Last post I wrote was about taxes. This one is about the other certainty of life... Death.
We all fear the unknown. I can't think of anything else that is more unknown than death. The other day I heard one of my distant uncle's wife passed away. She was pretty young. Last night I heard one of my father's friends also passed away. Life is so fragile. I think my dad was in shock. He went to Korea and the first thing he found out was that his cousin's wife died and soon after his good friend also died.
It is such a scary reminder of our sins. It was once that I feared death because I thought it would be just an end to my existance. Pitch darkness with no more existance of me. I must admit that I still get that way at times. But knowing that I will be with Da Lord when I die is such a great comfort. What I fear now is not my own death. But the sorrow that I will feel when my loved ones leave this world. Whether they walk to the light or to the dark. Cause I am not the person who decides that. I don't know when people are gonna start to die. But it is my hope that when its my time to leave this world, I will reunite with all those that I love and loved.
I realize now that love changes. But most of the times for the good. Not to get mushy, but I love my wife. When we were dating I told her that I want to die before her so that I won't have to deal with her being gone. But for a while I thought may be my wife loves me just as much and that she will have a hard time if I am gone.... Who would take care of Lisa and my kids?(God willing) But both are stupid things to worry about. And I just leave evrything up to God. Cause He is good. And one day I will enjoy Him forever.
