Yesterday I was driving and I was stuck at a train track. The train went back and forth for about 10 minutes. It kinda made me think. The only times that I ever go on a train to anywhere is when I am not near home. For example, I took the train when I was in Korea. When I was on business trips to da east coast, I took da train from Boston to NY. Or NY to Philly. I don't remember taking a trip on a train here in California. I hear it's nice. I would think that there is something romantic about taking da train. But its only in my mind. When I'm actually taking da train, there is no romance in it. It's only great when I think about it. Just like most things. I imagine things to be great, just to realize that it ain't that great. Only thing that is beyond my expectation is God... That is it. But even God 's truth and love is over rated in my feeble mind sometimes. It's not. But I allow myself to get tricked. So stupid.
For all those who profess His name and is tired of doing so, just remember, you are not that important. God is important! Accepting that was a hard thing for me to do. Cause I always think that I am da shiznit. But that is exactly what I am. A pile of TTong! But thanks be to da Lord, I call myself a Christian. Yesterday I came to realize that I am so far from being a salt and light... But I also was reminded that I shouldn't ever give up. That is what we do isn't it? Give up? Even in my moments of failure and moments of absolute depravity, I will look to Him! God is amazing. Absolutely amazing. I love Da Lord. I am on this train called life, and when I get through, I want my destination to be with Him. Too many years have I lived my life with a ticket to no where.