Look out weekend cause here I come!
Because weekends were made for fun.

Off to the weekend again! I can't believe it is finally here. Woohoo!!!!!!!

new DAY

I feel like a new man today. Last night I was once again happy with the secret project with Al. It was all that I wanted and more. the progress is good and both me and Al is motivated. I feel good today. I have not felt this good in a while. All things are possible in Christ. Finished with Band of brothers. Kinda sad that the whole thing is over. It was definitely an awesome series. Really enjoyed it I must say.

Smoking
I don't understand people's intolerance for smoking/smokers. I am so sick of people criticizing me and my smoking habit. Usually I don't pay any attention to fools that trip when I light up. Especially when I am outside and some social moron walks by and makes that coughing noise. And you know that the smoke is no where near them. That is when I want to blow the smoke in his/her face. Why are people so anal about this. I am really fed up with these anal prunes. I can respect the fact that some people don't like smoke. But I think it is so ridiculous for some people to act like such a schmuck. They are just making an ass out of themselves. But than again who does not make an ass out of themselves. I know that I do.

I can't believe how much more energy I have today. I feel like I woke up from death. Maybe God is giving me more energy today. Props to the Big G

Parasite
I forgot about this little event. A of couple of days ago, there was this argument I witnessed over the abortion issue. I was listening to what they had to say to each other and it got really emotional. The person who was "pro-choice" said something so shocking, even I the democrat formerly known as left wing bleeding heart, was thrown back. The person gave arguments that war was same as abortion. that it is both killing innocent people and blah blah. That was not the shocking part. that SHOCKING part was that this person called the fetus a PARASITE of the mother's body. I did not respond of course. I was just listening in. A parasite? Now I want to make my stance clear on this matter of abortion. This might be a weak sauce answer but it is my answer. I see abortion as one of the most heinous acts. I hate the thought of abortion and I absolutely am disgusted by the thought of abortion. It is irresponsible and ultimate act of selfishness. Just plain evil...... But what right do I have to tell a woman that they should do this that and the other. Don't get me wrong, I would not support ANYONE getting an abortion. I can sit there and criticise a person's character all I want , but ultimately there is nothing I can do to stop someone from under-going this heinous act. Basically it is an issue I feel powerless in. But a PARASITE? How horrible.......

There was this really cool album by smashing pumpiks that I never bought. Meloncholy & Infinite Sadness.... That prety much sums up mylife. I am swimming in my own sadness. I felt a little better after I talked with my pastor today.

Met up with Mike Byun today. He was telling me about how is going to get married and what not..... Cool. Another one bites the dust. It was good to see him. While we were chillin' I saw the cocky guy from Red Clouds(cigar shop in Fullerton) He is Korean and apparently he has a gang of money. Just blurting out some useless nonesense about a whole lotta nuthin'. Can't stand him. He has never been really been a jerk to me. But just not likable. Smoking Opus X(Brand of Cigar) acting like his ttong does not smell. But I tried my best not to get annoyed by him and talked with Mike. Mike's cool.

Tommorow......I completely forgot about Chris Yi's departure to NY party. I can't make it to bible study again. That sucks. But oh well... Must make a contious effort not to miss bible study. This is why having a bible study on Fridays are tough. All these events come up. Chris and I were really good friends back in college. At time like this I really miss college life.

Meeting with Al for our secret project tonight. I hope things go well.

This blogging thing has turned into just bitching. I must refrain (or try to) from becomming the pesimist I seem to be. Praise the Lord I say. But my actions........ Booooo. I have been a big boob as of late. Nothing but discouraging words of madness comes out of my mouth. Must be more encouraging to others around me.

Obey the thirst they say. Has the thirst left my heart? Am I being stubborn? Am I burnt out from my life? These silly and immature questions haunt me everyday. This morning for some weird reason, I saw a bunch of hotties at Starbucks. I was staring at some girls bums. I realized I should stop so I turned around and WHAM. A hotter hottie. SO far this has never happened at Starbucks. Usually it is filled with ugly people telling ugly stories. It was even worse when the hotter hottie smile at me. I think I smiled first. I am so wicked. I am sick of being tempted by all these awful things. I hate it. What happened to my heart for the Lord. What happened to my intimate relationship with God? Why am I so far removed from the word. Why do I fall asleep as soon as I crack open the word? Spiritual discipline. Discipline discipline discipline. AARRRGGGHHHHHH!

Played lotto and basketball again last night. I lost in both. I am starting to wonder why I suck so much at that Japanese Gym. I do much better anywhere else. I came to home to see that the Lakers lost to the Warriors again. What the hell..... Very disapointed.... Why do I get so emotionally attached to the Lakers? Why? Havn't had a dream in a long time. Why can't I dream like I did in the past? Talked with Jongmin little bit. He is coming to LA tonight. Superbowl weekend. Raiders and Bucs. Dolphins are out so who cares. Mentally draining...... That's life. I am sick of losing in life. As of this moment I am going to concentrate in winning. Who is the big winner you ask? I AM..... Just kidding.

There I was, there I was, there I was..... In the freeway. This morning's drive was just aweful. I got sick of listening to the radio. So busted out my new CD case I put on some classical music. I started off with Zignuerweisen by Sarasate. I have two versions of that piece. You see I love the violin. One version is with Itzhac Pearman, and the other with Chung Kyung-Wha(Korean Sista). Than I busted out Marriage of Figaro. An opera by Mozart. It was nice. Yesterday I had my meeting with "Evagelist" Jin. But it was just another session of me complaining about life. After it was over I went home and watched "Band of Brothers". What a great show. My dad came home late so it was even better. I ate those frozen mondoos and it was great. I plan to win the lotto tonight. I think my chances are pretty good tonight.

When will you be here lunch time. When, When, When............. Why does the time go by so slow before lunch time. Weekend goes by so fast and the week days go by sooo Slowwwwww~~~~~~

Russell called me from Australia. He is in Brisbane. Apparently he has been working and hiting the beach almost everyday. What a bastard. He says that as a path of his hiking trail he passed by a nude beach. How FUN. I asked if he took pictures but he said no. Actually he said "I think their boyfriends were around" in a charming, funny, boyish way. Well it looks like he is really having a good time.

I had late lunch with Sam Chu. We went to the Original Thai BBQ in Cerritos. It was good. We talked about some things and goofed around. Called Jimmy Yun after the meal and he came out with his new girlfriend. They seemed so happy. Jimmy is such a good kid. His girlfriend is young and I think she told me her name was Kathrine. She is twenty. I wish I was twenty. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY YOUTH?

Apparently couple of our church members left our church. It seems funny to me. Why is it that every year new members come up from college group and yet it number of our English Minstry stays the same? SO many people left. So many people go back to college group and NEVER contribute to EM. What the hell is that.

I am hooked to Band of Brothers. It is a HBO mini series about WW2. I borrowed the DVD set from TJ. Really good series so far. Just reminded me again why war sucks. Also it was good to see Lakers win. Granted that they played Clippers. I was pleased with the win.

Back to the Paradise......
Why does it seem as if my weekends get shorter and shorter. Other than it being awefully short, I had a good weekend. So here is my recap of my weekend. Friday I had dinner with my aunt and uncle from Indiana/Korea. They were in good spirit it seemed. As it always is, it was good to see my aunt. My uncle apparently became a food critic in Korea. he started a website as a hobie and than his website became extremely popular. Hmmm. So now he is a college profesor/consultant/food critic... Must be fun. Afterward I stopped by bible study. It was good to be back at Andy's house. Saturday we celebrated Mel's birthday. Unlike other birthdays, Mel decided that he wanted a birthday breakfast. Than all the attendees of breakfast other than Al played basketball.

Now here is some thing I've never done. I felt bad about what I am about to tell you. After basketball we all stopped by AM/PM for drinks. Dave Song was poppin off as he usually does and I got him in the sleeper hold. I said " what would you do if I got you in this position". He tried to go for the NADS and than he just passed out. I felt stupified. I got real scared. I knocked Dave out with a sleeper hold. "Oh no!" I thought. When he woke up he had this dazed look at first and he came back to himself. I drove him home and felt pretty bad. Saw bunch of war protesters on Harbor dressed like bunch of hippies dancing around with big signs. Now I want to make my stance clear on war. I don't think it would be a good idea for us to goto war. I guess I will say that I will support US if we do goto war. But I guess I wish that it did not happen. But seeing these people acting like bunch of clowns and hippies, I thought to myself, "How can these people expect to be taken seriously?" Goofin off, dressed like clowns, etc.... I guess that is the beauty of the ol' United States.

I went a party that night. I haven't been to a party like that in a long time. It was AL's friend Sheroll(sp)'s Birthday. It was in LA and it was nice. I expected it tobe a dud but it was actuallt really cool. Bunch of peopel having a good time. I really had a good time. Interesting group of friends Sheroll has.

Sunday. Went to church and got crucified by fellow brothers in Christ. It happened during the Sermon response. I tried to say my point but it did not come out clearly and everyone was on my case. Hoon came to the rescue and ended the sermon response. Thanks Hoon. Talking about Hoon, I lost in Fantasy league to Hoon by two baskets. I am so mad about Eddie Jones. He did not play all week. What a weaksauce he is. Our Basketball team got killed. I scored eight points. That sucked. We can't play defense to save our lives. Hit some golf balls afterwards with Hoon and Paul Kim. We ate at Heroes and ran into couple of girls from high school.(Dona Thompson and Mellisa Parker) They were drunk. It seemed they were just partying it up. But I could feel the sadness in their lives behind all the happily drunken fascade they put on. They told me where our reunion was going tobe. I can't believe my ten year reunion is coming up. I am so old. Maybe I should get married to a Russian mail order bride. I will tell her about the wonderful paradise that I live in. I will tell tell her about the beautiful car that I drive and how filthly rich I am. Basically I will lie and sucker her to come with me to US before the reunion, so I can have a hottie with me at my reunion. I will make her sign a prenup and dump her right after....... This is pathetic.

Fevah