I forgot that it was Friday.
Yeah! How can I forget that it's Friday! hahahaha!

Here is a Friday Haiku.

Look out all o' y'all
Finally here is Friday
F(EF) - U(You) - N(EN) for all!

See some of you tommorw at Heroes for Mel's Birthday!

Public schools vs. Private schools.

So last night there was a heated discussion about private schools vs. public schools after bible study. Sujin was upset about the fact that the pivate school was too expensive to send her kids. She brought up a book called "Christian Manifesto" by Francis Schaffer.

According to the book, Sujin said that "We are trusting our kids to these people for 3/4 of the day to teach them these non-Christian views of this world." She was disapointed at the public schools around and was sad that she couldn't send them to a wonderful Chrsitian private school she visited. Though I sympathized with her on not being able to send her kids to private school, I don't think that sending them to public school will be that bad.(of course I shared this with the group yesterday) Oh boy.... I did not expect emotions to be showing up like it did last night. May be I should have been more sensitive or may be I could have been more careful. But I said that "I did not think that sending kids to public school or private school is really an issue." I can see that Sujin was diapointed with the quality of public schools. But my intention was to say that it really depends on the child and parents to develope them in to Christians, Lord willing. Since I don't have any kids, I am not as concerned as the Chongs might be. But Education is something that I take very seriously. Cause one day, I too am gonna have kids and be sending them to schools, once again Lord willing. I might even send them to a private school. Who knows? But I truly feel that grace of our Lord will provide for those of whom He Chooses. As a parent, I am certain that you want to provide the world for your children. But overwhelming amount of families in America cannot send their children to private schools. But that does not mean that we don't have options for kids in public schools. There are plenty of parents who become room moms and what not to have interactions with there children. I truly feel that we cannot and should not shelter our kids from the reality of this terrible world that we live in. Of course you don't want to expose kids to terrible things that they should not be exposed to. It's all very sensitive. I know that kids are very impressionable. But what we want for our kids and what they get are two different things. I too hate seeing kids who get exposed in this world. And I have all the sympathy in the world for kids going into an environment that might not be Christ centered. But that is the real world. Besides, we have Church, Sunday schools and home for teaching our kids the Christian life. There are plenty of Christian parents that send there kids to public schools. There are actions that you can take. I went home last night and tried to reflect upon the discussion. Only thing I did was prayed for Phoebe and Chloe. That where ever they are end up in school that God watch over them. You see, that is the only confidence that I have in this world. Prayer to and reliance upon the Lord. Everything else is up in the air. Not to say that the Chongs were disagreeing with that. Of course there is a sense of responsiblity that the Chongs have now that I won't truly fully understand till my time comes. My real purpose of my stetement "I did not think that sending kids to public school or private school is really an issue." was my weak attempt to comfort the Chongs. But obviously it did not come out that way. Like I said on my last post, I have a long way to go. But my final statement is that we should all pray for kids in our ministry and I will try my best to be a brother in Christ even to little children.

a Midnight blog for all of y'all.

I've failed again in my walk with the Lord. Compassion is something that I need to understand and practice. So tonight, it seems that I might have offended some people. I don't apologize for my opinions. But may be I could have been more compassionate. I have a long way to go. It just absolutely amazes me that opinions clash and very negative reactions can come from it. If I have offended someone due to my opinion, as much as hard as it may seem, I love you and I am sorry. Maybe it was just plainly my opinion, or may be it was my delivery.... Whatever it was, it is no excuse for some siblings in Christ to be upset about. I hope you know that I mean that sincerely.

Humble King

Last night I balled. As many of you know, I am trying to shed some pounds. So far it has been going pretty well. So I've noticed that I am more active and agile in the court. But what I did yesterday will forever be in my mind as the greatest shot block I ever had. I had 2 blocks. One on this guy Mike from behind.

kinda like this....
But the second block.......
There was Rob Joo drivng right up the middle. As he jumped to go for a finger roll I jumped..... Pack! Not only did I block the shot, but it was the kind of block that you see Shaq do.

(Obviously Rob Joo is no Jordan and I ain't shaq)
Still I blocked it volleyball style into the bleachers. You heard this ohhhhh~~~~~ Everyone was excited. At that momment I was thinking of different things to say. Couple of options that came to mind were,
"Get out of my house! Fool."
"Don't be comin' in here with that weak stuff!"
"Argggghhhhhh!"
But I opted to be humble and I just walked away. But it sure felt good......

So this morning, I was humbled... I was going over good and bad Charcteristics of King David with Fou-Sen. We talked about how humble King David was. It was a very small passage about King David fleeing from King Saul. When they ran out of water, David's mighty men went through the enemy grounds and got water from Well of Bethleham. When they brought it back to David, he said that he was not worthy to drink the water from such mighty men who risked their lives to get water and offered it to God. Fousen pointed out that it is easy to be humble when things are going well. But to be humble during the hard times is something else. So here was King David, fleeing from the wrath and jealosy of King Saul, and at a momment when things were as hard as they come, he was humble. When David's mighty men brought back the water he could have had a huge ceremony. He could have drank it with his mighty men in a ceremonial fashion and it could have been huge morale booster for David and his followers. But he was humble. Yesterday I thought I was being humble. Just the fact that I had thoughts of saying all these things makes me a bad man. Yes I was humbled about not being humble. I had a silly smirk about the block all night. Yes to all of you ladies, I know this sound silly. Grown man happy about sports. But it was a huge stepping stone for me in basketball. But I have a long way to go in many things. My walk with the Lord, my diet, my work, my relationships...... My life.

Child like CPC EM
I think that we CPC English Ministry are treated like children by CPC KM. On Sunday, Church gave out Udon for lunch. (Esther Chang ate 2) hahaha. ANyways, we had an EM table so we were eating there having fellowship. It was nice..... Than this older man from KM came by and said in Ban Mal(korean way of speaking down at children) "If you are done eating, than go!" So recap, there we were at the EM table, having good fellowship and this man tells us to leave as if we were little jr. high kids. Here is the crazy part. Here I was upset because I am almost 30. But all the EM peeps just got up and left. It was as if it was ok being kids.... I was the only one who was offended. Grumpy old man I was. I was jibbering to myself as I walked out. I thought it was very rude and offensive. But I am starting to understand Pastor Jin's job a little more. It must be pretty tough bridging relationship b/t Km and EM. Our church needs to reform for the better. I need to reform for the better. But I think we need to stand up as adults in EM. Most of us are not college students anymore. But as a ministry, lets get some respect, of course not losing the sight that KM and EM is all part of one family. So here is the shortest poem ever that I would like to dedicate to our church by Muhammad Ali.

Me.....
We!
Is that great or what?

Talking about kids....

May be it is better being a child without a care in the world. Being told what to do is part of the norm. Look at this goofy child. Our pastor Jin's daughter Chloe. She is a terror!

Today at lunch I decided to take lunch to a local starbucks and ate it there. There she was.... A korean chick around my age watching me eat. I did not pay any attention. She said to her friend(white guy) "I hope he does not have kimchee, cause that smells". SO I told her that I did not have any. Than she was giving me this evil stare down. So I just kept on eating. Than she was saying all these things about this that and the other and some how I heard her say to her friend(white guy), "I would never date a Korean guy." Once again I was holding in my wrath against this stupid trick.(it wasn't like any korean guys would wanna go out with that heinous ugly chick) After I finshed, I calmly repacked my lunchbox and had a smoke.... In 2004, I never wanna see these kind of ignorant chix again. Off with you in 2004. Stay away from Da Fevah. Besides she got the face only non-Koreans/non-Asian or her mother would love. You know what I am talking about. Non Asians think that oddest looking asian girls are hot.

Don't be hatin' us Asian guys cause your ugly and we would give you no play. If you wanna blame someone, blame your parents for giving you ugly genes....

P.S. I wanna make sure that you know that I have nothing against inter-racial dating. It just this stupid statement that I heard dissin her own kind. SO if you are one of those who share the same philosophy as that chick............. up yours.

Lost in Translation

I gotta say that I loved this movie. I watched it last night at UCI. One of the reasons why I liked this movie was because I can really relate to the characters of this movie. For those who have not seen this movie please stop reading cause I am gonna get into why the characters and I are similar. Obviously I am not a movie star like Bill Murray's character was in the movie. But the concept of the movie is, being in a foreign place in a hotel and their experiences. Not being able to sleep and just dying to go back home. Seeing things by yourself. It's a sad little story about loneliness and how these trips forces you to look at your own life in a different perspective. I thought that was great. It's like my business trips to NY or anywhere else. People say that I am lucky and blah blah. But the fact of the matter is that when you are working, you are not there to sight see. It should be about work. So when I am in a different city, I am usually thinking business. Of course when you think about these things, going to see or do things fun aren't that fun. One thing for sure about my trips is that there are these dead periods, where you are forced to think about your life away from your environment. Though it can be a good thing, there is some sort of sadness about it. I can't quite explain it. It was really good movie for me. I felt that it captured that sadness in a humorous yet serious way. It was not whatI expected at all.

Shallow Fevah

So life is really back to reality. It is strange how that magical feeling of "Holidays" just dissipate into thin air. And don't say that you don't love that time of the year. Everyone for one reason or the other, love that time of the year. You know you do. I was quite productive when I was on my vacation. But here I am. Back to the begining of second week of reality. Back to that time where life grinds away at you. Life can be so sadistic... I was once a hedonist and was the most irresponsible man. Now not a hedonist and still I am irresponsible. But I have had a enlightening experience the other day. For the first time I kinda knew what I wanted. Andy L and Beaux have been talkin some madness about finding a wife for me. Andy says it seems like i am getting close to being ready. I must seem desperate. Well people always ask me what kind of woman I want. I always say something dumb so we can get off the subject. Sometimes I go on this wild tantrum about wanting a hot love slave who will bring me watremelon. (to all those that heard that fantasy, and there are many that heard that answer, I hope you know that I was being facetious)Well Andy asked me again the other day and I gave him a serious answer for the first time.
So here is what I really want. Da Truth!
Whether they are fob or not, there are 2 things that I want. One cannot be compromised. Of course first is that she is a Chistian. And despite what I've said in the past, I want some one who is articulate. Someone with confidence of who they are and why they do what they do. And you can hear it in their voice. Not because they sound like Connie Chung, but the way they deliver their message across with confidence. Now everything else is up for grabs. So there it is. My final honest answer. Whether I will get that or not, is up to Da Almighty. Than again, wanting and getting are 2 different things. But these quality will lead to my first ideal woman that I blogged about long while ago. Despite what all you clowns and clownettes think, I am not that bad.