Heros!

When I was a kid I wanted to be Bruce Lee
I also wanted to be Luke Skywalker.
As I got older I wanted to be Han Solo.
Later I wanted to be Chow Yun Fat....
For a while Mel and I would argue that we were like Blade... (I know it's shameful) But Not Wesley Snipes. Blade. Badass who hunted Vampires.
I also went to through many moments of wanting to be a Super athletes like Jordan or Magic.

Okay... I must admit that I am looking forward to Star Wars more than I would like to admit. I just finished watching the cartoons that link Episode II and Episode III. So I am officially a geek. There is still some kid in me left.

Its been a wild week at work. Loans after loan. And no loan is ever the same. People are all different. Today I pull a credit and his score was 666. I kinda laughed and asked if I was dealing with the devil. And he immediately responded by saying that he was a servant of Christ. It was pretty refreshing after a long day of relentless sales. It was like a John Woo movie moment where everything froze and started to slow down with Pigeons flying around. It was nice.

Something hit me the other day. I no longer want to be any of those that I mentioned earlier... Gone are my adolescent day dreams... It is kinda sad moment when you realize that you don't have a hero that you wished that you can be for a day.

Now that I think about it... I think Chow Yun Fat is the coolest.

Chow Yun Fat is a Bad man. Well at least he used to be.

But my real Hero? Hezeus Christo! I want to be like Him!

Who did you want to be like when you were a kid?

And your mattress is FREEE!!!!!

Such a misguided word. I am sure all of y'all have heard that commercial on da Radio or on TV. But that word free always gets my attention.

Why is it that I love free things do much? Like yesterday. I got a free lunch from Jeff and Steph. And it tasted that much better when Jeff said "It is on me!" Today I got my California Tax Return. All one hundred eighty Ducats. I was all smiles. I was gonna wipe down my dash board and I saw a free Anti Bacterial wipes at the market and I just took a wipe. As I was walking out to my car with one wipe, Lisa and my dad was curious why I took one and I told them that I was gonna wipe down the dash board and I took it cause it was FREE!

I love discounts but I like free even better. Like some free advice and accountability that I got from Hoon last night.

But there really isn't anything for free in this world is there? But there is a knowing that Christ died for my sins. Though it doesn't feel like it is free, I love the gift. And when I think about it, it is kinda cool cause I feel free.

And it is the same feeling of knowing I am sin free in the eyes of God through His Blood and yet I still sin.

It scares me these days to think that my faith might just turn into knowledge. And that is something that I always have to check myself on.