Hoon the mystery man.

Oh the heart that Hoon has for the Lord.... Today Hoon spent $75 for spinich dip at Costco for One Voice conference at Church. He did not spend all $75 on the dip.... he just did not have his costco memebership. He tried to use his moms. But since they did not let him use it, he just bought the memebership. Now that is love for his church.... It is mysterious to me the nature that Hoon seem to portray. cause he acts as if he does not care... But you know that he does. Oh what a lovable Hoon. I know that buying this dip was not the easiest thing for him to do... He is a busy man. It is hard work looking as good as Hoon does. A real trooper Hoon is.

I am a Seoul man. A Korean man. A Jackass.

Friday is finally here. I won't be here by Monday afternoon. I'll be "Leaving, on an Airplane" Like Hoon's favorite No Rae Bang song. I talked with some of my friends from Korea and they are excited to see me. I did not tell some friends that I was coming because I do not want to see them till the last day that I am there. Why? Because I do not want to go out with them at night. I will briefly meet them at lunch time and what not.

I am not really looking forward to this trip at all. Sure I want to see some friends. I just don't want to get drunk and be stupid. Like I always have been when I went there. Since I am on my diet, I feel like it would be stupid for me to see my Korean friends who are not so sensitive about things like diet. I can imagine my Hyungs saying "Diet? Namja ga Gu Run Guh Weh Hae! Mah Shu!" Meaning. "Diet? Why would a MAN need to do things like that? Drink!" I remember thinking Korea is great. Cause when you are a man, you can use that as an excuse for everything. As much as I love my motherland, Korea is such a male-centric society. And women are changing in Korea. There are women's groups and feminists that are standing up for what they believe in. Good for them. All I can say is that feminism is a reaction to chauvinism. As much as it displeases me to see femi-nazis, who can blame them. Serously, who can be more chauvinistic than the Korean men... Like me. Yeah I am a chauvinist. I can't help it. It's in my blood. A long line of Korean Lee's that lived a life of a chauvanistic man.... A Korean man. I remember girls at church being terrified of me and my chauvinistic ways. Thousands of years of the Lee blood line has made me not that different. But out of my line, I am the first male Lee that is a Christian. I don't know why God decided to smile down upon my monkey ass, but He has. And the Lord has been changing me. Very slowly I am changing. I must... Cause last person that I want to become, as much as I love him, is my dad.

So I hope this trip to Korea will be a good one for me. Just hangin' with da Fam and livin the life of a redeemed sinner.

Scandalous..... Lee, Seung Yun

What the heck was she thinking? Usually I don't give a rat's ass about celebrity scandals in Korea. It's such non-sense. They get caught with video tapes and other scandals and usually people eventually forget about it.

But this person that you might have seen in some Korean dramas in the past has done something so stupid and atrocious, even my Chinese co-workers were asking about it. And it will not be forgotten. Since I am going to the motherland in less then a week, I thought I would look into it. After reading about what she has done, I was appalled. many Korean Actresses when their fame dies down, make this nude photo book so they can make more money. I don't really care about that. But this ttong for brains woman, as her nude photo book, posed as a comfort woman during WWII. When Japan ocupied Korea and sent little girls as sex slaves for the Japanese army. Well that was the premise of her photo shoot.

What a disgraceful woman. She must have thought she was being artistic. Why don't we make a friggin nude shoots of a Jewish concentration camp too. Dummy. I wouldn't care if I ever see her in dramas and movies ever again. She should be banned.

Here are some people burning some stuff with her work on it.

My message to the brilliant minds of Lee, Seung Yun and her manger.....
Seung Yun.... Think about what you did. You made a erotic expression about painful experiences that many women went through as children. That generation is still alive. Whether you think that this is an artistic impression or not, is not the issue. You completely ignored the painful subject and wanted to make extra cash.... It is hard enough for the victoms as is and you just spit on them. Why do you think Korea and Japan has such a bad relationship. Why did you try to make money from such tragedy... In fact now that I think about it, I hope that Koreans don't ban you either. I hope no one buys your stuff and you don't make a single penny from it. and you will be embarrased through out your life, everytime you look back to what you have done.

Meaningless, meaningless... All is meaningless

This morning I "shared" with Fou-Sen about why the book of Ecclesiastes is so meaningful to me. When I first came to the light of God, the most special book in the bible that I really could relate with was the book of Ecclesiastes. Yes. A wonderful book that may seem full of cynical sarcasm.... Right up my alley if you ask me. But it is so much more than that. This is a book that is written to warn those who try to live out their lives without God and how meaningless it really is. Ecclesiastes changed my views in life. It speaks of many meaningless traits and goal of us human beings. So as I was "sharing" with Fou-Sen, I outlined 3 main things that that people want that the book of Ecclesiastes points out.

1. Enjoyment - Everyone wants this. Does not matter who you are.
2. Achievement - More ambitious people try for this.
3. Recognition - SOme are willing to give up the first two to get this.

All things that are ultimately meaningless in the end. Cause after death why the hell does anything matter? The writer of Ecclesiastes, King Solomon obviously had parts with all three things better than most people that has ever lived. He who has enjoyed, Acvhieved, and has been recognized bigger and better than just about anybody, writes how meaningless everything has been..... This is why I appreciate this book. By no means would I say that I am even remotely close to what Sol has been through and what he has acomplished. But I relate in that I want to enjoy the finer things in life, I look up to those that have achieved greater things and I want to be recognized as a great person. All for my sake. I value these things so much and to hear that it was meaningless from a man that has done it all was eye-opening... It was amazing. That God is the replacement for all these things. It humbled my sorry ass. It may seem arrogant to many people when I say that this is my favorite book. That is okay with me. But still to this day, I struggle with myself daily. It is a daily battle with my sinfulness. With God I am certain that I am gonna come out victorious in the end. But till then, I have much learning to do.

The King James version uses the word Vanity instead of Meaningless. Vanity of Vanities.... What a piercing arrow of convictive words. Vanity of Vanities.... that is so me. Full of emptiness.....

Dream....

Is there anyone out there that can control their dreams? Not day dreaming or aspirations in life, but when you are sleeping. Well I wonder what would happen if you can control your dreams. I wonder if I would take it for granted... I have very inconsistant dreams. They never, ever re-occur and they are usually stupid. But this morining, I woke up in terror and I could not remember why. I could not rememebr my dream. I tried to concentrate and remember and I could not. I was relieved that it was just a dream but I was kinda annoyed at the fact that I could not remember what I was dreaming about 2 seconds before the damn alarm. So I forgot about it I started eating breakfast and BAM! A scene from my dream came back to me as if it was an old movie scene. Oh the terror. Funnything about when I dream is that my dreams are usually fuzzy. It's not like the movies where there are bright colors or happy, happy, joy, joy sunshine. It's usually dark. Even the happy dreams. Colors are usally dull and I am usually not awair that it is a dream. The scene from my dream was dark again. As that scene came back, other scenes slowly came back to me piece by piece, like a puzzle. So in my dream I was back in Jr. High. Riding my bike when all of a sudden I was in this cave. I see to the side, my butler. I was Batman. yeah It's silly. But I remember these terrible things were happening in Gotham and I could not fit in to my costume. I was panicking..... The rest I don't remember. But can you imagine? me... Batman. Well I think it was a message from God. The message is in order for me to achieve what I want, I still need to lose more weight. And my ears are wide open. I will be Batman. I will fit into my Batman suit

No longer can I stand being Da Fatman. So who would be my sidekick? Nicki from Da Bucks introduced Al as my sidekick once. Al got pissed. Hahha. Al... my sidekick... HAHAHA.

May be you are like Kato from Green Hornet. Obviously Kato(Bruce Lee) is much cooler than Green Hornet.

Anger Management

Last night I was quick to anger.... yeah I know that it is bad. Over basketball. Certain issue has been brewing up inside me for some time now and yesterday, I blew up. Then I got mad at Hoon. Then Hoon got mad at me. The vicious cycle of stupidity continued. All over basketball. I am so stupid when I get angery. Yup I get extremely defensive and everything sounds like a threat. Oh the stupidity of my mind. But Hoon and I made up. It was a magical momment. It was almost worth the fight.... hahahaha! Isn't it so difficult to settle differences when we are upset. Why do we get mad so easily or even so much more toward our loved ones? I sometimes sit there and think about the fact that we are such sinful beings. Had it not been for sin we would not fight. I am starting to understand the whole concept of sin and how sneaky it can be. I don't like it. But sinning sure can be fun sometimes.

Lastly as a tribute to anger and stupidity, I leave with the quote from one of my favorite movies, Taxi Driver.

You lookin' at me? There is no one around me. You must be lookin' at me.

So I hear about this woman who was recruited by the government agency known as the Central Intelligence Agency. Yeah it was pretty insane. Al is of course fascinated by this story as I am. The CIA.... Well this is gonna be interesting. The woman that I have been hangin' with for last four days, was recruited by the CIA! Yikes. Isn't that insane? This little espionage is cool though. Four days in a row.... Yup. She can't get enough of Da Fevah.... hahahaha. Can you blame her. HAHAHAA! Nah.. I'm just playin'. The feelings are mutual. She is pretty awesome. In fact there are many different words to describe her. But that is just that. Words. I would sound sappy and gay if I were to actually put them down. So I won't. But she is a stimulating person. I can tell that she likes to put me on the spot, to see what my reaction would be. I am not gonna be at work today. I have things that I gotta take care of for the fam. I must not lose focus on my goals. I am gonna go to the gym and ball tonight.

Ecclesiastes..... My favorite soon to be my least favorite
So as some of you might know, I am going through bible studies with my boss.

conversation with Fou-Sen(my Boss) last Friday.
Fou-Sen - So what do you want to go over now.
Da Fevah - it does not matter to me.
Fou-Sen - How about Ecclesiastes.
Da Fevah - great. that is my favorite Book.
(me and my big mouth)
Fou-Sen - Really? That is good. Let's change things around a little bit.
uh-oh.....
Fou-Sen - why don't you teach it to me.
Da Fevah - (voice changing) uh... I don't think that is a good idea. I mean I never taught anyone anything in my life.
Fou-Sen - than it will be a great exercise for you.
Da Fevah - ........
Fou-Sen - Don't worry. It will be fun.
Da Fevah -

Fun he says. Does he not realize how bad I am gonna be at this. Fou-Sen is a Mental Giant. I on the other hand am physically twice as big as he is, yet intellectually, a mental-midget.... In almost all aspects of life. So this week I am gonna have to come up with a lecture for Fou-Sen. It's like Mark Madsen trying to teach Shaq the fundamentals of the post-up game. Oh boy.... this is gonna suck.

Oh yeah I almost forgot. I am thinking about changing the name of my alter ego. From Da Fevah to Da Thinnah Sinnah.... nah that is wacked. Thinner sinner.... what a schmuck.

This Weekend I.......

Started reading a new book. Tuesdays with Morrie.

Met up with Lisa for the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd time. She makes me blush.

Broke a record.

Played ball. Scored 2 pts.

Fit into a pair of inspirational pants.

Forgot to buy water. Mom was mad.... Sorry mom. My mind was else where.

Saw 50 first dates. Despite funny momments, ultimately it was a sad movie.

Played with 2 dogs. A huge Pit Bull named Diesel, and a scrappy Boston Terrier named Tuffy.

Hung out with Hoon. Cause I gave him my word that I would. Hoon is great.

Went to Church. God is always good.

Went to acupuncture. I like my acupuncture doctor. He is a skinny man that is quite. But he is good at what he does and he is always realistic.

Talked with couple people about my insecurities. I am a weak weak man.

Went over to Marcel and Gina's and watched the All-Star game. Shaq is da MAN.

think it might have been one of the best weekends in long, long time.