Good Friday! A great Friday!
I am at home right now.... No work today! I took the day off.
It is a good friday indeed.... Everyone should get a Friday off.

So here is a pic for you to enjoy!
Well I don't have much to say today other than Happy Easter.
Easter....
probably the most siginficant day of our faith...

The day of ressurection is coming! Yeah! You go Jesus!
Have a GREAT weekend y'all.

No wankers please......


I call senstive men Wankers.... It is a british slang for well.... Just about anyone who is a shmuck. An idiot, an incompetent person.

I am so ready to go home... it's only 9 o'clock... hahaha. Many things have been in my mind as of late. I could not play ball this week because my hip was hurting from SUnday's league game. Yeah I am seriously becoming an old man. So i probably did not lose anyweight this week..... Boooo! But it's all good. I am eager to get back on the court.... So on Sunday, I played in a league game and score 0 points. I had blown 2 easy layups.... Lisa was there to witness it all. Oh the shame in my game.... I suck at basketball. But Lisa said " hey you hustled out there..." hahaha. That was her encouragement. Well It was nice. Usually I am very critical about my own B-ball game. It is one of 2 sports that I really struggle in. The Other? Golf. I am also sensitive about my weight.... But I am working on it. So today I want to talk about sensitivity.

Hoon always says that I am sensitive.... Not towards others but toward myself. I think everyone is to a certain degree. I wonder if Hoon means that I can dish it out but I can't take it? I can understand to a certain degree of certain women being sensitive... that is how they are built. But when gone overboard..... Yikes. But when men are overly sensitive, it would be such a wankerish thing. But if I am sensitive.... Yikes. may be I am a wanker.... Nah. I am no bloody wanker.

I bring this up because I was talking to an old Friend of mine yesterday and she said that I was so insensitive. And how we should just bring up word of encouragement and we should never say hurtful things to each other.... Yes that is true....
But don't you think that there is an intention behind what people say? That is more important than the actual words themselves? I mean can you imagine if we were all just saying things that are so proper and nice. I think that what I say can be blunt and maybe misinterpreted. But to think that I am blaintantly trying to be insensitive is just silly. I am a staright shooter. I say it like I see it. I can see how people can be shocked by that or whatever. But I certainly cannot be around some people who are so proper that truth hurts them to a point I have to watch my self all the time. Cause if I had to watch myself all the time.... That would not be me. But than again I could probably watch myself a little bit. I guess I can be wise about it.

Here is my final statement.
People who are too sensitive have a very high self image. When some one points out a flaw, they get offended instead of looking at it. In the end, people who are too senstive are basically vain. Cause if they did not think that highly about themselves, they would not get affected so much. It's almost understandable. Accepting the truth is one of the hardest things to do.

But we all (Including myself) can work on this.

Lets not be wankers and Wankettes.

Coffee and Cigarettes.....

This morning I had a strong cup of Coffee here at work....
We have a espresso Machine. This one....

Saeco RIO Profi Combi Machine Espresso Machine!
This is a espresso machine built like a tank! Let me tell you. It is nice. I made myself a cup and was in coffee heaven. But I think it was too strong. I did not care. I was bouncing off da walls. I love coffee so much. It is one of my many vices along with my smokes.


So out of all my vices, I wonder which is the worst one. I am certain that so many of you are coffee drinkers that you will probably say, Smoking! But that is da Bomb combo. Coffee and Cigarettes. Together they are the best.... Absolute best combo. I hear that coffee speeds up the heart rate, while the cigs slow it down.... SO I figure they would cancel each other out. And that is the reason why they are such great combo.... Of course I could just do nothing...... have no affect on anything.... But what is the fun in that?

Yesterday Lisa said "I feel like I am competing with your cigs sometimes." I try not to smoke around her too much so I would go outside and what not. She hates it when I smoke.... It's understandable. I was on the same boat when I did not smoke.

Here is my ultimate goal for quitting smoking.... Yes I am gonna give up folks. After my diet is done and I maintain that weight for 7 months or so, I am gonna kick the habit. I am serious. I ma gonna quit for life..... Hopefully.

And Paul... There will be a day when you won't see me smoking on my pics anymore....

I am thinking about picking up pipe instead... To slow down the cig smoking process.

This is a painting by Magritte. It's called: Ceci n'est pas une pipe. It means: This is not a pipe, in French. so if I don't quit in 7 month after I lose weight I will say to Lisa.... While smoking "This is Not Jung smoking". May be in French... hahha

Dear Friends

I was painfully reminded of God's love this morning. God has always been good to me. But I am never good enough to Him. Growing in the love of God is something that has been fading away I realize. I was not keeping up with my prayerlife and I have not been a God centered man as of late.

Being in a relationship means for me to grow with my sigificant other and I have not been the leader that I need to be. I was just swept up on how I was feeling. But I ask all of you to pray for me and Lisa. We need His guidance and we need your help. More and more I think about this person that has come in my life, more and more I am grateful to God.

I am sure some of you have notriced that I have been a softee lately. It's true. I have been. But I don't want to be a softee in God. So please pray for me. Please pray that I can be a strong man of God that can lead a relationship.

Weight loss leading to insecurities?
Heavnzbrat said something strange the other day.... She said I am more insecure about my weight now than when I was bigger....


That was me to the left 55 lbs ago. Yup... I lost 55 pounds... to the right is me couple of days ago.... so I am thinking that I should be able to really tell the difference.... I don't really see the difference. I mean so far I've lost a small child.... And yet I am more insecure than I was when I was at my biggest? Strange isn't it? I want to lose more weight. alot more.

It's like you give some fool an inch and the nigga wants a foot. I am that nigga. I wanna lose more weight. And I am going to.

Here are some pics....

Me and Kelly are Ganstas!

Kelly is some one I recently met through Lisa. She is a profesional chef and she is da woman! She is fun. But she is also a gansta!

Al looks like he is in heaven....

Al! You know you loved it.

Here is a left over SB pic....

Someone wrote J & L on the beach... What coincidense..... So we took picture in fronto of it. No one seems to believe us for some strange reason. Do we look like a couple of cheesy people who would write that ourselves? C'mon! Gotta give Lisa and I more credit than that! Nah mean?

Time....

Time scares me more than anything in this world. Time can change anything and everything. Time changes the way you look, your philosophies in life, relationships, and etc.... Time with and without some one can drasticaally change your whole being as a human. Time is something that can be wonderful and terrible at the same time..... Sometimes I want time to stop and sometimes I want time to go by faster than speeding light. But I cannot control time. Time can be so cruel.... I have changed through time. Some for good and some for bad. Time can heal anything but unfairly not everthing.... Time is something we measure and somthing that we get measured by. No matter how young a person's stays, the truth of the matter is the sadistic cycle time is one thing you cannot lie to. You cannot hide from time. Time has made best of friends and worst of enemies. Time has changed people's heart.... Time is something that you cannot trust. But one thing for sure is that time does not lie. You can try to cheat time but it will get you in the end. Time can also protect me. But may be not.