I am gonna stop the insanity like this lady used to say.

Y'all might as well know. I am on a diet. It's been going pretty smooth so far. Last night I went to watch Lord of the Rings. It was a good movie. Even better than what I expected. Great battle scenes and pretty insane special effects. I was thrilled the whole time. After the movie, Al wanted something to eat. I said I was go with him but that I won't be eating. It was late. So I passed the first of many test to come. I did not eat. I drank 2 huge waters. But I was okay with it. I saw Al eating half order of chili cheese fries and Fried Calamari. He washed it down with 2 dark beers. Though there was a temptation, I did not eat. So there it is. I am on diet and I am gonna stick with it. I am gonna stop the insanity.

I realize that I will never be a skinny guy but I do not want to become fat bastard. Wish me luck y'all.

I feel like Christmas is in the air this year. I don't know why. But I feel good. Maybe it is staying away from work next two weeks. I am not sure what I will be doing this Christmas. Since my mother is here I will hang with my mom. My mother being here has already impacted my life tremendously. I just feel better. Ten years of not living with my mom has been tougher than I thought. And Kimmay, I am not a mamma's boy.

New commitment
I was reading my cousin's xanga entry about feeling blessed cause he got a C as his final grade. Well I think I'd rather be a C student than what my colleg profesor once told me. He called me a "B+ Student of life". Isn't that terrible? He said that I have all this potential but I never follow through with it. I have a new goal or a new years resolution. This time I am gonna follow through with it. I'll show him a B+ student of life! On my new goal I will get an A+. Oh I don't wanna tell you what my goal is till I am done.

Vacation, Vacaciones, Hue Gah
I can't wait till this Thursday. That is when I start my 2 week vacation. What should I do? Also, what's going on this new years eve? Talkin' about new years eve, I haven't been to a good new years eve party since college. After last years debacle, Al and I vowed that we were gonna do something fun this year. We say this every year and every year it sucks. SO anyone doing anything fun? And don't say church cause I won't go. I never went to the new years eve service. I have never heard of it before at any other churches. But i am sure all the people go have late dinner afterwards. No thanks. I don't want to go. I 'll go to Christmas service. no need tp listen to 4 sermons in the span of a week or so.

Mommas Boys

I've heard that many Korean girls think that Korean guys are mamma's boys.... I wonder if this is true. I am curious. I haven't seen my mother for 2 years and now that I see her everyday, I feel like someone cares for me. Am I a momma's boy? I don't think that mu mom feels that way. In fact I am sure that she does not think I am. But I have some friends that shall remain nameless that are momma's boys. They are such wussies. I think that loving one's mother is one thing. But being a momma's boy is a whole different thing. I would think that women don't like momma's boys. Running to their mothers and of course Korean Ajummas love their sons because their sons would never do anything bad. My mother is different. I gaurantee this to my future wife(where ever she maybe), that my mother would probably take the side of her's not mine. My parents I am sure would have been happy to have a daughter. Since they don't have one, and they are stuck with me..... yeah. I can see it now. The three of them ganging up on me. Yikes. I'll bet my mother wishes that I was a little more of a momma's boy. Though I am not, this fact remains the same. I LOVE my mother. She is an awesome mom.

Stress

I did not realize how bad it was.... But it is pretty bad. Damn it. Why the hell did I take that test. I took a stress test and my stress level was off the charts. Really really bad. They could not believe how bad it really was. Let me tell you, I was seriously stessed out. Everyone who took the test, my mom, my aunt, other people were either green or blue level. Only yours truly was at the red level. I am certain that it is due to my work situation.

I need one of these. A massage froma hottie. May be I should marry a masseuse.
I think I need to take better care of my health. I don't want to end up like Saddam Hussein...
Before stress....

After stress...


Yikes.....

Adding on to my stress. an email from Y.Y. Chang. Y.Y. is our.... I don't really know what he does. But I think he is our operation manager. He is a strange cat.

Our sales have slowed down since November. Our situation is still very
critical and need help from every one of our co-workers. If we work
together harder and smarter, we have good future since we do have
good potential. When we succeed, the reward to every one of us will
be significant. On the other hand, if we fail, we will all suffer and our
hard work for the previous many years will be in vain.

How encouraging......

I am glad that my mother is here though. She nagged me for last 4 days, but I needed it.

On a lighter note, here is the greatest pick up line that Marcel and I came up with at a yacht party on Friday night.
Me : I have to put you under arrest.
Her : Why?
Me : Cause your beauty defy the laws.

Is that great or what.