Ma vie est un livre ouvert...
translation = My life is an open book.



This is our former French intern Cecile Daragnes.
I was talking to our former French intern via Yahoo Messenger... She told me on Sunday, that she was going to the Louvre..... Geez... that sounds great...

She asked me how Lisa and I was doing. And of course I told her that things were going great. She asked me if Lisa has ever said "I love You".... hahahaha! than she said, may be it is too personal... I told her "Ain't no thang! My life is an open book. Of course she has! hahaha." I told her that she wants me like a fat chick wants cup cake... Ok I did not say that... Hahahaha.

So after talking with her, I made up my mind. I am going to Europe this year no matter what! Hey Lisa! Wanna go? We will go to Paris and Amsterdam. I have friends in Normandy and Boskoop. We can stay with them... Lets go!

So finally the weekend is staring me in the face.

I think I am going to shake my $ maker tonight. Whereever I go, I am gonna have me a good old time. I am so happy the weekend is here. It's great that I am going out tonight. SInce i am already hooked up and happy.......

Here is a French phrase that Cecile tought me. That I would like to dedicate to all those going hunting tonight.


que la force soit avec toi....

really... may the force be with you....

I am in a circus called AHT......

John Duke is my co worker and a friend. We car pool together on Tuesdays and Thursdays. You know how environmentally conscience I am.... Hahaha. Today he got me a smoothie from jamba juice. couple hours later he comes up to me and says....

John Duke - You are gonna have a good time tonight....
Da Fevah - Why?
John Duke - I put in extra fiber-boost on your Jambe Juice!
Da Fevah - Oh Crap.
John Duke - Yup. Exactly...
hahahaha!
What a guy.

Godzilla vs. King Kong part II

The biggies got in another fight. If you don't recall, they are the large women of AHT. They share the same office and they were good friends once. Marcie has been standing up Axy as of late.... wow.

They share the same office. My boss asked me to share it with them and I refused... Thank God that I did. Cause had I not refused, I would be in there with them. Listening to their BIG problems..... I don't even want to think about how miserable I would been in there. Oh the horror.

Change

Change is a strange thing. It seems to me that many of try so hard to change. Me too. The trickiest part of it all is that it all happens without me knowing. I am sure that there is a conscience effort, yet changes happen naturally. I too am going through some change I am sure that I am not even aware of. The reason I bring this up is that no matter how hard I try to change certain things, it does not happen. But later someone always says things like " Jung, you've changed so much."

Last night I played basketball. Afterwards I met up with Lisa, Billie, and Jason. I was dead tired. I just feel weak these days. Lisa thinks I am over doing it in my diet. Anyways, out all the days that I should run into church people, it was Sally Hur and Esther Chang at Starbucks in Cerritos Town Center. Once again it was clown session. For some reason, Lisa gets really excited to see my friend's reactions. She always tells them about some embarrasing things that I've said or done. I think that most people just ain't used to seeing me like the way I am with Lisa. All the jokes in the past is finally catching up to me. It's all good. I guess people think that I've changed.....
DNS thinks I am happier these days. I saw him and Ghetto Booty Dan Kim yesterday. All ghetto booty Dan did was to shake his head... hahahaha. Well I am happier these days. You got a problem with that? hahaha.

Change isn't good or bad. It is something that just happens....

I wanna go dancing like a smooth criminal!

My thoughts

It is strange to me how weather has been so different. Hot one day and Cool the next... It reminds me of Hoon's love for me. Such Byun-Duk-Jeng-Ee.... hahaha. Just kidding Hoon. Today I want to to talk about insecurities. Yesterday I was talking with Pastor Jin about my relationship with Lisa. Difficulty of it and the greatness of it. One of the things that he asked me was this. Where is you commitment level? I told him that I am really digging deep to give it all into this relationship. Jin shared something with me. He saids in his wisdom, something along the lines of Men are more likely to be commitment-phobic than women. I think on the back of most men's minds are always a thought of "I can do better." This is what I mean by byun-duk-jeng-ee. I've seen people get destroyed when the relationship ends. I too have had my heart served on a platter. But when things are going well, men just have a hard time committing themselves. But they also don't want to lose what they have. They want the cake and eat it too. Well I can say that I don't really have that issue. I truly feel that when I am commited to someone, than that is it. No wondering in my head about anything better or what not. Maybe I trust people too much. But I can't imagine why anyone would go into something as hard as a relationship without commitment. Casue any relationship is a commitment. Whether it is a friendship or romantic.

I can say this with confidence. I truely feel that whatever happened in the past is irrelevent. It is what happenes during rlationship that matter. But to have thoughts of "I can do better" is just horrible. It makes me question a person's character. So for all those who are afraid of commitment, end it before it leads to madness. Also grow up.

Now is the time.... I must get back on track.... No more laziness. I am back in business. My full on rage diet is back on.... I am rededicated again... I feel like i've slowed down.. But I must not. Re-focus. Back to when I was a rock! No more laying off the diet! Diet! It's on!

SO I promised you pictures from Santa Barbara.....
Our scanner is not working too well so they scanned a bit blurry....

Here is the bike for four.

Billy and Jason is in the front. Lisa and I are in the back.

People in Santa Babwa are Nazis about smoking.

I lit up and this lady gave me a nasty look.... So I put it out. The liitle caption on the pic that you cannot read says, "Thank you for not smoking." I was sitting OUTSIDE! See how sad I look.....

So I smoked at the beach....

If someone gave me crap about smoking here I would have drop kicked that fool.

Here is Lisa, Me and Billie.

I am a mad pimp! hahahaha. Why do women find me so irrisistable.....

We saw this rainbow thing at the beach and I had to do a gay pose.

That is Jason grabbin my man boob.

Here is my Favorite pic.

Lisa told me not to put this one up but I had to. It's my favorite. So even if I might never hear the end of it from Lisa, I am posting it up.

It was a great weekend.....

Friday was the birthday of the one and only Mike Ha....

pic from P.Jin
Happy 28th my friend.... Happy 28th.

So I went to Santa Barbara with Lisa, Billie, and Jason. It was mad fun.

This is where we started off the trip. mmmmmm..... Italian Food. I had Salmon. The whole trip was Lisa's idea. She went to UCSB. Lisa Park was our tour guide. I gotta say, it was an incredible day of fun, sun, and food.... Though I didn't eat much other than at Palazzio. We walked around at the State Street. It was a beatiful day. We rented the bike for four. I have pics so I will post later and describe more in detail.... Visited UCSB. I will post pics from it later.....

A question for you.

while we were at Longboards I asked the Famous Andy Warhol's question. And I will ask you..... Everyone had something intersting to say.

If you died right now, what momment would you consider to be your 15 minutes of fame?

Da Fevah - I shared again about my wrestling experience in high school.

Billie - "It was when I was part of United Nation conference or debate(?) for CSUF and we were S.Korea.... I was teaching the class and the first time we placed 2nd place in the big event in NY. It was a momment of triumph. I received a plaque at the graduation."

You go bling bling sista!

Jason - "I am not really sure if I have a 15 min or fame, but one of the greatest experience was when I was flying fighter jet and we battled at Fullerton Airport. I was doing flips and I gatta say, it was an incredible experience."

Wow... Jet fighter...... I guess you can rent figfhter jets at Fullereton Airport and battle your friends for $900 an hour.... with Laser and all.

Lisa - "It was the summer when my father came to the Lord and my mother was cured from her diagnosis.... And I was sharing with my prayer group at the prayer rocks in the morning..."

I felt like a jackass. I think we all kinda froze after Lisa's 15 min. Simply for the fact that it was not selfish.... But I am an only child.... and according to Hoon, I am very selfish. I agree. I am a jackass.

First of all, I believe that my 15 min has not come yet. Cause if high school wrestling was my ultimate 15 min of fame, remind me to kill myself. I can't wait for my 15 min.... But if you died right now.... what would be your 15 min of fame/greatness?