Reflection...
As some of you know, I came to really understand the saving grace at a very late stage of my life... So I was not the typical sheltered Korean Christian... So I just get flabbergasted at some of the innocence of those who grew up as one. I have been exposed to some ungodly things in my life and recognize them right away. Yeah, sin really gets a hold me sometimes... But when I speak to some brothers and sisters that are so innocent, I feel so guilty. Also, it scares me. Here is the reason why I am so deathly afraid of having children (especially daughters)... When I get married, obviously I want to teach my children to be Christians. And seeing some of the kids at church, I realize that though some of the kids might have some idea about this world, many, I mean many will be naive about the evil that dwells in man. And there will be a day when these children grow up to be men and women and their innocence will be nothing but a nostalgic thought. Or some kids will be like how I was and am. Just dwelling in sin and exposed to certain ungodliness that will make them so hardened about life... Neither is good. But we who are believers are all the same... Always making excuses. I came to a conclusion. Que Sera Sera...
Yesterday, I really realized the importance of balance. So many of us compromise everything though we know the TRUTH. At bible study last night, we were reading the verse and something struck me... This verse....
2 Timothy 3:5
having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.
This was very intersting... Having a form of godliness but denying it's power... That is me I thought. That is me having doubts about His sovereignty. But that is all of us. That is us making excuses for being the dumb shmucks that we are. Always dancing around da grace and clowning in front of God and his truth. I was deeply blessed last night and truly convicted... Being afraid of people who are just like me. My kids who will be just as sinful... Those goody to shoe kids who are just as sinful as anyone... Just saved under His Grace.
I don't want to make up my own rules and ignore God's warnings...
I do not want my own will to be going over God's plan and His will...
But at times it will...
Thank God..... He is the most high and merciful God...
His Grace covers up my sins...
What jackasses we are. Always... I mean always, compromising His truth.
