I had an experience this weekend, that I will probably think about for a long time...
I almost watched my mother die in front of me on Saturday.
We were eating and she started to look strange. Her face turned white and I heard her gasping for air....
I got up and started to give her the heimlich maneuver... Than I hit her back and she finally started breathing. By that time, my heart was beating like a horse and I had buckets of cold sweat... I was in shock. I lost my appetite. As we were going home, I was just blank. Rest of the day, I was just thinking about the event. What if my mother had died in front of me... I think this was the most vulnerable I've ever seen my mother. Even now I can close my eyes and think and hear her gasping for air. For that split second I thought that she was going to die... She told me that she felt a cough coming up and she did not want to cough with food in her mouth. She tried to hold it and that is when the whole ordeal happened.
Made me realize couple of things...
1. Life is so fragile... It can be taken away at any given minute.
2. I love my mother... I don't think I was ever so panicked in mylife.
3. I don't ever want to see that again... On anyone, especially my mother.
4. Its important to just spit out your food instead of trying to be polite.
5. Love God with all your heart.