I hear thousands of problems every single day. Being in my line of business, that is what its all about. Problems. People feeling like they are getting ripped off or people who know it all. All these problems in this world... It is a crazy world we live in. I've had this pain in the back of my head. My blood pressure rising as we speak. What can I say. Life is hard. But today I found a little time to thank God for my life.
I am scared of just one thing these days. Getting married is not it. But I am scared of the fact that I might not be able to lead Lisa closer to God. I know that it might sound a little cheezy and chauvinistic for some to read this. But out of all the respnosibilities that I have getting married, that is the only one that I realize that I need to step up to. And yet here I am, getting married. Diving in with both feet. I thanked God today for all my stress that didn't have before. Cause I am in some crazy way, in absolute need to go though what I am going through. This pre-marital stage has been very hard for Lisa and I. But I can surely say that it is an absolute necessity.
God is finding ways to sanctify me in this painful process of getting ready for the "Big Day".
I stand in awe of His greatness. God is showing me, my imperfection through all this. Just ask Lisa of my imperfections and Lisa will be able to tell you a laundy list of things that I need to improve on. And through this I am even more humbled by God. He really is showing me the areas in my life that I need to improve on.
That is the real gem of this whole experience. The painful realization that I am not good enough. hahaha! But I am trying!
