Korean Americans are snobs. Always wanting the best. Bragging about which restaurant they went to. "Acting" as if they are humble, yet so not. Yup. Bunch o' snobs... Many of us became the way we due to certain type of upbringing. So competitive about everthing that equal to bunch of meaningless madness. When I should ever become a parent, I am not going to do that. I am not going to pressure my child to go to Harvard. Nope not me. Should my child get there on their own, great for the child. I was discussing with someone the otherday that they growing up was always compared to by her mom to her Mom's friends kids. Oh so and so's kid went to Harvard and now he/she got a great job and he/she got their mom a Benz....

I am thankful that my parents did not do that with me... Though I am sure that they wish the best for me... And jokingly they tease me about my situations at times, I was raised not to be a snob. Cause my parents are not snobs.

It just shows how us Koreans came from a poor history and having it and showing it off is a way of showing off wealth...

A real low class mentality.

Spiritual smack down.

It is definitely an amazing time of the year. Yes. yesterday I heard from a friend that I've been praying for a long time. He came to understand the saving grace of our Lord. As he told me I was in so much joy that I was in shock. Why I doubt God is mystery to me. Cause I seriously doubted that this person would come to understand.... Oh I am a man o' lil faith. But it was a spiritual awakening for me. I feel God gave me a spiritual slap across my forehead.

Wake up Stupid..... Wake up Fevah! Wake Up Christians!

For all those that feel like you are asleep... Lets all wake up!

Cause God really is amazing. And He is worth waking up for.

I am a Dolfan!


ANother Chritmas gift for all Da Miami Dolphins fans! Beating them Pats on a Monday Night Football!

Korea beat Germany in Soccer!

They won 3-1 against Germany! I wonder if i can jump as high as this dude???

Merry Christmas indeed!

Christmas Gift



It's been an incredible Holiday season for me. I've finally got that job offer that I've been wanting. A little Christmas gift from Da Lord....

I also have my mother here.


I've handed out my Christmas CDs yesterday. Not all of them. Some of you will be still getting one. But like I said, I've been incredibly blessed.

Da Lord has been good to me. What can I say. I am looking forward to 2005. I alos got a crazy nice Digital Camera from Leece.



What should get her for Christmas?????

I just got the extended edition of Return of da King!



I love it. Haven't seen all of it really yet, But I will soon enough. Maybe next week. But I think one of my favorite scene in the movie is when Theoden, King of Rohan shows up to help Gondor in their darkest hour.



The scene right before and during the march towards the thousands of Orcs... Something about the marching scene gets me everytime. Like Braveheart, so motivating....

The re-occuring theme in Lord of Da Ring is that in the hour hopelessness, hope returns. Just when you are about to give up, help arrives. I think that is what I like so much about the whole series. The hope. The hope of good triumphing over evil. That is faith... I love how all the noble characters's faith are challenged, and I love the realistic characters in the movie.

Though I love Star Wars trilogy very much, LOTR trilogy is also pretty amazing. I really appreciate Peter Jackson(director) and his vision so much more than that jack-ass George Lucas. There is reasoning behind LOTR extended editions vs. Star Wars Special editions of whatever you wanna call it. Each LOTR Extended Editions are like 4 hours long and cannot possibly be shown at theaters. Too long. Though there much profit that New Line Cinema made, that wasn't the only motivating factor behind it. Whereas, Lucas brings out new versions of Star Wars every other year. Just to make more $$$. Lucas is so hate-able.

George Lucas ruined the Star Wars legacy with the Episode I and Episode II. I hope Peter Jackson will not go down that path..... And I hope that Episode III will be good. (As much as I do not like George Lucas and would hate to see hime make more profit)

Studio take-five











Christmas CD coming along just fine......

Today I met a man from Bulgaria

Bulgaria. A former allie of Soviet Union and part of a horrible communist regime. His name was Todor and he is my maintenance man at my apartment complex. His English was better than he claimed, and I can tell that he was very happy to be in this country. He fixed my bathroom socket, Garbage disposal, and the kitchen lights. While Todor was fixing my lights he asked me if I was Korean. I told him I came to da states when I was ten years old. It was strange but there was an instant bond because of the fact that we were both immigrants.

Yesterday I was talking to Kenneth about Upton Sinclair's The Jungle. (add one more "e" and you got junglee!) hahhaa! Going back to da book, its a story about meat packing industry in Chicago with Polish immigrants. Just a horrible story about what immigrants and their suffering.

I can tell that Todor went through much to become a maintenance man. I can tell that he takes much pride in what he does. But I can also tell that he was much educated man and because his unfortunate situation of being an immigrant, he cannot use his education in this country for his living. He found a way though. He was all smiles when he told me that after 5 years in America, he interviewed to become an American and he is becoming one this coming month.

I learned that key to living in life is survival. Something that we do not really understand here being a 1.5 or 2nd generation Korean American. But I am sure that we all have some story of survivin' in our lives.

Our parents probably understand. Oh yes they do. Yes being an immigrant is no fun for many. But there is Gov. Schwarzenegger's triumph.

Probably the greatest immigrant story in recent times.

Survival... Its not just an insurance comapany... Sometimes its the name of the game we call life.

God is great!

So is My upcomming Christmas CD!



I've been making Da Fevah Christmas Cd Especial for quite some Time now....

So who wants one?

Looking out a small little window.

Sometimes it is so hard to see the big picture. Yesterday, listening to da Sermon by da Pastor, something hit me. He said something in the lines of being poor or rich is just a meaningless stage of a Christian's life.

Why do we fail to see that? Why do we so easily forget Da BIG PICTURE! I know that I do. Yeah... Da BIG PICTURE is presented in a book that I haven't seriously read in a long time. I told Andy last week that I haven't shared da gospel with anyone in a long time. It was a passion of mine. But I am beginning to fail to see da big pikcha! Yesterday I was at starbucks waiting for Dave Lim to call me to pick him up from his trip to da east coast. I was waiting in line and an older black man was talking with an employee as he was ordering. He was presenting Da Gospel. He wasn't refined, nor was he simple. He was smooth in that old school way that I know only a black man who has experienced much in his life can be. The young man that was taking his order was all ears and they gave each other a handshake after the employee thanked him. I was so moved to see a man doing something that I haven't done for so long. Something that we are all called to do. Right now, I am more concerned about getting a job than anything.

I do have faith that God is gonna place me where I need to be. I have been proactive about it too. But I feel as if I am replacing da gospel with a job hunt. I know that I have to have a job and be reponsible. But I can't help to feel as if I am looking at the world through a tiny little window. But seeing that happen last night I was little more motivated.

What can I say... I need His help.

God help this sinner they call Da Fevah.....

Persitance!

I am in mad job search mode, and there is a job that I am intersted in. I gotta say that the person who is interviewing me has been trying his best to avoid me but I've been persistant. Today he finally said, "Wow, you are very persistant and that is important for this job." I haven't gotten da job or anything but tomorow is my first step to getting this job.(Lord willing) I am gonna pray for this job and pray that I can do whatever I can to fulfill my up coming goals.... So pray for me y'all!

My advice for da day? If you want something, go after it and be persistant!

It feels as though winter is here and fall is leaving us behind....

I love da fall! I wish it was always fall.....

Ironing shirts....

How come I can never get it right? I just spent 40 minutes ironing 4 shirts... But it still looks crappy. I never ever get it right like the dry cleaners... I just don't to it right. There are some things that I will never be good at. Ironing is one of them. Other things? There are too many things that I am not good at. Recently, I was enlightened by Lisa, that I am also not good at paying attention to details... For some people its natural. I guess not for me... I need a lot of work. God help me.

I think I gained 10 pounds....

Instead of playing Turkey Bowl as I always do in Turkey time, I came here... Da Bay Area. Lisa's mom fed me too much. The whole concept of me being on a diet was not something that she comrehended... She did not care that I was on a diet. She made me eat, eat, eat.... I am heading down tommorow morning. I must get back on my diet.... Yikes... I must refrain from food for a month or so....

Holidays... Bad time for diets...


This is Lisa's friend that we met up today, Will Yuen....
He bought us Dim Sum!!!!!!


Here is Jonathan and Amanda! Met up with them yesterday! had great sandwiches!


Mel Bought me coffee yesterday


Joo wanted buy us dinner, but I was too full!

It was good to see friends!

More weight to lose!

Back o' da Hand!

There are many troubles in our lives.... Adversities which mess with our equilibrium. Sometimes it changes us. Some of us deal with it better than others... If you are struggling with tougher situations, and adversity is staring you in the eye, Stare back.... Then pull back and Reach for da fat meat! Give it a big ole' bitch slap! Nah mean?

Thanksgiving holiday is around da corner.

Here is da Prez and da Turkey? (which one is which? hahahha)

Though this holiday started off terribly (killing of Native American), I shall tell you what I am thankful for.

This year I am thankful for Da Lord not giving up on me though I've givin up on Him so many times.

I am thankful for my parents who are healthy and in Korea hoping to come home to US this year.

I am thankful for my church for providing fellowship and a place of worship...

I am thankful for my dear friends that I love so much.

I am thankful for my family for being my family.



And this year..... I am thankful for a person that God through my way. She stands about 5 feet 4 inches tall, Weighs about 105 give or take 3 pounds, has some serious attitude and has a great smile.


Thanks be to Da Lord for yesoonim... What are you thankful for?

Anger Management

people do weird things when they take things for granted.

I am sure we all hear about the Indiana Pacers...
I am almost gonna bet that these guys are actually nice guys when they are off da court. But competitiveness of the game has made them in to jackasses of NBA. Grown ass men acting like animals.... Well, I've seen it plenty of times in the courts... Like a meaningless pickup games... I hate losing too... But is winning everything? Well there are always arenas in life that we act differently vs. normal situations. We turn in to Hulks.

Normal people who are fun loving guys and gals that become angry unnecessarily...

What situations make you angry?

ex communication

For some of those that don't realize what that is, its a term for banning a member from church for unrepentant heart of an obvious sin... There are steps to doing this in a corporate way.

Yesterday I was part of a conversation in small group about excommunication. It is a strange topic to talk about. But it started off with a question about homosexuality. Would we ex-communicate a member for a member dealing with homosexuality. Well some felt strong that we need to ex-communicate, if they were not recognizing it as a sin. But what about other sins like pride. I wonder if anyone has been ex-communicated for pride or other sins just as sinful?

Maybe I can be ex-communicate for wearing a woman's sweater without admitting anything...

Here I am wearing Rose's sweater....

I can't imagine anyone really getting ex-communicated for anything these days. But I am sure it happens. Well, I am certain that God will be the judge of what ever happens. Only God can judge me.... What a scary reality! with this heavy subject, have a great day!

Satan....

he is tricky...
I was at a book store the other day and I wondered over to the religion section. I was looking and up and down the aisle and I ended up at the occult section. I've read the Satanic Bible by Anton Lavey before and there it was again. so I was flipping through it again. Well I can see how some people can see it as a interesting read. As I was reading it more and more it was about man centered. Doing things that Man wants to do.

Yesterday I was having breakfast with Jess Ku. It was interesting. I realize that Jess has a great heart. As she was talking I realized that I have lots to learn from a young'un. She was so far ahead of me in her heart. Listening to her and her faith was like a piercing arrow of conviction in my heart. Cause I realize more and more that I am a hypocrite. Honestly speaking, I am so in need of understanding grace of God.

Yup... Satan tricks me all the time. What seems okay is not akay and what is not okay is okay... I've been struggling lately of being annoyed with things that I should be more graceful about. I need to recognize that I need Him more than ever... Cause I am such da sinner.

Worms....

Everyday I hear new things about people and realize that it cannot be this way. Talking to my friend yesterday, I realize that life is not all that great for many people. But this guy keeps his head up and lives life. I can tell that things bother him yet he covers it with a joke and laughs it off. Yeah... Its true. If you can't laugh at some of the pains and sufferings, then we are really in trouble. I just wish that we can address some of our pains and take to the right place. Bearing the cross and looking to Da Lord. It might not sound like something great, but it really is great. Yesterday another friend told me that the word accountability is thrown around like a cheap suit. People say that they will keep you accountable without meaning it. Its like saying I will pray for you without praying for them. I will keep you accountable.... 5 words that are easy to say. Some even ask for it and not really mean it.

We are a bunch of worms. Just squirming under the earth and not living life. Some are happy to live and interact with other worms and live without light. Some keep all there things with them in that dark soil. Knowing nothing but dark and moist soil of this earth.

I do not want to be that worm. I want to be kept accountable. I want to seek, to find, and not give up. If I am gonna be a worm, I want to be Earthworm Jim. Wearing the armor of God and out of the dark soil. Fighting evil till the day I die and go to that place with Him.

Pom

I love this stuff. It's not the taste... But it does make you very regular. I can't remeber the last time I was this regular. I feel like Hoon these days. Cause that boy goes more than anyone I know... Well he also eats more than anyone I know. But Hoon certainly ain'tr regular. I had breakfast with him this morning. Looks like Hoon dog is looking to get ahead in life. Very proud of him. Cause you know every dog has his day. But Hoon dog will have more than his day. Hoon has been holding back his fury with da ladies. He told me that his mom told Hoon dog that when he starts making money, ladies will be flocking to him. I must agree. cause they already do. Hoon is great. Hoon was telling me some great stuff this morning. Hoon has a heart of Gold. I know that is not the only thing that matters... The heart. But it takes you along way. Than i guss its money... Money... Boooo~~~~~

Talkin' about money... I just updated my resume again. Lisa looked at my resume and basically laughed at me... hahaha! So My new one is bullet proof. I think I am gonna be joining the working force in the near future. I must. Cause I have many things that I must take care of.

Going back to Pom... I said it is great cause it makes me regular. Though this may be in a different context, it seems that most of us don't want to be regular in life. Is there something wrong with things that are regular? or Normal? why is regular synonymous with average... Just some fat to chew on...

I miss playing football. Turkey Bowl Football for my beloved CPC. Yup. I went to da scrimmage yestreday and I had da itch. It was fun to watch some plays and cheer. I guess I really won't be playing this year. Booooo~~~~ Turkey Bowl always brings out my pride. I always have this smurk on my face when I think about some of the dudes that I've hurt in the past. yeah... No good. Its a running joke but is there any love out there in Turkey Bowl? Cause only thing that I really loved about Turkey bowl was hurting some fools. I know... Its bad. But what can I say? I am a bad man.

Talking about bad....

I realize more and more that we live in a fallen world. I keep hearing and reading disturbing things and more and more I think about it, more and more I think that I am being sucked into madness. For some strange reason, I keep getting angry these days about some of the news I hear or things that I read. I gotta chill out!

Weekend is here and last night was awesome. I went to small group and we had a pot luck. It started off awkward because a vegetarian girl accidentally ate chicken and beef Mondoo and she left because she got sick. Not that I question that Chris got sick but I had no idea that it affected her so fast. Yeah... Life of a Vegetarian must be a hard one. But Sujin was killing me yesterday. Once gain we got on the topic of farts. And skin's passion about needing to farad and letting it out was once again funnier than hell. Than she went on about POM juice hat anti occident.

She was explaining to Lisa about married life and kids. One thing for sure that was killing me was how the story intertwined between motherhood and farts. Lisa said that when she has broccoli that it make her farad. Susan went on about how broccoli are the worst when it come to gas... In fact it is so bad that it passes gas to babies through mother's milk.... Yikes. Kimchi, kkakdoogees, chongak (bachelor) kimchee.. All bad.


So yesterday I said "I wonder why these Kimchis are called Chongak Kimchi?" Which means bachelor Kimchi.... Obviously I knew why but I wanted to hear Sujin say it! P.Jin looked at me and said "You know why" I played dumb and Sujin said, "Isn't it because they look like penis?"

I just about died laughing.

Typical LA Guy

Last night I met Richard Choo. It was great to meet someone that seem to care about the same things that I care about. Music and movies and such. He brought up that I was not a typical Southern California "LA" Guy. He was originally from up north. Of course Lisa being from Da Bay Area was happy to meet a fellow Nor Cal person.

So what is a typical LA Korean guy?

Is it wankster that care about fixing up cars?

Is it people who were born in America that only hang out with other Koreans no matter what?

Superficial guys that only care about Hot chick and hot cars?

Well. Whatever it is, I guess I am not it. Well here is the quote of the year yesterday that Rich's woman said. We were talking about buying things that are only on sale and how we should never pay full price for anything. And she said...

"Make up and cute things Never go on sale!"

Hahahahahah! That was great! Cause it's probably true!

I LOVE LOS ANGELES!

Bored with not working.

So its another day and now I'm ready to work again. I've been Updating my resume and looking for jobs all morning. I am ready to work. Staying home is now a bore. Yeah. Grass is always greener on th otherside. But Now its intense job search time. Yesterday I got a new phone. Its crazy how phones are going so advanced these days. Well yesterday was intersting. I was in Costa Mesa all day due to an almost a disasterous event that turned okay. You can ask Lisa about it later. Well, onward I go with my job search!

Living Scared?

I realize more and more, that we live our lives scared. Not all of us, but overwhelming majority of us have no faith what so ever. We live scared because we are not sure. One thing that I am sure of is His sovereignty. Knowing that it is all in His GREAT BIG HANDS should be enough to live our life not so scared. Cause whatever happens was meant to happen no matter what. But we are never satisfied with that. And we live out our lives like scared little puppies.

I want to live with confidence in Da Lord. I want to depend on Him when I am scared... Cause with Him, it is all good. Easy to say but hard to live out... I am not going to live my life scared. I highly suggest that you do the same. Its much better.

It was an emotional roller coaster of a weekend..

So on Friday night, Lisa and I headed up to the CPC retreat. came back down the next day and dropped Lisa off at a baby shower for Helen and Scott. Than we went to a funeral.
Pastor James Kim's Daughter Debbie went to be with da Lord last week. It was an emotional time. I lost my brother at the tender age of one and he was 4 years old. I realized at the funeral how hard it must have been for my parents losing my brother. yeah... It must have been hard. It was hard being at the funeral. I couldn't help the tears that were falling down from my face as I was telling Pastor James and Sa-mo-nim how sorry I was... You hear that no parents should have to bury their children. Well it happens so much. It is so much harder to see a young person pass away. I think many parents were having a hard time at the funeral just trying to imagine about their own children... Yeah. I am thankful to God for Pastor James and his family. I am thankful that God will take care of them. God will heal their wound. Cause only God truly can.
The guest pastor from the retreat said that one day we will be heaven and think back to seeing each other here in life. Well, I know that I will one day see Debbie Kim in heaven. Which also makes me pray harder for my pops.

What can I say other than God is good and that he was glorified on Saturday...

I love you Pastor James!

Eternal Sunshine of the jobless mind.
All week I woke in the morning with a big ass grin... Just for not having a job to goto... It was like an eternal sunshine on my jobless mind. But I can't be like this... But I did watch a movie last night that I really enjoyed.

It was a pretty memorable flick. Lisa wanted to see it and I saw it at a video store, previewsly viewed for 5 duckettes. So I snaged it along with City of God for 10 bux total....

So this morning I have an interview. I've been very active about getting interviews because, I realize that I can't be lazy about things. This morning I will be in the Torrance area again... Dang it! I am not wanting to be at that city.... Oh well. Have a great weekend y'all!

Arafat!
Last night....

Lisa and I were watching BBC news and news of Arafat's illness was featured.

Da Fevah - Wow... It looks like arafat is gonna kick da bucket.
Da Fevette - (uninterested)Huh? Whatever...
Da Fevah - You know who he is right?
Da Fevette - who is he? the Israelli Prime Minister?
Da Fevah - What? Are you kidding me?
Da Fevette - I meant Palestnian... I got confused cause he wasn't wearing his little hat.
Da Fevah - ....


here is arafat wearing his little hat... hahaha!

Its looks like another 4 years of Bush.....

Oh Boy.

Instead of dwelling in misery, I shall reflect on my trip again and think happy thoughts as I post some of my favotite pix.

So y'all already know that Lisa and I was in Korea for a week...

This is da only starbucks that the sign is not written in English... It is in Korean because it is in insa dong. A place known to have traditional tea houses and what not. In the middle of it all is... Stah Buk-s... hahahaha!

Here we are on the top of the surak moutain.

We hiked for 8 hours to go up there... hahaha! Jk. We went up in a cable car. hahaha!

Kiss from Da Fevette...

My mom took this picture when my dad was not looking. hahahaha! My dad didn't even want me to hold hads with Leece in public.. hahahhaha!