(andy is such a great photographer!)
So I sit here in Paradise(work) and think about many different things. Yet my mind is going not fast enough.
The Hamster in the noodle wheel is taking a break.
It needs to be running like this!
Well I am sitting here thinking about my sales trip that I need to go on. I am certainly looking forward to leaving again. But not because I am looking forward to seeing my custommers. But I want to just leave. That is all I really want. I can't believe that I have not taken any vacation days off. It is maddening to think about actually. Due to ceratin reason, I can't leave on a vacation. So I look forward to leaving on a Business trip? That is aweful isn't it? I am struggling at work due to lack of support from our engineers. OUr products have seemed to fail us and trying to get the confidence of customer back is pretty tough. I need some $! So I prayed to God for money. I wonder if He will grant my wish. I have a huge deal that I am working on that should go through. I must follow up. I hope that this does not fall apart.
The Roots (things fall apart)
One of the greatest Hip Hop albums of all time! I hope that my deal and paradise don't fall apart.
I met up with a person that I have not seen for a long time yesterday. It seemed like she was doing really well. Good for her! She is moving to Denmark with her hubby to be. I never realized this before but she is such a post-modernistic existentialist! It is amazing how you are just oblivious to certain facts when you are blind. Than when your blinfold comes off and you see the reality that seemed so different before. I think the biggest difference b/t now and before I came to understand the saving knowledge is that i see the aweful reality for what it is. No sugar coat that covers up the ugliness of this world. It absolutely amazes me that people choose abstract hazyness over clearity. I think that is also a clear sign of not really having choices. You always hear that the path of your life is what you make of it. Bull Ttong. We might take path of what we think that we "choose", but ultimately we don't have any clue where we will end up. No idea what so ever! SO as I was talking with her, I realized that people always sugar coat everything and just talk madness. Speaking as if they have it all figured out! But still it was good talking to her. I can't believe how blind I was! Blind, Blind, BLIND!