Last night after ball, Dong and I had a conversation about going out and drinking. How people these days go out to Hollywood and stay away from K-town and blah blah blah.
Like there is a difference...
Prelude to the story.
During basketball, While I was waiting, a topic came up about going out and drinking.
Some guys were saying that they like to go out to drink to hang out with friends and what not. Getting drunk and being stupid is fun and blah blah blah. Its all good I suppose. But here is my theory about going out all the time. Why do we constantly go out and waste our (or our parents) hard earned dollars at bars and clubs? If they like drinking so much they can do it at home and save tons of money right? So I called out one of these dudes that was saying that he likes to hang with friends at clubs and bars.
Dude : I just want to hang with friends and chill....
Da Fevah : No you don't.
Dude : looking puzzled .....
Da Fevah : The reason that you go out to these clubs and bars is because deep down inside you are hoping. Hoping that you are gonna score with a girl. You are doubtful, since you probabaly have never hooked up with a girl at these establishments, but you still go. Cause that is how it is. Cause that ounce of hope makes us human beings.
Dude : Yeah.....
I was just as guilty of the same thing in the past. Same pathetic hopes that you will find that one hottie that is just a little different.... Cause you know deep down inside you are just a little different too.
Well let me just take up to speed and give a fresh cup of reality. None of us are really that different. Most of us have no game. And just becuase you go out to Hollywood instead of K-town, it doesn't mean anything different. None of us are that original and all you are doing is wasting your $$$$! But don't let me stop you from stupidity. Learn the hard way. Go ahead and buy that freeloading chick a drink that won't give you any action. When you are driving home try to calculate how much you've spent.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Blessed
That is what I am. I am back from my week training and my trip up north. I was living out of a hotel for last week and an half. I don't like that at all.
Going back to being blessed, I realized that God really took care of me. I am so thankful that I am not where I was. I am always moving ahead all thanks to da good Lord above. 2005 is leaving me for good. Whew... What a year. I would love to do a photo montage of what I've done this year but... nah. I will say it in words.
I am thrilled at the fact that I am married. I am thrilled that my parents and my inlaws get along so well.
I was very happy to see Mel and his growth in God. We had a great conversation about his life and how God has been blessing him.
We were driving back from da bay area, and stopped by K-town to this little hole in the wall Korean restaurant called san. I saw many Korean there. So young, some old, and some flossing in Benz, and some broke ass fools and still ghetto fab. Maybe I am judging but their life seemed unstable and rough. For some strange reason, I realized that momment how great life was being with my fam. Stability. It is good. I highly recommend getting to be in my stage. It is awesome. This undescribable tranquility.
My favorite quote I've heard in my life was from a book called Confessions of St. Augustine.
"Our hearts are restless until they rest upon you, Lord."
I can truly testify to how true that is for me. God truly calmed my restlessness by blessing me with a wife. How the both families have gotten along so great gives me great peace in my heart.
I am happy.
That is what I am. I am back from my week training and my trip up north. I was living out of a hotel for last week and an half. I don't like that at all.
Going back to being blessed, I realized that God really took care of me. I am so thankful that I am not where I was. I am always moving ahead all thanks to da good Lord above. 2005 is leaving me for good. Whew... What a year. I would love to do a photo montage of what I've done this year but... nah. I will say it in words.
I am thrilled at the fact that I am married. I am thrilled that my parents and my inlaws get along so well.
I was very happy to see Mel and his growth in God. We had a great conversation about his life and how God has been blessing him.
We were driving back from da bay area, and stopped by K-town to this little hole in the wall Korean restaurant called san. I saw many Korean there. So young, some old, and some flossing in Benz, and some broke ass fools and still ghetto fab. Maybe I am judging but their life seemed unstable and rough. For some strange reason, I realized that momment how great life was being with my fam. Stability. It is good. I highly recommend getting to be in my stage. It is awesome. This undescribable tranquility.
My favorite quote I've heard in my life was from a book called Confessions of St. Augustine.
"Our hearts are restless until they rest upon you, Lord."
I can truly testify to how true that is for me. God truly calmed my restlessness by blessing me with a wife. How the both families have gotten along so great gives me great peace in my heart.
I am happy.
Friday, December 16, 2005
Honesty.
Yes. Honesty. It is the best policy. However... It can be also very tricky. Most of us, including myself, are deceptively honest. We tell the truth in a way that is always in our favor.
That will be my new years resolution. Not to be decptively honest. But just honest.
Well I gotta tell ya. Honestly speaking, I need to take a break from this year and cool off for a good week. I need to meditate upon my year and all the craziness that I went through this year and just breathe. I need to reach out to peeps that I haven't reached out to in a long time. I need to.... Do a lot of things.
With new year coming and what not, I am pretty excited. But also exhausted. I am gonna rest with da wife and may be watch many DVDs.
Yes. Honesty. It is the best policy. However... It can be also very tricky. Most of us, including myself, are deceptively honest. We tell the truth in a way that is always in our favor.
That will be my new years resolution. Not to be decptively honest. But just honest.
Well I gotta tell ya. Honestly speaking, I need to take a break from this year and cool off for a good week. I need to meditate upon my year and all the craziness that I went through this year and just breathe. I need to reach out to peeps that I haven't reached out to in a long time. I need to.... Do a lot of things.
With new year coming and what not, I am pretty excited. But also exhausted. I am gonna rest with da wife and may be watch many DVDs.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Last night was my Christmas party at work. It was hardly a party. Bunch of brown nosers, brown nosing. Whck ass night with ugly food that stank.
I came to realize the challenges that is coming my way. I am seriously surrounded by bunch of money driven people who will do their best to get ahead in life. I guess we all have a purpose in life. last night though for the fist time I really realized it.
May be my purpose in being at my job is be the Christian that no one else is. Or may be this is my challenge from God... But sad thing I realized was that I am no different from my co-workers. I realized that I have not been Da Fevah for Da Lord... May be they are having more influence on me than me influenceing others. I don't know.
I am in serious need to have a daily conversation with Da Big man. Daily interactions with Big G.
I came to realize the challenges that is coming my way. I am seriously surrounded by bunch of money driven people who will do their best to get ahead in life. I guess we all have a purpose in life. last night though for the fist time I really realized it.
May be my purpose in being at my job is be the Christian that no one else is. Or may be this is my challenge from God... But sad thing I realized was that I am no different from my co-workers. I realized that I have not been Da Fevah for Da Lord... May be they are having more influence on me than me influenceing others. I don't know.
I am in serious need to have a daily conversation with Da Big man. Daily interactions with Big G.
Friday, December 09, 2005
Same but different.
I am married but I am still Da Fevah. Ain't nuthin changed.
people are saying I am a different man...
Yesterday Al came over for dinner.
We were talkin' about this that and the other. After the dinner we were smokin' a couple of Cuban stogies and Al said "I am really happy for you man. I like your place, its nice and glad you are on your married life.... " I think it dawned on him then.... "WHAT THE HELL! You are MARRIED!"
I just looked at him smiled and kept on puffing away my Hoya de Montterey, Habana. It was smooth and tasty.
Out of all my friends the one that took the marriage thing the hardest was Dong.
Dong and I had a fun conversation this morning.
Dong... Like me, you too will be broken. Cause at one time I was 10 times the THUG that you are. God will break you and I can't wait. hahahaha!
I am married but I am still Da Fevah. Ain't nuthin changed.
people are saying I am a different man...
Yesterday Al came over for dinner.
We were talkin' about this that and the other. After the dinner we were smokin' a couple of Cuban stogies and Al said "I am really happy for you man. I like your place, its nice and glad you are on your married life.... " I think it dawned on him then.... "WHAT THE HELL! You are MARRIED!"
I just looked at him smiled and kept on puffing away my Hoya de Montterey, Habana. It was smooth and tasty.
Out of all my friends the one that took the marriage thing the hardest was Dong.
Dong and I had a fun conversation this morning.
Dong... Like me, you too will be broken. Cause at one time I was 10 times the THUG that you are. God will break you and I can't wait. hahahaha!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Gratitude
My niggas. (photo by Andy Lee)
I have been mad busy lately. But its also been mad fun. I sit back and reflect upon my short life and realize how perfect God really is. His plans are da bomb! Everything happens in a perfect cycle. I realize looking back that I was lonely when I was supposed to be lonely and happy when I was supposed to be happy... So on and so forth. I highly recommend that you just let God happen in your life. Let Him take you through life and let Him work on the things that He needs to work on. I was sharing with some people about the wonderful things about getting married. I gotta say, that beyond all insecurities that I felt, it was da best thing that happened to me. But don't be anxious about it. Let it happen just the way He wants it to happen. Life is so silly when you try to take control of it. Be motivated, but not over motivated. Just follow His lead and let life take it's perfect course. He will guide you through it just like that.
I had a wonderful time through out the whole process of getting married. I remember the horrible process of preparing for it. How I never thought that it would happen. How Lisa and I fought about the silliest things. I remember all the horrid things that we said to each other purely due to stress. I look back to couple of months ago and already laugh. I am so glad we went through all that, cause it makes it that much more meaningful.
I would just like to thank everyone who blessed us either by helping or just being there. Or just wishing us the best luck and what not. Cause unlike the other people who have told me that the wedding day was just a blur, I remember the whole day. I really had a blast. I have never felt so loved in my life. My family, friends, all the way to strangers that I never met who wished us good luck.
I thank DA BIG G upstairs for all His mercy. So merciful that He would allow a wretched man such as I, be so blessed with such a great wedding and action packed honeymoon.
My three year plan has completed in 3 years. Thank you Lord.
My niggas. (photo by Andy Lee)
I have been mad busy lately. But its also been mad fun. I sit back and reflect upon my short life and realize how perfect God really is. His plans are da bomb! Everything happens in a perfect cycle. I realize looking back that I was lonely when I was supposed to be lonely and happy when I was supposed to be happy... So on and so forth. I highly recommend that you just let God happen in your life. Let Him take you through life and let Him work on the things that He needs to work on. I was sharing with some people about the wonderful things about getting married. I gotta say, that beyond all insecurities that I felt, it was da best thing that happened to me. But don't be anxious about it. Let it happen just the way He wants it to happen. Life is so silly when you try to take control of it. Be motivated, but not over motivated. Just follow His lead and let life take it's perfect course. He will guide you through it just like that.
I had a wonderful time through out the whole process of getting married. I remember the horrible process of preparing for it. How I never thought that it would happen. How Lisa and I fought about the silliest things. I remember all the horrid things that we said to each other purely due to stress. I look back to couple of months ago and already laugh. I am so glad we went through all that, cause it makes it that much more meaningful.
I would just like to thank everyone who blessed us either by helping or just being there. Or just wishing us the best luck and what not. Cause unlike the other people who have told me that the wedding day was just a blur, I remember the whole day. I really had a blast. I have never felt so loved in my life. My family, friends, all the way to strangers that I never met who wished us good luck.
I thank DA BIG G upstairs for all His mercy. So merciful that He would allow a wretched man such as I, be so blessed with such a great wedding and action packed honeymoon.
My three year plan has completed in 3 years. Thank you Lord.
Friday, November 25, 2005
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
One - U2
Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
You say
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's
Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One
Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One
One month left before Lisa and I become one. Its been a bumpy ride till now. But I am glad we've been persevering till now. Lisa and I are about to conquer our fears!
Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
You say
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's
Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One
Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One
One month left before Lisa and I become one. Its been a bumpy ride till now. But I am glad we've been persevering till now. Lisa and I are about to conquer our fears!
Monday, October 10, 2005
I hear thousands of problems every single day. Being in my line of business, that is what its all about. Problems. People feeling like they are getting ripped off or people who know it all. All these problems in this world... It is a crazy world we live in. I've had this pain in the back of my head. My blood pressure rising as we speak. What can I say. Life is hard. But today I found a little time to thank God for my life.
I am scared of just one thing these days. Getting married is not it. But I am scared of the fact that I might not be able to lead Lisa closer to God. I know that it might sound a little cheezy and chauvinistic for some to read this. But out of all the respnosibilities that I have getting married, that is the only one that I realize that I need to step up to. And yet here I am, getting married. Diving in with both feet. I thanked God today for all my stress that didn't have before. Cause I am in some crazy way, in absolute need to go though what I am going through. This pre-marital stage has been very hard for Lisa and I. But I can surely say that it is an absolute necessity.
God is finding ways to sanctify me in this painful process of getting ready for the "Big Day".
I stand in awe of His greatness. God is showing me, my imperfection through all this. Just ask Lisa of my imperfections and Lisa will be able to tell you a laundy list of things that I need to improve on. And through this I am even more humbled by God. He really is showing me the areas in my life that I need to improve on.
That is the real gem of this whole experience. The painful realization that I am not good enough. hahaha! But I am trying!
I am scared of just one thing these days. Getting married is not it. But I am scared of the fact that I might not be able to lead Lisa closer to God. I know that it might sound a little cheezy and chauvinistic for some to read this. But out of all the respnosibilities that I have getting married, that is the only one that I realize that I need to step up to. And yet here I am, getting married. Diving in with both feet. I thanked God today for all my stress that didn't have before. Cause I am in some crazy way, in absolute need to go though what I am going through. This pre-marital stage has been very hard for Lisa and I. But I can surely say that it is an absolute necessity.
God is finding ways to sanctify me in this painful process of getting ready for the "Big Day".
I stand in awe of His greatness. God is showing me, my imperfection through all this. Just ask Lisa of my imperfections and Lisa will be able to tell you a laundy list of things that I need to improve on. And through this I am even more humbled by God. He really is showing me the areas in my life that I need to improve on.
That is the real gem of this whole experience. The painful realization that I am not good enough. hahaha! But I am trying!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Gold Digger
I ain't saying that she's a golddigger
But she ain't messin with no broke niggas
I want to start this blog by saying that I am not a big Fan of Kanye. But how true are these words.
I talked with Al about this and it is funny. How many times have you heard a girl say "My future husband better have a degree from at least (some good School), he needs to be tall and in shape and he needs a six figure income!"
I've heard this from countless amount of women. Some cute, some Hot, some skinny, some fat, and some ugly, some chubby, so on and so forth. I am usually harsh to men, when they describe their ideal women and go off about big eyes and tall and cook and what not(i shall exclude other details).
But women get crazy when they start saying "I will not date anyone unless...."
Crazy chicks.
So if a man can provide all these things, what can you offer him?
You better put down that cookie and get yourself to a gym. Get cookin' lessons and start thinking about pleasing your man on demand.
Not that great huh?
All I can say is that I am lucky man. When I met my fiance, I was broke ass nigga with nothing but a big mouth. She loved me when I was broke, and I can certainly say that she loves me now.
To all that have had a long list of impossible requirements, don't disapoint yourself. Cause you will never find that person and you will die old, single, shribbled, and alone.
Instead look at yourself in the mirror and say "I am so imperfect and I need to look to God for perfection"
If that is not enough, look in that mirror again and think to yourself, "Am I comparable to all that I demand from my future man?"
I can guarantee you that you are not.
I ain't saying that she's a golddigger
But she ain't messin with no broke niggas
I want to start this blog by saying that I am not a big Fan of Kanye. But how true are these words.
I talked with Al about this and it is funny. How many times have you heard a girl say "My future husband better have a degree from at least (some good School), he needs to be tall and in shape and he needs a six figure income!"
I've heard this from countless amount of women. Some cute, some Hot, some skinny, some fat, and some ugly, some chubby, so on and so forth. I am usually harsh to men, when they describe their ideal women and go off about big eyes and tall and cook and what not(i shall exclude other details).
But women get crazy when they start saying "I will not date anyone unless...."
Crazy chicks.
So if a man can provide all these things, what can you offer him?
You better put down that cookie and get yourself to a gym. Get cookin' lessons and start thinking about pleasing your man on demand.
Not that great huh?
All I can say is that I am lucky man. When I met my fiance, I was broke ass nigga with nothing but a big mouth. She loved me when I was broke, and I can certainly say that she loves me now.
To all that have had a long list of impossible requirements, don't disapoint yourself. Cause you will never find that person and you will die old, single, shribbled, and alone.
Instead look at yourself in the mirror and say "I am so imperfect and I need to look to God for perfection"
If that is not enough, look in that mirror again and think to yourself, "Am I comparable to all that I demand from my future man?"
I can guarantee you that you are not.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
The night went great.
Parents got along great. Lisa's dad and my dad got along great. All it took was some soju. They were both getting really red and their voices were getting louder and louder. It began sorta akward but ended great.
I am so ready to be married. I had a nice talk with rookie today about being a single person vs. someone who was getting married.
One thing that I should say that is great about single is freedom to think for yourself and yourself alone. Not thinking for two and just doing what pleases you. Unless you know what I am talking about, one probably does not know what I am talking about. This also is great with God. My greatest growth with God was when I was a single. It is truly amazing the kind of intimate relatuionship that you can have with God when you have nothing but yourself to relate with God about. Not to say that my relationship with God is bad, but it is different now. I have many things that play in to my focus upon Him. But I am so looking forward to it.
Talking rookie, really moyivated me to be a man of God tonight. I have many many many flaws. But I really look forward to how God is going to show me new things in my new stage of my life.
Parents got along great. Lisa's dad and my dad got along great. All it took was some soju. They were both getting really red and their voices were getting louder and louder. It began sorta akward but ended great.
I am so ready to be married. I had a nice talk with rookie today about being a single person vs. someone who was getting married.
One thing that I should say that is great about single is freedom to think for yourself and yourself alone. Not thinking for two and just doing what pleases you. Unless you know what I am talking about, one probably does not know what I am talking about. This also is great with God. My greatest growth with God was when I was a single. It is truly amazing the kind of intimate relatuionship that you can have with God when you have nothing but yourself to relate with God about. Not to say that my relationship with God is bad, but it is different now. I have many things that play in to my focus upon Him. But I am so looking forward to it.
Talking rookie, really moyivated me to be a man of God tonight. I have many many many flaws. But I really look forward to how God is going to show me new things in my new stage of my life.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Circle o' Trust
Here is something strange. I have said "I don't trust Koreans with business!" Today I heard a white girl at work said "I don't trust white people with my face!"(make up & hair) Then a Mexican co-worker said "I don't trust Mexican with anything!"
I learned something from this.... We don't trust anyone.
That is sales. You are selling your trust to the client...
I have to earn their trust.
So, Trust me.
More importantly, trust in da Lord!
Here is something strange. I have said "I don't trust Koreans with business!" Today I heard a white girl at work said "I don't trust white people with my face!"(make up & hair) Then a Mexican co-worker said "I don't trust Mexican with anything!"
I learned something from this.... We don't trust anyone.
That is sales. You are selling your trust to the client...
I have to earn their trust.
So, Trust me.
More importantly, trust in da Lord!
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Email for the smartest man I know.
For many of you that has had the privilege of meeting Joseph Y. Lee, you all know how smart he really is. Joe Y. Lee just sent me an email. A personal email. I gotta say it left a warm fuzzy feeling inside. In a strange way, I miss this guy. I can truly say that after a tough day at work and grinding it out on the basketball court, it was a pleasant surprise that gave me a smile on my face.
Email was about his relentless search for Michael Rabin CD. And how he found the Paganini's Concerto 1 after searching for it for 20 years. BTW I too just purchased exact same thing that he did! How looney is that? Hahha!
Not a mass email but a personal email from Joe Y. Lee...
It made my day.
For many of you that has had the privilege of meeting Joseph Y. Lee, you all know how smart he really is. Joe Y. Lee just sent me an email. A personal email. I gotta say it left a warm fuzzy feeling inside. In a strange way, I miss this guy. I can truly say that after a tough day at work and grinding it out on the basketball court, it was a pleasant surprise that gave me a smile on my face.
Email was about his relentless search for Michael Rabin CD. And how he found the Paganini's Concerto 1 after searching for it for 20 years. BTW I too just purchased exact same thing that he did! How looney is that? Hahha!
Not a mass email but a personal email from Joe Y. Lee...
It made my day.
Monday, August 08, 2005
Thursday, August 04, 2005
old and older...
I saw Violent Femmes last night. Yup I went to their concert and i can say that it was better than I thought it was gonna be. But they are old. Middle aged ajuhcees and still performing. I expected to see about 50 peopel there and boy was I wrong. The place was packed.
The audience was not as old as I thought it was goona be. They have almost a cult following
Not bad for a one album wonders.
I saw Violent Femmes last night. Yup I went to their concert and i can say that it was better than I thought it was gonna be. But they are old. Middle aged ajuhcees and still performing. I expected to see about 50 peopel there and boy was I wrong. The place was packed.
The audience was not as old as I thought it was goona be. They have almost a cult following
Not bad for a one album wonders.
Monday, August 01, 2005
falling in to places
Its been quite a week. As I might have told some of you, Lisa and I set our mind to a place in Fullerton called The Muckenthaler Center. Yup.
Lately I have been getting so many advices from people about how hard it is going to be being a married man.(Lisa is da Lucky one if you ax me)haha! Niggas be tellin' me this and tellin' me that. Nigettes be tellin me how lucky I am. Some fools be tellin' me how fast everything is happening. Some other fools be sayin' this, that, and the other. Well, so far things are going well. I am excited to say that I am actually really going to be looking forward to getting married. I am not scared at all. I can say that I am fully aware of the madness people, called "Da Married Life".
Right now I want to quote Renton form the movie "Trainspotting". If you haven't seen it, you should. Its one of those movies that I would call a great one. Here is the last little monologue before the movie ends as Renton is walking away from his past.
RENTON (voice-over): So why did I do it? I could offer you a million answers, all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change. I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm going to be just like you. The job, the family, the f*&%ing big television, the washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead, to the day you die.
Its been quite a week. As I might have told some of you, Lisa and I set our mind to a place in Fullerton called The Muckenthaler Center. Yup.
Lately I have been getting so many advices from people about how hard it is going to be being a married man.(Lisa is da Lucky one if you ax me)haha! Niggas be tellin' me this and tellin' me that. Nigettes be tellin me how lucky I am. Some fools be tellin' me how fast everything is happening. Some other fools be sayin' this, that, and the other. Well, so far things are going well. I am excited to say that I am actually really going to be looking forward to getting married. I am not scared at all. I can say that I am fully aware of the madness people, called "Da Married Life".
Right now I want to quote Renton form the movie "Trainspotting". If you haven't seen it, you should. Its one of those movies that I would call a great one. Here is the last little monologue before the movie ends as Renton is walking away from his past.
RENTON (voice-over): So why did I do it? I could offer you a million answers, all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change. I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm going to be just like you. The job, the family, the f*&%ing big television, the washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead, to the day you die.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Weddings... Money Crashers
Many thanks to all those that told me either in person, or by a phone call or whatever. The congrats have been pouring in all week and I can't say thank you enough. Planning for a wedding will be extremely overwhelming but I am looking forward to it.
Okay so whatelse have been upto? Once again back to work. and back to yet more weddings I had to attend.
I begin to realize that I do not really like weddings in general. And it is as especially hard to go when you don't know the either party. Past weekend I missed the entire wedding ceremony and barely made it to the reception. I ate and before you know it we had to go. It was something else. It was Lisa, Jongmin and Jae. We went a wedding out in Burbank. It was so far and it was s hot. It was my fault we were late and Lisa was mad.
Well to make the long story short, I am always happy for the people who get married. However, who really enjoys weddings? I am wondering, are people really going to enjoy my wedding.... Probably not. But who cares right?
And why the heck is it so damn expensive? all I can say is that normal things cost three times as much when you put wedding in front of it....
Regular chairs to rent? cheap. White ones for the wedding? 3 times as expensive.
Oh boy... Here comes the stress... And there goes my wallet...
Many thanks to all those that told me either in person, or by a phone call or whatever. The congrats have been pouring in all week and I can't say thank you enough. Planning for a wedding will be extremely overwhelming but I am looking forward to it.
Okay so whatelse have been upto? Once again back to work. and back to yet more weddings I had to attend.
I begin to realize that I do not really like weddings in general. And it is as especially hard to go when you don't know the either party. Past weekend I missed the entire wedding ceremony and barely made it to the reception. I ate and before you know it we had to go. It was something else. It was Lisa, Jongmin and Jae. We went a wedding out in Burbank. It was so far and it was s hot. It was my fault we were late and Lisa was mad.
Well to make the long story short, I am always happy for the people who get married. However, who really enjoys weddings? I am wondering, are people really going to enjoy my wedding.... Probably not. But who cares right?
And why the heck is it so damn expensive? all I can say is that normal things cost three times as much when you put wedding in front of it....
Regular chairs to rent? cheap. White ones for the wedding? 3 times as expensive.
Oh boy... Here comes the stress... And there goes my wallet...
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Public Service Anouncement.
Yup... I done did it. I axed Lisa an once in a life time question. Fortunately she didn't say NO. Unfortunately for all the ladies, Da Fevah is engaged!
Flew her up to SF and proposed at Crepe House on Polk and Washington. If you want to hear details,
Ax Lisa... My Fiance!
Yup... I done did it. I axed Lisa an once in a life time question. Fortunately she didn't say NO. Unfortunately for all the ladies, Da Fevah is engaged!
Flew her up to SF and proposed at Crepe House on Polk and Washington. If you want to hear details,
Ax Lisa... My Fiance!
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Passionless, pointless....
I like passionate people. To me there is nothing worse than people who won't take a stand on things. You've seen them. They might be nice peeps but they are missing a pair of cajones. To them evrything is okay and all things seem relative. As long as it is cool. They lack passion, and loyalty. Which is annoying. Or they might be just passionate about meaningless things.
Jongmin and I had a talk tonight about it. Cause even if you are wrong and lost, I'd rather ba hanging with people who takes a stance vs. some dumb chump who is ready to accept anything and wishy washy everything. It is all about commitment and following through in life.
Don't be generic and say that all things are relative. Cause as true as it might seem, all you are doing is confusing yourself more. Be passionate and Be excellent. Take a stance on something. Even if you are wrong, you might learn something about yourself.
I like passionate people. To me there is nothing worse than people who won't take a stand on things. You've seen them. They might be nice peeps but they are missing a pair of cajones. To them evrything is okay and all things seem relative. As long as it is cool. They lack passion, and loyalty. Which is annoying. Or they might be just passionate about meaningless things.
Jongmin and I had a talk tonight about it. Cause even if you are wrong and lost, I'd rather ba hanging with people who takes a stance vs. some dumb chump who is ready to accept anything and wishy washy everything. It is all about commitment and following through in life.
Don't be generic and say that all things are relative. Cause as true as it might seem, all you are doing is confusing yourself more. Be passionate and Be excellent. Take a stance on something. Even if you are wrong, you might learn something about yourself.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
I am a Hater...
You always hear it. Don't be a player hater... I realized that I was a hater after watching Spurs and Pistons play in da finals. I wasn't happy for either. I was straight up hatin'. Yup. I guess I shouldn't hate. But I hate. I hate some fools that front like they are not a hater, cause lets be honest. Who doesn't hate? I believe that hating because of jealousy is bad. But I am NOT down with many things that are okay with many people.
Yup... But the greatest hate is for my iniquities. I come short of His glory everyday and I hate that! I am hatin' Hate sinning yet I do it EVERY SINGLE DAY. And don't give me that everyone is a sinner stuff cause it doesn't mean its okay. I hate passive-aggressive people, and I really hate the SF giants. Not to forget my hatred for the city of Boston. Strangely enough I don't hate the Red Sox. But I be hatin' da yanks...
Yeah I am a hater. And so are you.
You always hear it. Don't be a player hater... I realized that I was a hater after watching Spurs and Pistons play in da finals. I wasn't happy for either. I was straight up hatin'. Yup. I guess I shouldn't hate. But I hate. I hate some fools that front like they are not a hater, cause lets be honest. Who doesn't hate? I believe that hating because of jealousy is bad. But I am NOT down with many things that are okay with many people.
Yup... But the greatest hate is for my iniquities. I come short of His glory everyday and I hate that! I am hatin' Hate sinning yet I do it EVERY SINGLE DAY. And don't give me that everyone is a sinner stuff cause it doesn't mean its okay. I hate passive-aggressive people, and I really hate the SF giants. Not to forget my hatred for the city of Boston. Strangely enough I don't hate the Red Sox. But I be hatin' da yanks...
Yeah I am a hater. And so are you.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Low Standards....
It's disappointing how we have such low standards in this world. It's strange what arrogance people have in themselves. I keep hearing over and over how one should believe in oneself. Well I tried that before and let me tell you I failed miserably.
May be you won't....
But the chances are you are no better than I. You too will flop on your face if you believe that garbage about self worship.
I only share this because sometimes I get so arrogant and forget who I am working for.
I heard some where that people are depressed because most people believe that they are destined to be greater than what they have achieve in their life. And most likely one is capable of reaching maximum potential. But seeing their own Mundane lives always makes one wonder of what they were meant to be doing.
Well don't. Cause you are doing exactly what was planned out for you.
But what is a personal achievement when God is not with you? All that does is feed your selfish egotistical pipe dream that really don't mean anything anyway....
So today do everything to achieve greatness. I promise you that some of you might come close, and I will find some reason why you didn't.
If you do achieve greatness still,
I will give you a cookie.
It's disappointing how we have such low standards in this world. It's strange what arrogance people have in themselves. I keep hearing over and over how one should believe in oneself. Well I tried that before and let me tell you I failed miserably.
May be you won't....
But the chances are you are no better than I. You too will flop on your face if you believe that garbage about self worship.
I only share this because sometimes I get so arrogant and forget who I am working for.
I heard some where that people are depressed because most people believe that they are destined to be greater than what they have achieve in their life. And most likely one is capable of reaching maximum potential. But seeing their own Mundane lives always makes one wonder of what they were meant to be doing.
Well don't. Cause you are doing exactly what was planned out for you.
But what is a personal achievement when God is not with you? All that does is feed your selfish egotistical pipe dream that really don't mean anything anyway....
So today do everything to achieve greatness. I promise you that some of you might come close, and I will find some reason why you didn't.
If you do achieve greatness still,
I will give you a cookie.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
We Americans are bunch of Cowboys.
Just came back from celebrating the 4th with bunch o' Friends. I went to Fullerton Jr. College to watch fireworks. They really layed it on think with Freedom USA stuff. I felt like I was listening to The big cowboy himself G.W.
Before the fireworks some Fullerton Councilman came out and started the U~ S~ A~ Chant. And everyone started to chant it like Hacksaw Jim Dugan.
Well the Freedom songs came out during Fireworks and everyone was going nuts. It was a serious display of something....
May be I should have joined them in yelling out U~S~A~ Cause I've always wanted to be a cowboy. Ever since I was a kid. It's true. Loved westerns and Loved Clint Eastwood. Wanted to be just like him. Unfortunately I am not. May be I should "git" me some Sh*t kickers (boots), with real tight wranglers and some big belt buckle.
Cause there is a new sheriff in town.... Sheriff D.A. Fevah.
Just came back from celebrating the 4th with bunch o' Friends. I went to Fullerton Jr. College to watch fireworks. They really layed it on think with Freedom USA stuff. I felt like I was listening to The big cowboy himself G.W.
Before the fireworks some Fullerton Councilman came out and started the U~ S~ A~ Chant. And everyone started to chant it like Hacksaw Jim Dugan.
Well the Freedom songs came out during Fireworks and everyone was going nuts. It was a serious display of something....
May be I should have joined them in yelling out U~S~A~ Cause I've always wanted to be a cowboy. Ever since I was a kid. It's true. Loved westerns and Loved Clint Eastwood. Wanted to be just like him. Unfortunately I am not. May be I should "git" me some Sh*t kickers (boots), with real tight wranglers and some big belt buckle.
Cause there is a new sheriff in town.... Sheriff D.A. Fevah.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
The surprising #1
To my surprise I was the #1 producer in my team. We have a gang of new people on our branch and I am no longer the rookie of the branch. This just means that I have more on my plate and that I have higher expectations from my supervisor and manager. Well good. I don't want to seem complacent. I don't want to be a burn out. But I am looking forward to this weekend. I certainly want to be successful. But I can also see myself getting blinded by $$$$. What a schmuck... I just thank Da Lord for putting me at a place with a great team leader who helped me so much so far... I am soooo thankful to Tascha!
To my surprise I was the #1 producer in my team. We have a gang of new people on our branch and I am no longer the rookie of the branch. This just means that I have more on my plate and that I have higher expectations from my supervisor and manager. Well good. I don't want to seem complacent. I don't want to be a burn out. But I am looking forward to this weekend. I certainly want to be successful. But I can also see myself getting blinded by $$$$. What a schmuck... I just thank Da Lord for putting me at a place with a great team leader who helped me so much so far... I am soooo thankful to Tascha!
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Hey Lebowski... I am gonna Cut off your johnson!
I forgot how great Big Lebowski was until I bought it at Target for 7 bucks.
One of the GREAT actors of our time has to be John Turturro.
If you havn't seen this movie yet, you have to.
If you don't want to spend money on buying/renting Big Lebowski...(Cheap ass) I know some one who just got it for 7 dukettes. Wink Wink.
I forgot how great Big Lebowski was until I bought it at Target for 7 bucks.
One of the GREAT actors of our time has to be John Turturro.
If you havn't seen this movie yet, you have to.
If you don't want to spend money on buying/renting Big Lebowski...(Cheap ass) I know some one who just got it for 7 dukettes. Wink Wink.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Monday, June 20, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Humble/Amped
So the #1 Account executive in the entire US Countrywide Full Spectrum Division is in my branch and he was giving a speech at the sales conference that I had to attend. Along with him were couple of other success stories. But What I found to be so amazing is his Humble attitude about everything. It really says alot. Other people were really nice too, but he really is sincere and genuine. But he is always amped up. He is a great example of being amped up all the time for the right reasons. Having a great attitude can take you a long way.
Cause for me, I try to look at the glass half full all Da TIME!
So the #1 Account executive in the entire US Countrywide Full Spectrum Division is in my branch and he was giving a speech at the sales conference that I had to attend. Along with him were couple of other success stories. But What I found to be so amazing is his Humble attitude about everything. It really says alot. Other people were really nice too, but he really is sincere and genuine. But he is always amped up. He is a great example of being amped up all the time for the right reasons. Having a great attitude can take you a long way.
Cause for me, I try to look at the glass half full all Da TIME!
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Traffic School.
I was 10 minutes late and they did not let me in. I was actually kinda happy about it. Only in OC do we have to actually go to actual court. Why I have to do that I just don't understand. I wish that it was like LA county so that I can take traffic school on=line. But no. Not in OC. So basically I have to go back and sign up again.
I actually dread traffic school. I think I would rather do just about anything but waste 8 hours of my life. Well maybe not anything. But close. Cypress Cops... Seriously is crampin' my mad fly style. Why is it that I never feel safe around cops? When you see a cop car, I should feel safe and think "Oh there is a Officer to ensure out safety!" But no. I don't think that. Instantly I feel like I've done something wrong.
Then I immediately think of famous lyrics by Cypress Hill
Cops....
Come and try to snatch my crops
these pigs wanna burn my house down....
Not that I grow crops. But I guess I am glad that we have cops. Its not like I preffer anarchy. I just really think that ones in motor cycles only serve the purpose of giving tickets. That to me is like being a narc.
I was 10 minutes late and they did not let me in. I was actually kinda happy about it. Only in OC do we have to actually go to actual court. Why I have to do that I just don't understand. I wish that it was like LA county so that I can take traffic school on=line. But no. Not in OC. So basically I have to go back and sign up again.
I actually dread traffic school. I think I would rather do just about anything but waste 8 hours of my life. Well maybe not anything. But close. Cypress Cops... Seriously is crampin' my mad fly style. Why is it that I never feel safe around cops? When you see a cop car, I should feel safe and think "Oh there is a Officer to ensure out safety!" But no. I don't think that. Instantly I feel like I've done something wrong.
Then I immediately think of famous lyrics by Cypress Hill
Cops....
Come and try to snatch my crops
these pigs wanna burn my house down....
Not that I grow crops. But I guess I am glad that we have cops. Its not like I preffer anarchy. I just really think that ones in motor cycles only serve the purpose of giving tickets. That to me is like being a narc.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Da Fevah is going around.
Yup. Da sickness is back. Already at work my team leader Tascha and co-worker Alex has been out sick for last 2 days. Also, this was kinda funny but one of my customer was sick. And this was our conversation.
Over da phizzone with my customer Maria.
Borrower - Hi Jung. You'll have to Excuse my voice, I am sick.
Da Fevah - You are sick? What do you have?
Borrower - I don't know I think I got it from my kids...
Da Fevah - Do you have... DA FEVAH?
DUN DUn Dun!!!!!!
Borrower - Yes...
Da Fevah - Your kids have Da Fevah Too?
Borrower - Yes...
Da Fevah - You have to be careful. Da Fevah can get ya!
Borrower - I know.
Da Fevah - There is no running from Da Fevah when it gets a hold of you.
Borrower - Especially for women.
Da Fevah - (trying not to laugh out loud) Yes... You are right. Da Fevah on a woman is potent.
Borrower - Both of my daughters have it too.
Da Fevah - Oh boy... Both mother and daughters caught Da Fevah huh? Its not uncommon for Da Fevah to go around like that. My girlfriend caught Da Fevah too and I don't think she ever shook it off. So be careful.
Borrower - Yes it is Merciless.
Da Fevah - Indeed.
We proceded to business after that delightful talk... Hahahha!
Be careful Y'alls. You don't want to catch Da Fevah!
Yup. Da sickness is back. Already at work my team leader Tascha and co-worker Alex has been out sick for last 2 days. Also, this was kinda funny but one of my customer was sick. And this was our conversation.
Over da phizzone with my customer Maria.
Borrower - Hi Jung. You'll have to Excuse my voice, I am sick.
Da Fevah - You are sick? What do you have?
Borrower - I don't know I think I got it from my kids...
Da Fevah - Do you have... DA FEVAH?
DUN DUn Dun!!!!!!
Borrower - Yes...
Da Fevah - Your kids have Da Fevah Too?
Borrower - Yes...
Da Fevah - You have to be careful. Da Fevah can get ya!
Borrower - I know.
Da Fevah - There is no running from Da Fevah when it gets a hold of you.
Borrower - Especially for women.
Da Fevah - (trying not to laugh out loud) Yes... You are right. Da Fevah on a woman is potent.
Borrower - Both of my daughters have it too.
Da Fevah - Oh boy... Both mother and daughters caught Da Fevah huh? Its not uncommon for Da Fevah to go around like that. My girlfriend caught Da Fevah too and I don't think she ever shook it off. So be careful.
Borrower - Yes it is Merciless.
Da Fevah - Indeed.
We proceded to business after that delightful talk... Hahahha!
Be careful Y'alls. You don't want to catch Da Fevah!
Monday, June 06, 2005
2nd Chances.
I just watched Cinderella Man. It was very enjoyable. I really enjoyed the Character of the boxer James J. Braddock. A man who lost all earthly posessions and yet did not lose his real possesions of his life, His family. I gotta tell ya, I am certainly in agreeance with the philosophy that when motivated, you do that much better. So for many of us, when we are given 1st, 2nd, or 3rd chances, we should always be motivated by something. So find your motivation and ask yourself if your motivation is worthy. And ask yourslef if it is selfish. Cause I realize that I am a selfish mofo. Real selfish.
Lord.... Help me glorify you in my motivation.
I just watched Cinderella Man. It was very enjoyable. I really enjoyed the Character of the boxer James J. Braddock. A man who lost all earthly posessions and yet did not lose his real possesions of his life, His family. I gotta tell ya, I am certainly in agreeance with the philosophy that when motivated, you do that much better. So for many of us, when we are given 1st, 2nd, or 3rd chances, we should always be motivated by something. So find your motivation and ask yourself if your motivation is worthy. And ask yourslef if it is selfish. Cause I realize that I am a selfish mofo. Real selfish.
Lord.... Help me glorify you in my motivation.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Being in control of your own destiny.
Some one said that today and I just smiled.
We are all just a spec on this planet and there is a whole lotta things in this universe that we will never understand. One of them being God's divine and soverign interventions and His method of displaying His will.
With that said, I am so thankful and glad that He is in total control and not us. And no matter how strange His ways or His will is exercised, I am thankful that He is the one exercising it.
To all that are going through rough times, no matter how hopeless it might feel, it is never hopeless. It is easy to think that the world is coming to an end. But it ain't unless He wants it to end. Just rise above all your worries and weakness by leaning and trusting upon Da ROCK. We are not in control. Not even the mightiest of mighties can defy the nature of this unpredictable life. Have faith in the only consistant source in this broken world.
We all stand where we stand because of His will. Don't let your arrogance fool you. None of us are worthy to live let alone be in control of our lives.
No matter what da outcome, it is great cause in the end, Jesus lives.
Some one said that today and I just smiled.
We are all just a spec on this planet and there is a whole lotta things in this universe that we will never understand. One of them being God's divine and soverign interventions and His method of displaying His will.
With that said, I am so thankful and glad that He is in total control and not us. And no matter how strange His ways or His will is exercised, I am thankful that He is the one exercising it.
To all that are going through rough times, no matter how hopeless it might feel, it is never hopeless. It is easy to think that the world is coming to an end. But it ain't unless He wants it to end. Just rise above all your worries and weakness by leaning and trusting upon Da ROCK. We are not in control. Not even the mightiest of mighties can defy the nature of this unpredictable life. Have faith in the only consistant source in this broken world.
We all stand where we stand because of His will. Don't let your arrogance fool you. None of us are worthy to live let alone be in control of our lives.
No matter what da outcome, it is great cause in the end, Jesus lives.
Monday, May 23, 2005
Excruciating
That is what life can be for many of us. Confusion all around. But all that can be understood when you put it to Da Lord. So many of us deal with everyday stress and so many of us find it so painful. This thing called life. Yeah I deal with many people everyday. Extremely emotional to extremely stoic. Roller coastal of a life I tell ya. But through all the madness, God always throws me a bone. And at the end of the day, I always find something to smile about.
Today I was talking with a custommer and we both had a good laugh about the whole process of her situation throughout the loan process. It was pretty extreme. Happy one momment and unhappy the next. Disappointments to excitement. But at the end of it all, it is gonna happen and we both laughed for a good minute. It was good. But there are disapointing momments too. Last week I prayed that I would do my business and that I would always have my integrity and that there would always be a benefit for my borrowers. I prayed that my custommer would not get a loan from me if they were gonna be harmed if loan goes through. It was scary cause I immediately lost 3 loans that day. (May be I shouldn't have prayed that...) hahaha! Nah just kidding. I am glad that Da Lord is keeping me in check.
I am learning everyday that I have it hard even when da Lord is with me. I don't know how some fools go on without Da Lord... Only if they understood how much better life can be with Da Main Man in Da Sky!
That is what life can be for many of us. Confusion all around. But all that can be understood when you put it to Da Lord. So many of us deal with everyday stress and so many of us find it so painful. This thing called life. Yeah I deal with many people everyday. Extremely emotional to extremely stoic. Roller coastal of a life I tell ya. But through all the madness, God always throws me a bone. And at the end of the day, I always find something to smile about.
Today I was talking with a custommer and we both had a good laugh about the whole process of her situation throughout the loan process. It was pretty extreme. Happy one momment and unhappy the next. Disappointments to excitement. But at the end of it all, it is gonna happen and we both laughed for a good minute. It was good. But there are disapointing momments too. Last week I prayed that I would do my business and that I would always have my integrity and that there would always be a benefit for my borrowers. I prayed that my custommer would not get a loan from me if they were gonna be harmed if loan goes through. It was scary cause I immediately lost 3 loans that day. (May be I shouldn't have prayed that...) hahaha! Nah just kidding. I am glad that Da Lord is keeping me in check.
I am learning everyday that I have it hard even when da Lord is with me. I don't know how some fools go on without Da Lord... Only if they understood how much better life can be with Da Main Man in Da Sky!
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Time is flying.....
Today I had Chinese food for lunch and my Fortune Cookie said,
Simplicity is a result of series of deep & intellectual experiences.
Well I don't know if I agree with that, but it gave me something to think about away from my work.
So I was sitting at Diedrich's after work, pondering upon this new fortune from a cookie while my Co-Worker was rambling away about somethin'.
So here is some of my own rambling away.
I can't belive it is already past the middle of the month. Haven't had much time to do anything these days. I am just grinding it out at work. It has been too long since I saw some of my friends and too long since I had some quite time to spend with Da Lord. But I am really thankful these days. Too much time is much worse than Not enough time to me. Cause these days when I do something non-work related, I really cherish it. I am looking forward to Star Wars. But most of all I look forward to having this Saturday off for the first time this month. Da Lord is always good to me. He provides me just enough for all I need. I am looking to just chill and veg out this weekend. Away from work... may be I will go somewhere. To a Galaxy Far Far away!
Today I had Chinese food for lunch and my Fortune Cookie said,
Simplicity is a result of series of deep & intellectual experiences.
Well I don't know if I agree with that, but it gave me something to think about away from my work.
So I was sitting at Diedrich's after work, pondering upon this new fortune from a cookie while my Co-Worker was rambling away about somethin'.
So here is some of my own rambling away.
I can't belive it is already past the middle of the month. Haven't had much time to do anything these days. I am just grinding it out at work. It has been too long since I saw some of my friends and too long since I had some quite time to spend with Da Lord. But I am really thankful these days. Too much time is much worse than Not enough time to me. Cause these days when I do something non-work related, I really cherish it. I am looking forward to Star Wars. But most of all I look forward to having this Saturday off for the first time this month. Da Lord is always good to me. He provides me just enough for all I need. I am looking to just chill and veg out this weekend. Away from work... may be I will go somewhere. To a Galaxy Far Far away!
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Heros!
When I was a kid I wanted to be Bruce Lee
I also wanted to be Luke Skywalker.
As I got older I wanted to be Han Solo.
Later I wanted to be Chow Yun Fat....
For a while Mel and I would argue that we were like Blade... (I know it's shameful) But Not Wesley Snipes. Blade. Badass who hunted Vampires.
I also went to through many moments of wanting to be a Super athletes like Jordan or Magic.
Okay... I must admit that I am looking forward to Star Wars more than I would like to admit. I just finished watching the cartoons that link Episode II and Episode III. So I am officially a geek. There is still some kid in me left.
Its been a wild week at work. Loans after loan. And no loan is ever the same. People are all different. Today I pull a credit and his score was 666. I kinda laughed and asked if I was dealing with the devil. And he immediately responded by saying that he was a servant of Christ. It was pretty refreshing after a long day of relentless sales. It was like a John Woo movie moment where everything froze and started to slow down with Pigeons flying around. It was nice.
Something hit me the other day. I no longer want to be any of those that I mentioned earlier... Gone are my adolescent day dreams... It is kinda sad moment when you realize that you don't have a hero that you wished that you can be for a day.
Now that I think about it... I think Chow Yun Fat is the coolest.
Chow Yun Fat is a Bad man. Well at least he used to be.
But my real Hero? Hezeus Christo! I want to be like Him!
Who did you want to be like when you were a kid?
When I was a kid I wanted to be Bruce Lee
I also wanted to be Luke Skywalker.
As I got older I wanted to be Han Solo.
Later I wanted to be Chow Yun Fat....
For a while Mel and I would argue that we were like Blade... (I know it's shameful) But Not Wesley Snipes. Blade. Badass who hunted Vampires.
I also went to through many moments of wanting to be a Super athletes like Jordan or Magic.
Okay... I must admit that I am looking forward to Star Wars more than I would like to admit. I just finished watching the cartoons that link Episode II and Episode III. So I am officially a geek. There is still some kid in me left.
Its been a wild week at work. Loans after loan. And no loan is ever the same. People are all different. Today I pull a credit and his score was 666. I kinda laughed and asked if I was dealing with the devil. And he immediately responded by saying that he was a servant of Christ. It was pretty refreshing after a long day of relentless sales. It was like a John Woo movie moment where everything froze and started to slow down with Pigeons flying around. It was nice.
Something hit me the other day. I no longer want to be any of those that I mentioned earlier... Gone are my adolescent day dreams... It is kinda sad moment when you realize that you don't have a hero that you wished that you can be for a day.
Now that I think about it... I think Chow Yun Fat is the coolest.
Chow Yun Fat is a Bad man. Well at least he used to be.
But my real Hero? Hezeus Christo! I want to be like Him!
Who did you want to be like when you were a kid?
Monday, May 09, 2005
And your mattress is FREEE!!!!!
Such a misguided word. I am sure all of y'all have heard that commercial on da Radio or on TV. But that word free always gets my attention.
Why is it that I love free things do much? Like yesterday. I got a free lunch from Jeff and Steph. And it tasted that much better when Jeff said "It is on me!" Today I got my California Tax Return. All one hundred eighty Ducats. I was all smiles. I was gonna wipe down my dash board and I saw a free Anti Bacterial wipes at the market and I just took a wipe. As I was walking out to my car with one wipe, Lisa and my dad was curious why I took one and I told them that I was gonna wipe down the dash board and I took it cause it was FREE!
I love discounts but I like free even better. Like some free advice and accountability that I got from Hoon last night.
But there really isn't anything for free in this world is there? But there is a knowing that Christ died for my sins. Though it doesn't feel like it is free, I love the gift. And when I think about it, it is kinda cool cause I feel free.
And it is the same feeling of knowing I am sin free in the eyes of God through His Blood and yet I still sin.
It scares me these days to think that my faith might just turn into knowledge. And that is something that I always have to check myself on.
Such a misguided word. I am sure all of y'all have heard that commercial on da Radio or on TV. But that word free always gets my attention.
Why is it that I love free things do much? Like yesterday. I got a free lunch from Jeff and Steph. And it tasted that much better when Jeff said "It is on me!" Today I got my California Tax Return. All one hundred eighty Ducats. I was all smiles. I was gonna wipe down my dash board and I saw a free Anti Bacterial wipes at the market and I just took a wipe. As I was walking out to my car with one wipe, Lisa and my dad was curious why I took one and I told them that I was gonna wipe down the dash board and I took it cause it was FREE!
I love discounts but I like free even better. Like some free advice and accountability that I got from Hoon last night.
But there really isn't anything for free in this world is there? But there is a knowing that Christ died for my sins. Though it doesn't feel like it is free, I love the gift. And when I think about it, it is kinda cool cause I feel free.
And it is the same feeling of knowing I am sin free in the eyes of God through His Blood and yet I still sin.
It scares me these days to think that my faith might just turn into knowledge. And that is something that I always have to check myself on.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Burmuda Triangle of Estrogen
As I have shared before, there are many ladies at my workplace. And desk that I am sitting is in the middle of 3 women surounding me. Da Burmuda Triangle of Estrogen.
All I hear these days are
"Oh that top is so cute"
"Oh I got it at Nordies at the half-yearly sale."
"I got a great deal on these shoes... All girls need a pair of black shoes."
"I am sad... I need to have some chocolate and Go shopping."
"oh that is a great idea.. Lets go shopping!"(while she claps her hand with great enthusiasm)
But the worst is that these women tend to get PMS at the SAME TIME. I love my job... But da drama... Yeah... That is no fun.
No more feminine things.
I need to talk about football right now
I am still sore from da weekend. As some of you know, I played at da love bowl. That was harsh. I really feel old. But I gotta say, I still hurt some youngsters out there. Needless to say.... I still have it. And I got tanned.
You can just call me TDHF (Tall, Dark, &Handsome Fevah)
As I have shared before, there are many ladies at my workplace. And desk that I am sitting is in the middle of 3 women surounding me. Da Burmuda Triangle of Estrogen.
All I hear these days are
"Oh that top is so cute"
"Oh I got it at Nordies at the half-yearly sale."
"I got a great deal on these shoes... All girls need a pair of black shoes."
"I am sad... I need to have some chocolate and Go shopping."
"oh that is a great idea.. Lets go shopping!"(while she claps her hand with great enthusiasm)
But the worst is that these women tend to get PMS at the SAME TIME. I love my job... But da drama... Yeah... That is no fun.
No more feminine things.
I need to talk about football right now
I am still sore from da weekend. As some of you know, I played at da love bowl. That was harsh. I really feel old. But I gotta say, I still hurt some youngsters out there. Needless to say.... I still have it. And I got tanned.
You can just call me TDHF (Tall, Dark, &Handsome Fevah)
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Staring at pictures
I was at this art show on Saturday called "Beautiful Losers". It was a series of poppy art and what not. Some of it was really cool and some of it was stupid. But the only sections that I seemd to get intersted the most were Photos. Yup. Its weird. I will see a cool design or painting and think how cool it was. But the B&W photos really cativates me at times.
It makes me think about how weird it is that some photos are so timeless and yet all it is a snapshot of a momment. We take snap shot with our brains. Memories. But they are never acurate. Not like a photo. But it's also kinda cool cause unlike a video, a particular photo will tell a different story to everyone.
My mother called today and told me that she just came back from Greece to Korea. She was telling me that she went to the Parthenon. I asked if she took a picture of it and she said that she didn't but she will always have it in her memory. A mental snapshot.
Mental snapshots... I have so many and yet I wonder how acurate they are.
I was at this art show on Saturday called "Beautiful Losers". It was a series of poppy art and what not. Some of it was really cool and some of it was stupid. But the only sections that I seemd to get intersted the most were Photos. Yup. Its weird. I will see a cool design or painting and think how cool it was. But the B&W photos really cativates me at times.
It makes me think about how weird it is that some photos are so timeless and yet all it is a snapshot of a momment. We take snap shot with our brains. Memories. But they are never acurate. Not like a photo. But it's also kinda cool cause unlike a video, a particular photo will tell a different story to everyone.
My mother called today and told me that she just came back from Greece to Korea. She was telling me that she went to the Parthenon. I asked if she took a picture of it and she said that she didn't but she will always have it in her memory. A mental snapshot.
Mental snapshots... I have so many and yet I wonder how acurate they are.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Being a man.
Sometimes being a man feels like being surrounded by pile of crap
I was talking about what it really means to be a man the other day with none other than Da ultra man himself... Hoon.
I read the other day that a real man is a person who thinks of million different reasons to quit a job and yet finds one reason not to quit. His responsibility. (Family and such) That really hit me hard. All these adolescent years of thinking that being a man was being a big shot and making cash and being just a cool guy. What a load of crap.
Being a man is so much more than being someone that you want your ideal self to be. Some people ideally want to be something and go out of their way to fit into their mold of being an ideal person. Which in the end is an act of lunacy. Cause no one is really that cool... And yes Not even your favorite blogger himself "Da Fevah". (shocking isn't it) But I understand the struggle. Who doesn't want to be cool or mysterious to a certain degree? But before you can be an ideal anything, lets be a man! I need God to show me how to really be a man! A man after God's heart. A man who can go through the worst and smile knowing that God is in control.
Lord give me the strength to be a man.
Sometimes being a man feels like being surrounded by pile of crap
I was talking about what it really means to be a man the other day with none other than Da ultra man himself... Hoon.
I read the other day that a real man is a person who thinks of million different reasons to quit a job and yet finds one reason not to quit. His responsibility. (Family and such) That really hit me hard. All these adolescent years of thinking that being a man was being a big shot and making cash and being just a cool guy. What a load of crap.
Being a man is so much more than being someone that you want your ideal self to be. Some people ideally want to be something and go out of their way to fit into their mold of being an ideal person. Which in the end is an act of lunacy. Cause no one is really that cool... And yes Not even your favorite blogger himself "Da Fevah". (shocking isn't it) But I understand the struggle. Who doesn't want to be cool or mysterious to a certain degree? But before you can be an ideal anything, lets be a man! I need God to show me how to really be a man! A man after God's heart. A man who can go through the worst and smile knowing that God is in control.
Lord give me the strength to be a man.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
When you want something in life, you gotta go for it.
Had Jury Duty today. I got dismissed after waiting in that room for hours. It felt good getting released. Talking about releasing...
At work we only have one bathrooms each. One for men and one for women. The otherday I was finishing up a deal and I realized that I had to take a ddong. The custommer was putting me on hold and I had to go bad. I finally got him off the phone and I got up to go. There I saw him.... Mcnizzle (Mike Mcneeley). A Co-Worker getting up and his expression in his face told me that he was about to make that trip towards the bathroom. Then I got up and we both looked at each other. Eye to eye. They say that every eyes tell a story and he knew exactly what my intentions were. I had the eye of the Tiger. We both started to walk towards bathroom faster and faster. We were both racing and I won. Damn it felt good.... Cause I was about to lay the mushroom cloud and I refuse to do that where it has this symbol.
Seriously... You want something? Go after it. No woulda shoulda couldas...
Had Jury Duty today. I got dismissed after waiting in that room for hours. It felt good getting released. Talking about releasing...
At work we only have one bathrooms each. One for men and one for women. The otherday I was finishing up a deal and I realized that I had to take a ddong. The custommer was putting me on hold and I had to go bad. I finally got him off the phone and I got up to go. There I saw him.... Mcnizzle (Mike Mcneeley). A Co-Worker getting up and his expression in his face told me that he was about to make that trip towards the bathroom. Then I got up and we both looked at each other. Eye to eye. They say that every eyes tell a story and he knew exactly what my intentions were. I had the eye of the Tiger. We both started to walk towards bathroom faster and faster. We were both racing and I won. Damn it felt good.... Cause I was about to lay the mushroom cloud and I refuse to do that where it has this symbol.
Seriously... You want something? Go after it. No woulda shoulda couldas...
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Standing on Green Grass.
Has anyone ever noticed that Grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side? No matter where you go, people are unhappy about their situations. No matter where you go they hear about about another place where people are happier... It's truly strange to me that things are that way. No optimism. Its like working. IN the beginning everyone is excited about their work. And before you know it they are burntout and tired of it. Well for me its not that way. I was excited when I got my job but I knew that I shouldn't be over excited. That is me in almost all situations. Though I like to be in new situations too, I am not over excited about any work. Job is a job and life is life. Good times and bad times all rolled up in one. But one thing that I thought about the other day is that I do not want my Christian life to be that way. I was always the pessimist and an idealist. I always thought that I missed out on the good times and rolled up late on everything. Before I came to understand the saving knowledge of our Lord, I always thought that "There must be a better church with hotter chicks"... Hahahha! But honestly speaking, it's all a matter of perspective. And I refuse to believe that the grass is greener on the otherside. Cause Da Lord has put me in a situation that is the best situation for me. I want to be the kind of believer that understand that I do not need to get a fresh environment in order for me to feel God's presence. Cause He is all good and all knowing and all that! And He is everywhere. Next time you feel that you need a change, just remember, For the weak, grass is always greener on the otherside. But for the strong, grass might not be green where I stand... But I can make it green with Da Lord.
Besides there are no churches with hotter sisters than my church.....
Hot for Da Lord! Nah Mean? ;)
Has anyone ever noticed that Grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side? No matter where you go, people are unhappy about their situations. No matter where you go they hear about about another place where people are happier... It's truly strange to me that things are that way. No optimism. Its like working. IN the beginning everyone is excited about their work. And before you know it they are burntout and tired of it. Well for me its not that way. I was excited when I got my job but I knew that I shouldn't be over excited. That is me in almost all situations. Though I like to be in new situations too, I am not over excited about any work. Job is a job and life is life. Good times and bad times all rolled up in one. But one thing that I thought about the other day is that I do not want my Christian life to be that way. I was always the pessimist and an idealist. I always thought that I missed out on the good times and rolled up late on everything. Before I came to understand the saving knowledge of our Lord, I always thought that "There must be a better church with hotter chicks"... Hahahha! But honestly speaking, it's all a matter of perspective. And I refuse to believe that the grass is greener on the otherside. Cause Da Lord has put me in a situation that is the best situation for me. I want to be the kind of believer that understand that I do not need to get a fresh environment in order for me to feel God's presence. Cause He is all good and all knowing and all that! And He is everywhere. Next time you feel that you need a change, just remember, For the weak, grass is always greener on the otherside. But for the strong, grass might not be green where I stand... But I can make it green with Da Lord.
Besides there are no churches with hotter sisters than my church.....
Hot for Da Lord! Nah Mean? ;)
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Da Hat
Here is looking at you kid
I've been getting mixed review on Da Hat. I love my new hat. Its gansta! Lisa hates it. Well Its my hat on my head so I don't care. Every sales people should have a good hat.
Yeah I find it harder and hader to blog these days. I have been mad busy. But I am starting to find it easier litle by little and I am not as tired due to da fact that I don't have to think as hard of what I am selling. Crazy thing about sale is that I am pretty decent at it. And it is not something that I am gifted with. I truly feel that sales is something that many people can do. But most are afraid of. Well I don't know.
Going back to da hat, I had lunch there the other day and I swear that I am never gonna eat there again. So fattening.
Here is looking at you kid
I've been getting mixed review on Da Hat. I love my new hat. Its gansta! Lisa hates it. Well Its my hat on my head so I don't care. Every sales people should have a good hat.
Yeah I find it harder and hader to blog these days. I have been mad busy. But I am starting to find it easier litle by little and I am not as tired due to da fact that I don't have to think as hard of what I am selling. Crazy thing about sale is that I am pretty decent at it. And it is not something that I am gifted with. I truly feel that sales is something that many people can do. But most are afraid of. Well I don't know.
Going back to da hat, I had lunch there the other day and I swear that I am never gonna eat there again. So fattening.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Fake Melons
I noticed that many women in my office have fake melons.... I was having lunch and some one said and boom! I noticed that everyone was unusually disproportionate.
So sad. It all comes down to insecurities. So insecure that they have to get silicon madness. I never been much of a boob man myself. It all comes down to self esteem. It is sad that men's lust after boobs have made this world the way it is. Cause it is all about communication. Cause visuals can only last so long.... After that it is all about conversations.
So talk!
I noticed that many women in my office have fake melons.... I was having lunch and some one said and boom! I noticed that everyone was unusually disproportionate.
So sad. It all comes down to insecurities. So insecure that they have to get silicon madness. I never been much of a boob man myself. It all comes down to self esteem. It is sad that men's lust after boobs have made this world the way it is. Cause it is all about communication. Cause visuals can only last so long.... After that it is all about conversations.
So talk!
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Wives.... Err....
In my business, women are the ones who really make the decisions. SO many times I get men that say, "Let me tell my wife all this. She takes care of all of that". And let me tell you... Convincing a woman is a hard thing to do. Today, I spent 2 hours convincing this woman that she needed to re-finance. It wasn't something that was an option for her. If she didn't, She was gonna be in debt for next 50 years. Yet she made it as difficult as it can posibly be... Yeah... I felt good when I got that sale. Cause, when you convince a woman to do something like that, it make you really feel like you did a good job.
What can I say... I am a loan shark! And I am gonna eat up these wives that stand in my way!
In my business, women are the ones who really make the decisions. SO many times I get men that say, "Let me tell my wife all this. She takes care of all of that". And let me tell you... Convincing a woman is a hard thing to do. Today, I spent 2 hours convincing this woman that she needed to re-finance. It wasn't something that was an option for her. If she didn't, She was gonna be in debt for next 50 years. Yet she made it as difficult as it can posibly be... Yeah... I felt good when I got that sale. Cause, when you convince a woman to do something like that, it make you really feel like you did a good job.
What can I say... I am a loan shark! And I am gonna eat up these wives that stand in my way!
Monday, March 21, 2005
Disneyland... Da Tragic Kingdom
Yup. Lisa and I went to Disneyland. Thanks to Sophia, we even got to go to Da exclusive Club 33. For those who don't know, it is an exclusive membership club within Disneyland that only certain people get to go. Certin people meaning, rich people who get memebership of $27,000 per year or something like that. Crazy if you ask me.
Club Tre Tre
Lisa and I at the infamous Tre Tre.
Food was actually reaaly good. Probably the only time I ever had good food at Disneyland. I was glad that I wasn't eating Moon burger.
A Bar.... Club Tre Tre is da onlt place in Disneyland that you can have Alcohol.
A grandfather clock at Club 33. I thought that the interior design of Club 33 was actually pretty cool. I guess the place opened in 1960's.
So it was really cool.
I took this picture cause it reminded me of my first experience at Tragic Kingdom. Yup. This was the first ride I ever went on at Disneyland.
Califonia Adventureland was pretty cool. I've never been there.
All in all it was a fun day. I just think that Diney is evil. They charge you so much. Is it just me or is Diney another company that pulled a Jedi mind trick over people? It is so expensive...
Like I said before, that Jedi mind trick will not work on Fevah Da Hut.
Yup. Lisa and I went to Disneyland. Thanks to Sophia, we even got to go to Da exclusive Club 33. For those who don't know, it is an exclusive membership club within Disneyland that only certain people get to go. Certin people meaning, rich people who get memebership of $27,000 per year or something like that. Crazy if you ask me.
Club Tre Tre
Lisa and I at the infamous Tre Tre.
Food was actually reaaly good. Probably the only time I ever had good food at Disneyland. I was glad that I wasn't eating Moon burger.
A Bar.... Club Tre Tre is da onlt place in Disneyland that you can have Alcohol.
A grandfather clock at Club 33. I thought that the interior design of Club 33 was actually pretty cool. I guess the place opened in 1960's.
So it was really cool.
I took this picture cause it reminded me of my first experience at Tragic Kingdom. Yup. This was the first ride I ever went on at Disneyland.
Califonia Adventureland was pretty cool. I've never been there.
All in all it was a fun day. I just think that Diney is evil. They charge you so much. Is it just me or is Diney another company that pulled a Jedi mind trick over people? It is so expensive...
Like I said before, that Jedi mind trick will not work on Fevah Da Hut.