My Dream
I had a silly dream that my cousin Wonteh died. Some of you might know him as Dinko. I would never call him that cause it sounds wacked when I say it. In my dream I was going over to UCLA for some reason, and I told him that I would meet him at the dorm. But when I got there these white guys that I hired to fix my car killed my cousin.

This is him.

So I grabbed a bat and started bashing these whites kids heads in. But my cousin's ghost came to me and said " Even though I am dead, it's ok, cause I am here!"
Than I woke up. I came to work forgetting all about the dream and all of the sudden the dream hit me. So I called him and he seemed fine. I asked "You are not dead, are you?" He seemed fine.

Geez what a dream. We talked about this that and the other. I like my cousin. Infact here is a mental note. I should keep in touch with all my cousins.

My thoughts of the day

It seems that I lost these things for a long time now. No wonder why I seem so sad these days. This is what I learned. It is all about faithfulness and obedience...... Trust and obey, for there's no other way.

So my Madre is coming in today at 2 o'clock. I have not seen her for a while. Almost 2 years. It amazes me that I am so old now. My mother is gonna look so different.... I can't wait to see her. Oh boy it's gonna be emotional.

I was so ashamed of myself yesterday. I had lunch with a co-worker. He and I had a bet. I won. So we were eating and he shared with me his story of how he went back to God. It was amazing to hear his testimony and his faith that he has. His sure confidence that he has in the Lord and his commitment made me shrink. All the whining and bitching that I do to God... Sometimes I think, "how does He stand all my bitching and moaning?" All I can say is that God is good.

I realized that most of my thoughts are useless these days. I daydream about stupid things. Haven't read a book in quite sometime now. I should start reading again. Any good books you've read lately?

Marriage
I was at my grandmother's last night.She called me so I went there to have dinner. One of her friends was there. They were watching a Korean Drama. My Grandmother and her friend started to drill me about getting married.

Grandma's friend : Seeing any girls?
D. Fevah : Not right now. haha.
Grandma : What is the matter with you.
What does that mean? Cause I am not seeing anyone something is wrong with me?
G's Friend : don't be too picky. You might become too set in your ways and it will become harder. Everyone has flaws.
D. Fevah : Haha. I know. I just haven't been lucky.
Grandma : Luck's got nothing to do with it. What happened to all those girls you hung out with? Look at your cousins. Min-Kyung and Min Jin(twins) are now 32 and they are not getting married.
D. Fevah : I know but I am still young and I am a guy!
G's Friend : 28 is ok. But you should still find someone.
Grandma : I can't die before you get married. So hurry.
D. Fevah : If that's the case I don't wanna marry for a long time so you can live longer.
HAHAHAHHA!

Random phone call from my dad's friend.
Ring Ring Ring.....
D. Fevah : Hello
Dad's Friend : Jung Young Eee?
D. Fevah : oh anyung ha seyo. (hello in Korean)
Dad's friend : So when is your dad coming back?
D. Fevah : I am not sure.
Dad's friend : dating anyone?
what the....
D. Fevah : no.. not right now.
Dad's Friend : Imma! Gyul Hone Parli he ya ji (korean)Translation - hurry up and get married fool!
D. Fevah : .... hhaha... I guess I should.
Dad's Friend : Ok. Well tell your dad to call me when he gets back ok?
D. Fevah : ok.

Jeez... what the heck was that?

Conversation with my mom.

mom : I will be there on Thursday.
Da Fevah : Ok.
Mom : have you lost some weight?
Da Fevah : No not really
Mom : What? you must loose some weight! How are you gonna find a wife! You are too fat! No woman wants a fat guy like you!
Da Fevah : Thanks mom...
I hope that was her form of encouragement.
Mom : ok. I will see you soon.
This is gonna be great. My mom is gonna nag me the whole time that she is here.

Well the topic of marriage is coming up everyday. Marriage? Me? Naw! Not yet. I have so much more to do. What is up with Koreans who try to force marriage on young people. I might get married one day. In fact I want to. But God does not want me to get married yet. Cause it is all according to His will. So there, I will marry when God brings me a wife till than, everyone should just chill.

Statement of the day.....

"Yay reformed theology!"

P. Jin

It's time for the Vol. three of Jung's Christmas CD.

Braveheart

I am still sore as hell. Yes I played in the turkey bowl again. It was kind of a let down because lots of our starters could not be there. It sucked. But it was fun. I had too many decletions to count. How about Sam Chu and his brave heart at 34. Even P. Jin made huge impact on the last game. He was an animal! All the guys that were there, were guys with BIG hearts. I was really proud of them all. Even the guys who messed up. Or the guys that got burned, got penalties, droped balls, missed blocks, threw interceptions, missed interceptions, ran wrong routes, whatever it was, they did it with heart.

On Saturday, after the game I came home and thought about some of the guys that I've played with this year. Many guys just gave up and did not even bother to show up. Not everyone of course. Some had real good reasons and others did not. Some just had no heart in it and others just ran out of motivation. Some guys in college group that came out to practice did not bother to tell anyone why they did not play. I realize that some people just don't have the talent. I will not be negative, Yet I want to talk about finishing what you started.... I know that many people are scared to make mistakes and scared of being responsible for the mistakes that they make. I know that our strive for competition sometimes go overboard. With all the yelling and unchristian things that went on, it is easy for one to say that Turkey bowl is un-christian and it serves no purpose. But with that said, I want to talk about the brotherhood that formed. I want to talk about the fellowship that happened with other churches. Getting to know other Christians from other churches. A group of guys that I would have never known had it not been for the little event called Turkey bowl. How about guys in my own team. Some guys that I barely knew before, now when I see them and I see my teammates. I know that Turkey Bowl is not for everyone. I also know that some people really love it.

Personally, I love football. I would have played regardless of it being Christian or not. So it does not matter. But once again I want to talk about finishing what I started. That is just in my blood. Not saying that I am great or nuthin, but I am serious about loyalty and finsihing what I started. I am sure this can be a good thing or a bad thing. If I am on board for something, I want to stick with it till I am done. This is the reason why I am still at my job. Because there is something that I want to finish. This is why I do not church hop. I hope for those that played, it was a good experience for them. Though I am not satisfied with our result, I am extremely happy with the efforts that people who played. It just makes me think how we would have done if we had our entire squad.... the whole time.


To those who gave it their all with me.....


I would like to dedicate the last quote from the movie braveheart;
"In the year of our Lord, 1314, patriots of Scotland, starving and outnumbered, charged the fields of Bannockburn. They fought like warrior poets, they fought like Scotsmen...and won their freedom."

New version
"In the year of our Lord, 2003, memers of CPC, stupid and outnumbered, charged the fields of Da Valley. They fought like warrior poets, they fought like Koreans.... and won some respect."

Oh by the way, I would rather lose like we did than have ringers and win the whole thing. I almost gave into the temptation of using ringers....