HAPPY NEW YEAR!

This year is gonna be great!

Dear Friends.

If I had just one thing I can share with you about life, it is this.

Forgive yourself for being stupid. But never forgive yourself for being a coward.

Love Da Fevah

That is right Niggas and Niggettes.

Da Fevah is at work! I love working when no one else is! It is GREAT! Now I am gonna get me some LOANS!

I am Loan Star!

THANK YOU!

I am happy to report that it has been an wonderful year of marriage and this weekend was a success. I am happy and needless to say extremely thankful.

Show me the money!

Cash rules everyone around me. I work in an environment where people love money. I constantly have to check myself in this business and do what is right. I get so distracted and it is so easy to get excited about the mighty dollar. I want to get excited about Da Lord. Its so hard at times to get out of working mode.

I work hard.

I go home.

I see my wife.

God is good.

The wife is back and I am happy.

This was an unusually rough week. It took me back to my life as a single man. Let's just say that I am so glad that I am married. It was fine the first couple of days and by the end, I was a complete mess.....

Welcome back Fevette! I missed you.

Da Fevette is going to Da East Coast today.

So I've been thinking about what I would do now that I have freedome again for a week. But as excited I was about having a week to do whatever I want, like eating whatever I want, watching horror movies(She hates'em which inturn pretty much means I hate them too), or hang out with Da Boys.... But today when I was laying in bed next to da wife, I realized that I was going to miss her..... I know. Its weak. But I don't really care. That is why I have a wife and most of you fags are single and at home waiting for that special woman to fall from the sky. Don't hold your breath! (Do I sound a lil' defensive?)

its finally near the end.

It was a crazy month and I was running on all cylinders. But Now I feel much better. Relaxed and time to start my new month!

Dedicated to my favorite woman!

I am so proud of my wife these days. She organized a womans's accountability at church and she started to attend a group prayer thing with one of her old co-workers. She spearheaded this thing at church where a older married women and young married women talk about this that and the other. She has been dilligent and a great wife. Seriously, she loves to cook and I love to eat her cooking! I am so proud of my wife. I am a blessed man fo sho! GO WIFE!

I am excited about being alive today. I am thankful to Da Lord for my wonderful life. Why you ax? Why not? Yes I am living da life of a rock star! That is right. I wore my new corduroy suit to work today and damn I look good. It is almost like a velvet suit but no. It is a fine corduroy suit. I don't have to wear a suit to work. Just shirt and tie. But when I wear my suit, I feel like I put on the armor of God. I feel professional and powerful. Yes. I am a man. I have man issues. Like pride and power struggle within myself. Good thing is that God always puts me in check and I feel good. But my suit is seriously ridiculously pimp. It is off da hizzle.

I put my suit on this morning and saw myself in the mirror and I gave myself a lil wink. Cause damn..... Seriously. I look good enougfh to eat!

God is too good.

God is glorified through our weakness. I thank God for my thorns on my side. I thank God for giving me the strength to rely on Him for my failure.

Dodgers broke my heart.....

But like they say, there is always next year. It was a bad sports weekend for me. The friggin Dolphins lost again and I see nop hope for them. Most likely I lost in my Fantasy football again. Bad weekend of sports.

So I've been thinking about this. So far all my sports teams have disapointed me. 2006 has been a bad year for me in sports. Starting with Lakers. They lose a 3-1 lead to Phoenix. Korean baseball team losing to that one country that I shall not mention, in World Baseball classic. CSUF baseball team gets knocked out of College World Series despite being the favorites. Korean National soccer team loses to Switzerland and does not make it past 1st round in the world cup. Dodgers get swept in the first round. Dolphins are getting waxed by sorry teams and is not looking like they are going to do anything. BAD.....

There is always 2007.....

That might have been the worst base running in history of baseball.... Damn!

So How about them Dodgers....

I am super excited about the Dodgers making the playoffs. Many exciting things going on. I've been working like a madman lately and its been good. I am happy to say that I am doing well and God has been good to me. I am in the office right now and its dead as dead in here. But I am glad to say that I am still working and I can't wait to do more loan. All I can say is that God always provides and I am remain thankful through my anxiousness.

Been a while since I blogged on my blogspot due to da fact that I couldn't get to it from work. We don't have internet. But we have EnterNot! I;ve been Xangaing. I miss my blog. I like this for so much more. The other form(xanga) is wacked. But its cool. Today I've been working hard to get loans. Its been difficult but fun at the same time. I can't wait till weekend again.

Music

My wife (Da Fevette) was mad at the fact that her car sucked while I was driving my new car. She demanded that she drove the car today. So I let her. Only thing that I miss about my car is the capability of listening to my iPod. Whatever car I get next, I am gonna make sure that I can play my iPod on it.

In similar news because I have so much music selection now, i am listening to music that i haven't listened to for a while. I was a huge fan of Radiohead since their 1st album. I loved 2nd album even more. Their 3rd album OK Computer might arguably be one the greatest albums in all of music. But just like all good things, in my opinion, that is where it ends. I hated the next 2 albums. So I tried it again and put it on and I am still convinced that their new music sucks compared to their past work. Some bands change for the better and some change for worse. To all the Radiohead apologists out there, I apologize. I guess I just don't have the patience for it. Cause I think random noise and whining can be good on some somber days. But every songs? No thank you. No need to off myself today.

Life is not fair.

how can anyone be this good looking while you... look like you...


On a serious note.
The other day I was talking with Andy about how unfair it is for the poor. For instance, when I was in Costa Mesa, there was a Lamborghini parked in 30 min parking space. I saw that car all the time parked in 30 min zone for hours and hours at a time. They never towed it. But one day I saw a hoopty parked couple spaces down and I saw it get towed. Meanwhile that Lamborghini was parked there for at least 5 hours. Sometimes the Lamborghini take up 2 spots. So I was a bit curious and asked the parking dude about it and actually said "what can we do? Towe a Lamborghini?" I thought to myself "Yeah..."

Going back to life being not fair. Its only fair for those that have $$$$. But not to worry y'all. In this unfair world, we have a fair God and no matter how bad things get, you can be victorious in Him. And that is the only truth that keeps the world from total mayhem. So no matter how crazy it seems and life seems to be falling apart, know that you can still be victorious in God and hold your head high from this unfair world.

Da Beat don't stop


I was rappin to Da Lord this mornin'.
Dropin some lines, axin Da Lord to increase my success.
I want to be a home owner.
So Da Lord gave me a vision.
I will be a home owner at least by begining of next year.

I can feel it. Da Lord gave me a new 3 year plan. What is it you ax? I will tell you later. Till than I must give it all I got and do what it takes to take care of beeswax!

Last night I realized that I need to take my role more seriously as da leader of my family. I need to take it to the next level.


Lord wants me, Da Fevah and Da Fevette to start makin some music for Da Lord. I will spin my wheel and bust some rhymes for God da father, God da son, and God da Holy Ghost!

I need to lock some loans....


keep plugging away till I get it.

Lord. Help me close some loans and I won't sin for rest of mylife!

Okay.... Just kidding. I am helpless without you so help me close some deal despite the fact that I am a sinning bastard.

please?

Somedays I feel like a....

Spinoza said something on the lines that even if the world is coming to an end tommorow, we must plant fruit trees today.

Very optimistic view in life. I feel like God is telling me that I am now in a better place right here in the slums of Long Beach. So the weekend is here and i am leaning towards FX35 for a new car.

It feels good. I am going tom have a great day.... (Lord willing)

I am now in LBC. I can say that I am glas that I am here. Praise God. This morning I blessed the bathroom as I let go of all the hate in me. Yes its true. It felt great.

I haven't been blogging much due to many different reasons. But I just wanted to share that I am happy and that I hope all of you are as happy in the Lord as I am. God is good all da time. I am thinking of leasing a Car. What should I get?

My days in Costa Mesa are numbered.

I am off to LBC.

All the glories to Da Lord.

Confession...

Here I am in Praha, looking suspicious and sinful.

I am a depraved sinner. Full of bad thoughts and serious character flaws. So today I was parking my car and I scraped a Jetta... My first reaction was to get the hell outta there cause no one saw me.... Except my Co-Worker who was sitting next to me...

Guilt over came my mind. But I didn't care. My Co-worker said "you should leave a note"

I didn't want to. So I boned outta there.

What a conniving rat I am! So after I got out of the parking lot, guilt over came my mind. My friend sitting next to me said "shouldn't you leave a note?"

.............

I went back to leave a note. The car was no longer there. I started to feel even more guilty. Than I saw the car leaving so I chased it down and let him know what I did..... He looked at it and he rubbed off the paint and he said, "no problem". I felt relieved but disapointed at myself. After I beat myself up over it, I was okay....

Character. You either have it or you don't. I didn'y have it today.

Lord, make me a man of good character.

So back at work from 4th

I kept on thinking how great it would have been if US soccer team made it to semi-finals and moved on to the world cup finals on the 4th of July. Instead the friggin Italians greased their way to the final and extatic Germans are no longer extatic. Instead they are just sad and miserable.

What a terrible outcome.... Not a single team that I was rooting for is in it. Obviously Korea, US, Holland, Mexico, England, Australia, Brazil... Not a single team. Basically, Italians have played no one that is of any significance except the Germans and Czech, in this world cup and they might win it. What an injustice. So they played Ghana, USA, Czech, Austrailia, Ukraine, and now Germans.... Greasy monkeys. I hope that they lose in the finals.

But as usual the fire works were great. So was the BBQ. Now here I am on a short week. Well I am going out on the field today. I will go out and snatch some deals. I hope I hope that I have a good month. I need some help from God this month.

yup...

I am back at work and I am thankful. I noticed that so much of Europe is such a godless place. It saddens me. To think some of the greatest Godly thinkers came form Europe and that it is now a place of such madness behavior. I was on the train to Frankfurt at the end of my trip and met a German named Jurgen who was getting a PHD on evolution. So we talked about this that and the other and one of the things that he was really focused on was comparing the Chritianity to Muslims now. And how so many people are creationists and what a farce that was. and that it was dangerous. He went on and on about science is truth and this that and the other. So I told him that I was also a creationist and we had a long talk. It was good. He told me that last year of his life has been hard and that he has failed on every project that he has tried on proving evolution. I just smiled and said "if evolution is true and it took millions of years for it to happen than maybe a year is not enough time." he just seemd frustrated.

Poor guy.

So going back to Europeans being Godless, which is a very general statement. Because for every German such as Jurgen, there are also Christians like Koen the Dutch. He shared with me about his concerns in Holland. How the Dutch are adopting the individuality and that family value is slowly but surely disaprearing in Holland. Not just Amsterdam, but the other parts of Holland. I can say it was great praying before a meal at Koen's house. The only prayer I heard in Europe by a European. I am happy for Koen. Life is good in Boskoop (where Koen lives).


here is Koen and I in Amsterdam

What I am afraid of is that America will one day be Godless like much of Europe. Going on and on about how great they are without understanding how horrid they really are. I can say that I must keep myself in check. God is good and I must not forget the grace of our saving Lord.


here is three shmucks rooting for God in Europe. Rooting for God even more than rooting for Korean soccer team. Go God!

Europe is great.



You can just pee anywhere.

All good things must come to an end.....

My trip is coming to an end. Just like Korea's run... I will be out of land of swine, back to the good old US. I can#t wait for the next Worldcup!

South Africa here we come! (may be.... Who is down?)

Prague
So I am on a vacation from my vacation and here I am in Czech Republic. I gotta say that this is really a cool place. Been walking alot and now I am tired. But Its so cool here



Gotta czech it out! hahaha!

Prayer answered

Our prayers are all answered so far. We arrived safely and we ar all healthy. Oh and korea winning made me happy.
Needless to say Andy, Jongmin, Lisa & I were in a state of Euphoria yesterday.
Germany is mad fun. We left Frankfurt yesterday and now we are in Czech Republic. Its nice. Beautiful buildings and people. But now it is time to rest niggas. have fun. But you won't have as much of fun as we are having.

Da Fevah has left the building!



I am Jungernaut! Nothing can stop me!
I am going.....
GERMANY HERE I COME!

I will be back in 2 weeks!

Last night Andy came over and we went over the itniery for the Trip of all trips.... As some of you might know I have been hugely disapointed with sports all together this year. All teams that I rooted for failed. Starting with Lakers... Korean baseball team Dolphins not making the playoff last year... all the way to even the duck losing at the game I was at.. (Not that I care so much about hockey, a bastard version of soccer). Barry surpassing Babe Ruth. The only bright spot I have is that Hines Ward was the MVP of Super Bowl.

I truly believe God did this to me so that it would offset the greatness that is about to come. I truly believe that Korea is going to do realy well in the World Cup. Then the greatness is going to start. After our victorious trip to Germany, I beleive my sports teams are gonna start turning things around. Dodgers are going to win the World Series. Cal State Fullerton will win the college world series. Lakers will be the world champs. Dolphins will win the Super Bowl.

I am telling you that all these things are going to happen.

Korea! World Cup CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been eating healthy lately....

I've gained too much weight.
I remember the days when I used to polish off 2 burritose from Albertos in less than 5 minutes.... Now I settle for salad.

What a fat ass I am. Yet why am I still so damn sexy?

Judgement!

Here comes da judgement from Da Fevah.
I know that judgements are no good but we all judge and here is another Oracle of God given on to you through Da Fevah! Okay its not an oracle of God. But today I want to talk about an overwhemingly successful show, American Idol.

Last night I watched Lost. But inbetween commercials Lisa wanted me to watch American Idol. So I did. What a brokeback show. It amazes me that so many people watch this God awful show and to a point I understand it. Especially women. They love that stuff.

I must admit that even I find it entertaining when they have the tryouts and seeing the assed out performers get humiliated and using up their 15 minutes of fame. Its funny. But I noticed last night it was just really bad. All those horid songs and horid humor. But as I've said, women and men are different.

But if you are man and you are a fan of American Idol.....

Shame on you.... You fruitcake.

Struggling continued....

Yesterday I took a survey at work. I axed da question, do you struggle in your life? They all said yes. All of them said financially, and what not. I came to an epiphany. All of their struggles were so selfish. But so is mine... Yesterday Andy and I had coffee and we were discussing about this, that, and the other. And this came up... I am a selfish man. I don't struggle for God. I struggle for my own peace of mind. I don't struggle for His righteousness. I struggle for my own needs. It is a harsh reality and it bites me hard.

I need God.

Is it me or is there a whole lotta people in this world that are not struggling?

So my co-worker who is about vain as a person can be (whom I like by the way) came to me this morning and said "Jung you would have been proud of me, I went a Christian church over the weekend." He told me in his words that he has been "bangin" this Korean Christian chick and the she wanted him to go with her to Rick Warren's Saddleback Church. he proceeded by bashing that church left and right. Also went on to say how everyone is O.C. comes to church with their boobs hangin' out and on and on. So I asked him, "Why did you really go?" His reply was because this girl is trying to save him and the she was great in bed. She told him how what she is doing is horrible but she can't help it.

So is that how it is?

We all have struggles in life. We give in to our struggles all the time. From this terrible little story I told you... I encourage you to keep struggling. Don't be a victom of your temptation. Easier said than done right?

How is your struggle? Are you struggling? If one is a Christian and he/she has no struggle, there is a problem right?

If you are a Christian and you are struggling, congratulations. It just means you take your faith seriously. Always remember, with Christ, all things are possible. With Christ you can overcome your struggles everyday. Cause Christ is so much bigger than our struggle.

If you are not a Christian, keep living your life of vanity and hopefully God will take pity on your life and show you the way.

I think God is telling me that a career in Film is in store for me.

On day you will see on the big screen

Da Fevah Productions proudly presents......

You will say, I knew that guy Da Fevah.

Edit

Obviously this post is about me bitching. I feel burnt out times but I am over it. But here is the statment of the day. My friend at work McNeely needs to get his wisodom teeth pulled. He is afraid of this process. very afraid. He says that he hates pain. But he said...

"I want to miss work so bad that I am looking forward to getting my wisdom teeth pulled"
Michael McNeely 5/10/06

God is the best!

What a bitter pill to swallow...

After the Horrid performance by Da Lakers, I had to get out of my funk. I busted out my DVD.



It made me feel a bit better. Watching the DVD made me sad also.... I hate to say it. But I really miss someone.

An immigrant's story.

After "24" yesterday, we were watching the news. The big topic was all the Mexicans marching the streets of LA. Obviously everyone has an opinion on the subject of "illegal alien". I heard it all.

Here is something that you might not know about "Da Fevah". I too was an illegal alien at one point of my life. Yup. I came here as a traveler and just never left. I would not be an American today had it not been for Ronald Reagan. My family might be still illegal. In the year of 1986 Ronald Reagan gave amnesty to anyone who had a masters in Economics. My dad had one so that was how we got an interview. My parents applied for Green Card still not confident because we did not have a working Visa. We had a tourist visa and applied to get a green card. (let this be a lesson y'all, even when you don't apply what you learned in school education can always help) I remember my family going to an office for an interview with a guy. I remember a lawyer was there to represent us. But I also remember that man who interviewed us saying "You realize that you have no grounds on applying for a resident alien status. But your son looks like a hard working football player. So I will grant your status. Congratulations!" And the rest is history.

Had it not been for that specific interviewer, yours truly might have gone back. Maybe I should have gone marching with all those Mexicans and some Koreans.

One thing for sure is that here in OC, ain't nobody marchin here. It was business as usual. But the traffic was fantastic. Got to work in no minute yesterday.

I look back in my life and realize that I was meant to be here by God's grace. Had it not been for God, who knows where I might be.

You ax where I stand on this issue? How can I not support those who are in the same shoes that I was in. Imagine all the lazy Americans doing all the hard work that is done by the so-called "illegal Aliens". They will probably create an union to get paid outrageous amount of money for 3 hours of work and your vegetables will quadruple in price.

Why do we always pick on those that can't fight back? I say thank you hard working immigrants! Si se puede!

It was a good weekend

Obviously Da Lakers made my weekend. I was going nuts yesterday. Screaming on the top of lungs and they pulled off an amazing win and it made my crappy month much better. I must dedicate this month to a great month by doing what I must do. Working hard and doing what I can. I hope that everyone has a good month of May. It is now time for my to really do everything I can. I will not think about stupid things. I will just focus on work.

It is a mad, mad, mad, world we live in.

We are all just mad, mad, mad, sinners.

It is time y'all!

And the time is now.

Cause it is all about the word.

Word!

God is for us, so who can be against us.

I can say that I lost it yesterday at work. Had it not been for Jesus, I would be in jail right now for killing this co-worker of mine. I try not to get angry, but I do. Especially when there is an injustice that harms me directly. But getting angry will get me no where. No matter how much someone else is being selfish and a prick in your mind, I must come to terms that I am just as bad. It's hard thing to do. But yesterday was another reminder that I have long long ways to go in my walk with Da Lord.

It was a painful reminder.

When I played football many many moons ago, I thought I was indestructable until my shoulder popped out of my socket against Los Alamitos High School. Yup. We did beat them though. It was a great day but one of the worst days. My dreams of playing football in the next level was shattered. though my will was there, once you get injured, you are never the same again.

Well this weekend, I played basketball at church. As I was playing defense, some one who shall remain nameless came flailing in to the post, without control of his body and kneed me right in the pelvic bone to my right.... This person who shall remain nameless who plays the violin and is getting married on 6/24/05, i am sure felt bad. it was unintentional, but my initial reaction was anger and I pushed him... What a sinner I am. I was down for the count and went home in extreme pain. It reminded me of getting hurt in da past. I don't think as serious as blowing out my knee or getting my shoulder hurt. But that is how bad it hurt. But just like the Lord who rose again on the third day, I too am here at work ready to plug away again.

It was a good weekend other than getting Da knee. I feel good. I will be 100% soon, and I am gonn be ready to ball again in no minute.

I think I need a vacation. I really am looking forward to my Euro trip. Come June! Come to daddy!

Have a great Good Friday y'all!

I look at the misery that people go through in life and I thank God for all His mercy. I am so blessed. They say that eyes are the window to your soul and I see the eyes of many sad, sad people. Just like all people my life is not perfect. But I see so many people so sad and miserable. I just play along sometimes. But fact of the matter is that all people fail to see where they lack. Just like me at certain time of mylife. Many of us fail to listen to those around who is looking out for us.

I feel many of us have the problem of being stubborn and in Korean its called Seng GoJip. I don't know about many of you, but I used to hear many advices as just nagging. Sometimes it is. But fact of the matter was that it was my pride. We don't listen cause we are lazy. We know that if we listened to some of these advices, it will be better. But since we are too lazy, we take it as nagging and get upset. Oh how we think that we can do these things by ourselves. If you can't do some things ask for help.

If you don't know who to ask, Ask God. Don't remain in your misery.

its a monday again and I just cleaned up my desk.

It was getting outta control. I am clean and ready to do some loans. The weekend went by so fast. So its a week of Easter and it will be a week of reflection and I shall try to meditate.

My needs vs. wants

I must be really getting old cause I am always tired.

Or I need a new bed. I think I need to invest in one of those crazy temperpedic beds or those number beds. Currently I am sleeping in one of those Ikea beds that Lisa had for a long time and I am always tired. Lack of good sleep perhaps. Mel bought one of those crazy number beds and he says its great.

I need a new bed, new TV, new car, and most importantly, a new house.

So do I really need these thing or do I want them?

I need to win the lotto.

The Grace Lee Project



I watched this documentary over this weekend. It is a movie about a woman named Grace Lee who finds the similarities of many Grace Lees of United States. It was entertaining and funny. I can see why people find it intersting. The commonality of all the mediocre lives of many Grace Lees were really fascinating. The film was talking about how so many Grace Lees were reserved, dutiful, piano-playing overachievers. So the film maker Grace Lee searches for Grace Lees who broke that mold. As I walked out of the theater, I was a bit bothered by the filmmaker's insecurities. Only because it seemed as if being a person who was reserved, dutiful, piano-playing overachiever was not okay. What is wrong with being a reserved, dutiful, piano-playing overachiever? Well, its just a name. But I enjoyed it. I can say its worth at least 90 minutes of your life.

The funny thing is that I too know a Grace Lee that some what fits the mold. I am sure if another Grace Lee saw this movie, she will want to break out of the mold and become an out going, irrisponsible, and crazy.

I think it was a statement of Asian American woman.

Oh the strugles of Asian American women....

If you ask me, they have it better than Asian American men. Talk about the least desirable group..... At least Asian women are wanted. Even the ugly ones. I know that this sounds insensitive, but how many times have you seen a good looking white/black dudes with some seriously broke Asian chicks? Now how many Broke Asian dudes have you seen with Hot chicks of other race?

Maybe the rich ones like Tom Vu.

I am amazed everyday at how good out Lord is.



I am glad to be back in SoCal, but it was also mad fun up north with Mel and his woman Charlene.

Mel has been attending a bible study and Mel has progressed so wonderfully. Mel & I have been friends since 93 and I have never been as proud of him as I am now.

Melchor Bautista De Haro is a child of God and definitely a new man.


Here I am with Da Fevette wearing my super femme sweater.

Last night was the most entertaining night of TV. I had LSU over Duke, Memphis winning, Texas over WV, UCLA over Gonzaga all on my pool. Needless to say that it was a good night for me. So tonight I have Villanova and UConn winning. Rest of my picks are out. But I am still kicking and Da Fevah is in first place in da office pool!

So... what do you know about SI cover jinx?

God teaches me to be humble.

For most of you that know me, being humble is a challenge for me. But God finds a way to break me down. I love that about God. Its painful and hard, but I am a better man after I get humbled.

Yesterday I was talking with my Co-Worker about God. It pains me when I hear people clowning about life and floating by it. There are so many people with such potential to be led by God. I am humbled at the fact that God is so good. Why is that God showed me the way and not others. They can have an understanding that is so much more real than anything else.

I lack very much in everything. But lack nothing with God on my side.

I feel Him working in me these days, more than ever.

It is a great feeling.

So Korea lost...

Its ok. Good job anyway!

KOREA!

Hines Ward is rooting for Korea


What a year for Koreans in sports. Half Korean Ward was MVP of Superbowl. Korea in Semi-Finals of WBC.

Go Korea! Beat Japan again!

All we have left?



DAE HAN MIN GUK!!!!!!!!!

It is all about God.

It is never about me. I pray to God and ask him to release me from my pride and do what is good in his eyes.

How hatable this guys is...

Ichiro. You made an ass out of yourself.


This make me so happy.

Damn ESPN for not showing this game.

So... How about them Koreans?

Last post I wrote was about taxes. This one is about the other certainty of life... Death.

We all fear the unknown. I can't think of anything else that is more unknown than death. The other day I heard one of my distant uncle's wife passed away. She was pretty young. Last night I heard one of my father's friends also passed away. Life is so fragile. I think my dad was in shock. He went to Korea and the first thing he found out was that his cousin's wife died and soon after his good friend also died.

It is such a scary reminder of our sins. It was once that I feared death because I thought it would be just an end to my existance. Pitch darkness with no more existance of me. I must admit that I still get that way at times. But knowing that I will be with Da Lord when I die is such a great comfort. What I fear now is not my own death. But the sorrow that I will feel when my loved ones leave this world. Whether they walk to the light or to the dark. Cause I am not the person who decides that. I don't know when people are gonna start to die. But it is my hope that when its my time to leave this world, I will reunite with all those that I love and loved.

I realize now that love changes. But most of the times for the good. Not to get mushy, but I love my wife. When we were dating I told her that I want to die before her so that I won't have to deal with her being gone. But for a while I thought may be my wife loves me just as much and that she will have a hard time if I am gone.... Who would take care of Lisa and my kids?(God willing) But both are stupid things to worry about. And I just leave evrything up to God. Cause He is good. And one day I will enjoy Him forever.

Death & Taxes

Doing taxes today....

I have an appointment with Juan the Tax guy...

I have not been this scared since I don't know when.

wish me luck everyone.

As they say I am dealing with one of 2 certainties of life today.

After I find out how my taxes go, I might just want to go through with the other certainty.

Moving sucks.

This was the weekend that I was to be skiing with Paul... But due to Lisa being sick, I couldn't go. Ever since Lisa's been sick, I have been a prisoner at my apartment. She is getting better but my mom found out that I couldn't go so she asked me for help. She was gonna hire movers but nope... I was the mover.

So This weekend I was over at my old apartment, moving my parents stuff into a storage. Thanks to help from couple of manly men, I was able to finish by Sunday. I never want to live on second floor again.

But it is a great feeling finishing something that seems impossible.



God is good.

Da Lord is my shepard....

Yeah. Its been a while since I felt that I was sheparded by Da Lord. That is because I am weak. But I can truly say that I am excited about the opportunities coming up. Opprtunities to serve Him. I realize that I need to start now. Its funny how easily I pass off my reponsibilities as a Christian. I need Da Lord more than ever. It is silly how easily distracted I am. Its time for me to get back in order and serve Da Lord. At least do my best. I need to rely on Him and only Him. Its not me. Its Da Lord.

Lord... Lisa and I need you. I pray to you for forgiveness, our hearts, our future, and Lisa's health. I pray to you for everything and ask for your guidance.

Great Balls of Fire
So today I spilled coffee while I was driving and it just burned my nads....

I went out side to cool off and all of a sudden it was freezing my nads....

To make the long story short, my friend was going crazy laughing while I scream out "Oh shiznit! My Balls!"

It was a painful experience that no man should ever have to go through....

It hurt. Now I have this uncomfortable experession on my face.

Praise be to Alah that I was wearing black pants today...

Its yet another wonderful day!

yes in deed it is. Last night to celebrate that v-day, I decided to stay in and just chill and watch a chick flick.

It's a wonderful part of being in a marriage. You get to watch movies such as "Just Like Heaven" with Reese Witherspoon. Oh yeah....

Today is Da day that I met my wifey-poo 2 years ago.

I have a long way to go in becoming the husband that I need to become.
As you know Da Fevette is down for da count with mono.

She was mad at me due to the fact that I was not as attentive as I could be.

So I dedicate this song by Yaz (lead singer of Erasure) Only You, to the best wife in the world.

Only you

looking from a window above
its like a story of love
can you hear me

came back only yesterday
moving farther away
Want you near me

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew

only you.

Sometimes when I think of her name
When its only a game
And I need you

Listen to the word that you say
Its getting harder to stay
When I see you

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew

only you.

Thanks be to Da Lord for my wifey-poo!

Wifey has mononucleosis....

Poor wifey-poo.

Here is a cool little video with Zippo tricks

Da Lord is always good.

A great weekend!

My wife threw a B-Day BBQ for little old moi this weekend. It was awesome. She is the best....


I am ready for da World cup.

a lil' Birfday cake! (pics by Andy L.)

Friends showed up. I felt so special... hahahaha!
Ain't nothin' wrong with good food and good company.

On a side note, how about that half-Korean Hines Ward!!!!!!!

31 Flavors of Da Fevah!

Yes your favorite blogger is 31 years old today.

Just like the ice cream shop Da flavah of Da Fevah gets sweeter and sweeter.

Just like fine wine, I get better and and better.

At what I don't know.

Super Bowl!!!!!!!!!!

Obviously, its one of the most exciting time for football fans. It looks like we are gonna have a good one this year. Steelers and Seahawks...

To make this blog more intersting, here is a little somethin' somethin' for y'all!

I just took the Browns to the Super Bowl. (if you don't know what this means, ax me and I will explain it to you)

All I can say is Touchdown! Browns win! Touchdowns after touchdowns.

After I got up and flushed, the Browns were celebrating in the Superbowl. Celebrating by running in circles! It was a proud moment for Da Coach Fevah!

After watching 24, The news was on. I couldn't tell the difference between the news and the show. Hamas, All kinds of conspiricy theories, grandma shooting a ex-husband of her granddaughter, and what have you.

This is a terrible world we live in.

Terrible...

It was a hectic weekend.

It looks like I am gonna have a hectic weekend for the next couple of months or so.... Oh Boy.

It was a birthday bash on a boat for Pearl's 30th....


Here is a vide of Al, Hoon and I poppin in da street after.

Fronting will get you nowhere in a hurry.

So don't front.

Be honest with God and yourself!

I am getting old....

But I want to grow old like this....

Good bye Mr. President



You will be missed. I only hope that our current president would make decisions like you did. I know that you were just a fictional character, but you were great....

Dong in love...

Yes, as many of you know, our beloved friend Dong is in love.

Here is Da Donger in toon town in Disneyland... Looking like he listens to waygay music.

The reason I am posting this is pure due to the fact that he was so disgusted when I was falling in love with my wife.

Ain't love grand?
Love can change everyone... Even clowns and meat heads like Da Donger.

This blog today is dedicated to all the people in this world who are as happy in love as da Donger!

spitting kids

We all have our short comings.

Yes we do. We all like to sin at times. We all claim that its okay and flirt with disaster.

For instance, I have anger management issues.(my poor wife) Last night I was at Barnes & Noble and as I was talking with Hoon outside, I got really annoyed. Not at Hoon, but the damn high school kids sitting next to us. There is big sign that says spitting is a misdemeanors. But here were these kids, KOREAN KIDS, mad spitting on the ground. 2 wanksters and 2 dumb chix hawking loogeys and just spitting. I wanted to go over there and start spitting at them. One high school girl actually said "hey there is a sign that says that spitting is a misdemeanors". I was hopeful all of a sudden thinking "Here is a young lady who can be redeemed from her stupidity" Then she followed her statement by saying "who Effin' cares." She proceed after with more spitting. So I look at the floor and there is a puddle of spit. I was so embarrassed to be Korean. I was getting annoyed and angry. Spitting more and more. I wanted go over there and smashed their faces. But their parents came and picked them up.

Stupid Korean parents. I should have gone over there and tell them how disgusting their children are. But I am certain they wouldn't have cared and say "Not my kids".

Just the fact that there is a sign that says "Spitting is a misdemeanors" is shameful enough. They purely put up that sign cause of other Korean kids who spit and need to get their asses kicked.

But I can't believe how angry I got. I need mercy. Though I was annoyed, I probably shouldn't have been so angry.... Thoughts of smashing their faces in... Bad.

Mercy is such a wonderful characteristics of God and I am so glad I believe in a merciful God.

Hmmm......

For the first time in my life, I rooted for SC. And guess what.. They friggin lost. I have no love for USC. But i rooted for them just due to the fact that I did not want to root for Texas. And what do you know. They make me mad once again.

The only thing that brings me a smile to face is imagining all the SC fan's sorry expressions.

What about Leinart's last comment.

"we lost but we still had a better team"

What a sore loser. No class.

Roy, Henry, and all you Trojans. I can't wait to talk with you all on Sunday.

So its another new year.

I am just plugging along this new year already and the most dreaded day of the year is here. back to work after a 3 day weekend. I guess I shouldn't be looking at it that way. But it is all good. I am super excited this year. This is the year that I will be off to da world cup! I can't wait! McNeezzle and Tanya (my co-workers)just came back Europe and they were telling me all about it. I can't wait! That and looking into purchasing a home will be among few things along with many wonderful experiences that I will be looking forward to this year!

Though I probabaly won't got to France, here are some photos that McNeezle took.




In six short months, I will be in Europe for a celebration of the world.

Mundial! Here we come. Lisa, Andy, Jongmin and I!