Temecula

Not a bad sight to wake up to in the morning.




Hot air balloon is one of the attractions of Temecula.

I woke up really early and had me a quite moment to myself for about 30 minutes. It was really nice. I was out there just happy at the fact that I was not at work. wathing the balloons and just soaking up the tranquility.


it was nice.

Dirty Business

Dirty... Just like our minds... But thanks be to Christ we are cleansed.

I've been feeling a bit burnt out from my line of business and feeling frustrated. It has been slow lately. My co-workers are getting scared. There is nothing quite like an office full desperate sales people. Its tragedy and comedy at the same time. That is how it has been lately because the mortgage business is really hard right now. Some might say that mortgage business is going down the toilet.

I can definitely say that I am in a business that has been considered dirty. So many people have gotten burned by getting terrible loans or getting charged ridiculous amounts of fees.

Yes it has caught up and Real Estate/Mortgage bubble has almost popped. Now we are at a point where it is getting really difficult to qualify people for loans.

I really feel bad for people who are losing homes through foreclosures...

But I am not really scared. I will be okay. I know it. God is with me so who can be against me?

Da wife in Mexico



She is cool.

hello.

It has been a while since I bl9ogged last. There was a time that I wanted to share everything with all of you. But now, I simply don't have the will to share. Because I am lazy. Last month was a tough month. Work, Grandma's Heart condition, Traffic school, and Da Wife's eye surgery.... It is tough to deal with everything. But it has all been good because the outcome of all things that I stressed over was good. Grandma is good. Work has been good. Lisa's eye surgery was a success. But nothing comes easy. They were all great outcome after a stressful waiting period. Sometimes I wanted to scream. And I have anger outbursts at times. But I try to remain thankful. Cause I am thankful. Its funny how I feel like I am almost at a different stage in life.

I gotta say 30's is a good place to be. I feel good. My friends have been doing well lately it seems. Everyone is slowly but surely finding their places in life.

So... How are you doing these days?

I've been busy and tired.

I have a hard job and it gets stressful. This month I learned that things really are not up to me. It is definitely up to the Lord and I am awestruck at the fact that God makes thing happen. march has been a long month. Too long.

All good things come to an end.

An end can mean beginning of something else great.

Hopefully that is the case.

Edmonton eh....

There are many great pains in life. One of the greatest pain is uncertainty. It is painful due to many different things. It is painful because being uncertain leads to many emotional turmoil trying to figuring out .

Today I met up with an old friend who I haven't seen in years. It was great to see him. He was born a day before me in Jordan and he is the only friend that I have who stuck through football and wrestling all 4 years with me in high school. But it was also painful. One of the things I love about him is that no matter when I see him the love is still there. May be because he was so supportive about my transition to understanding the saving grace. Because he too was a Christian. But today he told me about how he started to doubt the reality of how God was involved in our daily lives.... His uncertainty of his faith.

I was devastated as he was telling me. I felt the frustrations he went through as he struggled and finally gave into the worldly view of logic vs. emotion. He began to try to logically understand God. As silly as that sounds, he had some points which really surprised me in many ways. How can some one who was such a believer, not believe? It was challenging. Because he was making some good points on how he came to question the wonderful truth. As he was talking, my heart was breaking more and more. But that was when I started to stop feeling devastated and just listen to him.

So many times I've heard this story. Stories of men or women who were such great believers, start getting confused about their faith and eventually stop believing. In fact it is not as easy as it sounds to lose an identity that people have created for you. The good Christian. We talked about many things. Like happiness for instance.

We are so vulnerable. Why am I surprised about anything? We are weak. Only through God are we strong. He truly was a Christian for his own happiness. When his happiness ran out, so did his faith. Ultimately He just wanted to be happy for his own good. He was a Christian for his own satisfaction.

Do we do all things just for pursuit of happiness? All things that we do, is it because we are trying to achieve happiness and satisfaction for our own good? I can say that what he shared with me was challenging.

I don't know about many of you but I do not believe in God for my happiness. Yes I am happy that I believe. But that is not my ultimate reason of my faith. I believe in God because I am a terrible person. Because I cannot achieve anything by myself. I rely on God because I am weak. I believe because God is strong. I believe because reflection of my image in the mirror of life is too wretched without Christ.

Be certain about your faith. If you are not.... ask God for certainty. As it is written "Ask and ye shall receive...."

Matthew 21:20-22

BIG 32




Man I am turning 32! Like Magic's Jersey. I think I am gonna get me a Magic Jersey for my birthday. A lil gift to myself for turning 32.....

Hello friends.

I hope that everyone is doing well. I am excellent. I've been extremely blessed lately. God has shown me the way and I am taking that road. I haven't blogged in while because I simply had nothing to write about. I've changed. I don't want to just write down everything anymore. So many things are so painful or too personal. But there are also great things that I want to keep for myself.

I am a sinner. I get angry and frustrated. I also get sad and disappointed. At other people and even more so at myself. Because I always fail to see my own faults. Things happen throughout life and I keep forgetting the grace that God has shown me. To all my brothers and sisters who are angry, scared, frustrated, sad, and etc... Remember that we have the saving grace. And God's grace is sufficient. When we don't get things our way, it is still great. Becuase we are exactly where we God planned us to be.

I've blogged about many non-sense madness in the past. I am sure I will continue to. But right now, I hurt for the pain of my friends. and as overwhelming as it can be, I am also excited about the great things that will happen. I am excited to see how God is going to lead us to victory.