Friday is here again! yay!
Last night was fun. I went to the Thursday night bible study as usual. I love my small group.

Look at this lovely group.
I can be my defensive self and everyone tries to understand me. I feel loved.... Esther Chang made me a birthday cake. Awww~~~~ How nice is that. I have pictures that are coming my way so I will post them later.... Sujin said that I was more handsome due to fact that I was losing weight. hahaha. She added that I was always handsome.... It's just my weight..... That is exactly how she put it. hahahaha. Well I agree. I am pretty good looking..... It's just my weight... hahaha. I guess that is one of the reasons that I am on a diet. But It seems that my process slowed down a little. Last night, I had a piece of cake. I know I shouldn't. But It was my birthday cake. How can I not... Right? It was good.

Esther was so funny. It was a cake that looked like my face. And it had candles for eye lashes. I will post that picture later too. hahaha.

Crazy world of Political Blogs.


"Huh? What?"
Our fearless leader GW and his opponents have blogs. Can you believe it?
GW Bush
John Kerry
Howard Dean
Wesley Clark

Some of you might remember that I am a proud democrat. But I am leaving Dean....
So I was gonna support Howard Dean until I read the blog and this profound statement by Howie Dean ....
"From a religious point of view, if God had thought homosexuality is a sin, he would not have created gay people."
By that token, I guess murderers and thieves are OK too. What a schmuck. I think I would rather hear that someone was not faithful than to say that they are and say something completely against what the faith stands for. I would have no problem voting for an atheist as long as I thought he was gonna make a good president. I don't even mind things like the Clinton-Lewinski scandal, because we are human and we can fall.

Yes. He lied. It broke my heart. I was huge fan of this man. But given the circumstances, I got over that too. But blatant ignorant remarks like the one by Ho Dean are unacceptable.

Might as well put Dan Quail in the office. Look at his pearly whites.

Bush???

Think I just mught sell out and vote for this cowboy? I don't really know if I can do that either. But here is a quote from a movie I recently watched. When the son accused his dad of selling out, his dad said, "I did not sell out son, I bought in." Hahahaha. That is funny.
I am not too sure who I am goinna vote for this coming election. May be I will excercize my right not too vote. Nah.... I will vote.

Cause it is my right to rock the vote! And look at this wonderful option that I have. Kerry, Dean, Gephart, Lieberman, Edwards.... and hey where's Clark?

Change

So I was watching TV and this crazy ad came up. I could not believe it. I was just flipping through the channel and I hear this voice that said. "Please help my Big Fat Obnoxious fiancee....."
I guess it is a new reality show where some

cute girl is marrying this

obnoxious fat guy.

I couldn't believe it. An obnoxious and fat fiancee..... It was a shocker for me. I was stunned. Some people have slandered and libeled against Da Fevah, and I have been labeled "obnoxious" in da past. Can you imagine? Me? Obnoxious? Such unfounded and totally false madness! But after a short period, I guess I can admit that this humble blogger was some what obnoxious. OK. I am an ass. But FAT and obnoxious..... That was too close to home, if you know what I mean. So I was even more dedicated last night to drop the fat.

I am gonna change. I am gonna lose weight and I am gonna be nicer to all of you... Well may be all of you except some clowns who don't deserve it. You know who you are!

Another Epiphany

On my way home yesterday, I got a phone call from P. Jin. He cancelled our meeting. He said something came up. I had everything planned. I was to meet P. Jin then another guy from up north named Peniel. He and I was to go over my possible finacial planing thing. But since P. Jin cancelled and I was gonna have this 2 1/2 hours to kill, I decided to stop by McClain's Coffee shop. I have not been there for years. It was the same with subtle differences. For instance, there are these lesbians that I knew from years ago. But one paticular girl was a bi-sexual. She had interst both in guys and girls. When I knew this girl, she had blond hair and she looked feminine. But now.... She had a butch hair cut and it looked like life has been hard on her. She had look of tiredness and she looked like she did not care. When I knew her she was a sweet heart. It is so sad watching these kids waisting their lives away thinking that they live this Bohemian's life. She says that she wants to be a singer. She wants to be like Annie DiFranco. What is up with Lebians and Annie DiFranco? Yes as I stopped by, their were some people that were glad to see me. Like the girl who works at the cash register. She greeted me with a huge smile asking where I've been. This girl was another sad story from what I remember. She had a child as a teenager. Now the baby is 4 years old. But this girl was always really nice to me in her own little way. I like talking to her cause she doesn't put up a front. She doesn't have to. She radiates cool, but there is sadness in her eyes. I remember now the days of not having a job. Hangin' out at different places. Looking for cool spots. But like all things, it came to an end. It would be so not fun hanigin' with these people and hearing their menial problems. Cause they did not see that they had BIG problems in their lives. They were concerned with the menial ones. You know, it's strange. I think many people don't like to deal with their problems or short comings. They just want to talk about happy, happy, joy, joy stuff. We are so prideful.
Starting with myself, we all think that we are the shiznit. Even the humblest of the humble think that they are best deep down inside. It's like when I was a child. I was certain that I was the MOST special child. Sometimes I would go as far as to think strange things like, I was the main character of this world and everyone else was the supporting cast. Well I continued to feel this way till God humbled me. Yeah it still comes up all the time. But in this transitional period of my life, I feel like God has worked in me to change me. I am now dealing with different struggles. But the old ones continue to come out. Unfortunately, we are not perfect and we always put emphasis on ourselves. I was always the person who criticized the church, looking at the flaws of the people there. What I am begining to appreciate is the way God points out the flaws through our actions. I am begining to understand and differentiate the real church struggle from obvious people problems. I am understanding that instead of looking to God, I was looking at people's imperfections. How easy it is to point out other's shotcomings and struggles of everyday living. But it is so hard to love them for that. I am begining to understand that our problems are to be shared among other people at church, so we can improve our lives for the Lord. I am seeing now, how I was the finger pointer when the finger pointing should have included myself. And finally, I am deeply appreciating the and in awe of God who shows me all these things. Christian bashing is easy cause non of us live up to the standards that God put there for us. Cause we are ultimately down right sinners. But to stand up everytime after we fall..... That is a true testimoy of a Christian. Standing up through our mistakes or helping those who fell to stand up again through God is the real deal Christian living. Being at McClain's yesterday, made me realize that everyone has a comfort zone and people for support. Like those lesbians who rely on each other for their cause. Just like anyone. But I am glad that I have my God, family, and friends on when I fall or struggle. Ultimately I am glad and so grateful that someone else paid the price for my sin. Oh how easily we forget.......

Fountain of Youth.....(where are you?)
So it is coming.... I am getting older and older. Isn't it funny how that works. No one ever gets younger. Thinking back to the days of being young, I remember 28 years old seeming really old to me. But now I am facing 29....... 29 is knocking at my door. Now that I am at the sunset of my 20's and looking for the sunrise of my 30's.... I feel fine. I figure I should be fine.... I was thinking this morning on my way to work about how my parents have aged. Yes it is very difficult to watch. But they are still healthy. I am thankful for that.
Here is my mom in 1970. When she was a bachelorette.

She claims that she had many men follow her around. Haha. I believe her. She was one hot mamma! Well I say was cause she has aged. But Gracefully. I have Amazingly good looking parents. Yes they have aged. But this very good looking couple produced.... me, Da Fevah. Now that I am staring at my 30's, I can't imagine what God is gonna bring for me. But I have a whole year left. That can be a long time. So till then, I am gonna enjoy my 20's and ease on my way into 30's. So all you hot chicks out there becareful of Da Fevah. If you don't want Da Fevah for rest of your lives. Cause the time is tickin' and Da Fevah is soon gonna be on the prowl. Like a predator. Like da Big Game Hunter. Beaux and Andy is already looking around for me. Haha. Some poor woman is gonna have to deal with me for rest of her life. HAHAHAHA. But I will be nice. I will get watermelon for her!

Tired and assed out.

So on Friday I went to the Jimmy's Birthday party. It was nice. But was so tired.... I haven't slept well lately and I was slleping at the club. hahaha. I had a nice little nap at the camper they had there. It was odd. They rented out a little camper that was at the club/restaurant/bar. Jimmy looked like he was having fun. Once again having no food and alcohol was a drag. But it was cool. It's the new Jung. Soon I will be in no need for any alcohol. Some people from CPC was there to represent. It was funny, seeing how some of these clowns operate at a club. Most of them handled themselves very well. Beaux was getting his freak on. Walter and DHa were haning around. Jimmy was getting faded. Some dude that was Jimmy's friend, offered me a shot.
Dude : Hey take a shot.
Da Fevah : I'm cool.
Dude : what do you mean?
Da Fevah : I don't drink.
Dude : F*** You, you don't drink.(he even showed me the finger) You are the biggest guy here.
Da Fevah : I am on a diet.....
How weird is that? But Donoree showed up with his cousin and a girl named Ffer. Esther "the animal" Kim and her friend Eunice stopped by. But I left early cause I was dead tired.

Here come the assed out part.
On Saturday Al told me about some party in Santa Monica. So Al and I drove all the way to 3rd street. When we got there and the bouncer said that there was a $10 cover. So Al said he was on the guest list. Al said "I am on Joanne's list." Bouncer started looking and the other guy said "That was yesterday."
Wa~ Wa~ Wa~ Wa~ So feeling assed out we just stayed for a little while and than headed over to K-town. Watched Al get faded as I had my H2O...
Statement of that night.
"I think I have major beer goggles on, cause everyone is starting to look real good!"
-Al Choi 1-24-04 11:45PM-

Andy and Laura finally left our church.

Here is Andy & Laura Park.
They served our church for 5 years.... They have had significant impact in my life and I shall miss them. Good luck guys... May God watch over you guys at your new church and where ever you end up in life.