Da Weekend

I am kinda looking forward to this weekend. I haven't had a very good week so far. But I am certain I will have better weeks ahead of me. Andy says that I have been crancky as of late. I think I have been crancky. Pray for da Fevah! Da Fevah appreciates it.

Here is a picture of all the Asians from my high school reunion.

Friends
Our Graphic Designer R-Dub brought some donust today. Donuts are Good! Yes they are! Mmmmmm~ Donuts. Here is our fearless designer Ron Way. I call him Are-Dub.

Ain't he just a cutey? Well sorry girls he is married. Besides this ain't friendster so no hook ups. Talking about friendster, Andy Lee had some harsh comments for the friendster page. here are his thoughts. Though I agree with him, who cares? Friendster is great! So I was looking through my friendster, I thought about how many of these people are my real Friends? You see I am of old school. Being in America for a long time, I realize that the meaning of friendship is very different from what it once meant to me. Most of us have friends out of convinience. Especially my frinds here in America. You see I have been accused of being fobby and I sorta am. Something I am quite proud of. ANyway, friendship meant something completely different. I try to be loyal to my friends and I expect them tobe loyal to me. And I must admit that I have been blessed with many great friends. But in America we have this whole personal bubble thing. I did not have that when I was in Korea. Though it can be annoying when some one comes to your face and invade your space, I did not even know that such things existed. But with friends I don't think this personal bubble should exist. But we the American always go off about independence and pesonal space. Even among friends. I think many of us don't really know what true friends do. We always talk about privacy and what not. Well I like my privacy also. Still it is Jae Soo Up suh sometimes. This is not directed towards anyone in paticular by the way.


here is one of my favorite movies of all time, Chingu (which means friend). There is a great quote in there. "there are no sorries among friends". Of course you can just hear that and think "How lame". Your normal Psychologist I am sure would say that, it is a ridiculous statement. But if look deeply in to that statement, it is stating that "you don't wrong your friends! If you do, it is out of mistakes and that the friend understands that people make mistakes. As a friend you should not hold them to there mistakes because as a friend you understand. Otherwise you are not friends."

I must agree with Andy in something. Not all the Friendsters are my friends.

So here is my promise! If you are my friend I want you to be there for me! Cause I will be there for you. Even if you think you don't want me to. Cause I am your friend. Not out of convinience.

So I will ask once again, are you my friend or are you just my Friendster?

yesterday was another terrible day. But I managed to get through it. This morning I did not want to come into work. So far it has not been that great either. I feel like a fireman trying to put the fire out. But the fire grows. Anyway! Enough madness. I am going bananas over my job. Wacked I say. Wacked!

SO here is a wacked joke for you!

A guy goes on vacation to the Holy Land with his wife and mother-in-law.

The mother-in-law dies.

They go to an undertaker who explains that they can
ship the body home but that it'll cost over $5000,
whereas they can bury her in the Holy Land for
only $150.
The guy says, "We'll ship her home."

The undertaker asks, "Are you sure? That's an
awfully big expense and we can do a very nice
burial here."

The guy says, "Look, 2000 years ago they buried a guy here and three days
later he rose from the dead.

I just can't take that chance."

Self Reflection

(andy is such a great photographer!)
So I sit here in Paradise(work) and think about many different things. Yet my mind is going not fast enough.
The Hamster in the noodle wheel is taking a break.

It needs to be running like this!
Well I am sitting here thinking about my sales trip that I need to go on. I am certainly looking forward to leaving again. But not because I am looking forward to seeing my custommers. But I want to just leave. That is all I really want. I can't believe that I have not taken any vacation days off. It is maddening to think about actually. Due to ceratin reason, I can't leave on a vacation. So I look forward to leaving on a Business trip? That is aweful isn't it? I am struggling at work due to lack of support from our engineers. OUr products have seemed to fail us and trying to get the confidence of customer back is pretty tough. I need some $! So I prayed to God for money. I wonder if He will grant my wish. I have a huge deal that I am working on that should go through. I must follow up. I hope that this does not fall apart.
The Roots (things fall apart)

One of the greatest Hip Hop albums of all time! I hope that my deal and paradise don't fall apart.


I met up with a person that I have not seen for a long time yesterday. It seemed like she was doing really well. Good for her! She is moving to Denmark with her hubby to be. I never realized this before but she is such a post-modernistic existentialist! It is amazing how you are just oblivious to certain facts when you are blind. Than when your blinfold comes off and you see the reality that seemed so different before. I think the biggest difference b/t now and before I came to understand the saving knowledge is that i see the aweful reality for what it is. No sugar coat that covers up the ugliness of this world. It absolutely amazes me that people choose abstract hazyness over clearity. I think that is also a clear sign of not really having choices. You always hear that the path of your life is what you make of it. Bull Ttong. We might take path of what we think that we "choose", but ultimately we don't have any clue where we will end up. No idea what so ever! SO as I was talking with her, I realized that people always sugar coat everything and just talk madness. Speaking as if they have it all figured out! But still it was good talking to her. I can't believe how blind I was! Blind, Blind, BLIND!

My work is going bananas. i can't make phone calls right now. Boooooo~~~~~~~~

Funny conversation (Rated R)

Da Fevah : You wanna play ball?
Xave Xong : Nah... It's too hot. I am a P*$$y now.
Da Fevah : You are what you eat!
Xave Xong : Oh man! that sucks.
Da Fevah : hahahahahahahaha