Yeah here I am again... Feeling some what colorless. It is hard working and having little to no motivation. It is really hard.... Yesterday I was driving behind Lisa and I saw her face in the side view mirror. I gotta say, I am way too melodramatic these days. When we made eye contact, she smiled... Of course I smiled back. For some reason, when she looked away, I started fearing things. I was listening to KFWB News 98. Hearing news about terrorist threat in La and hearing all the aweful things in this world and how can we not be afraid? People scare me. I scare myself... I looked around saw other people in their cars around me. Some were laughing, some had a poker face... Some just looked plain angry, while others were enjoying their day. I saw teenge moms with their babies in a stroller just talking away crossing the street. People just going about their business. I've seen people kicking and screaming to get a head in life, to be heard, to do something..... I was realizing again that this is a fallen world.... Than Lisa and I made eye contact again through her side view mirror. She smiled again... Yeah.... Through all the madness that this world throws at you, there are those ordinary momments that are so extraordinary. My fears went away at that momment. The smile reminded me that God is in control.... Even through the madness, God is in full control of what is going on. This a harsh world that we live in.... But God is still operating and my comfort lies there.... No where else....