This blogging thing has turned into just bitching. I must refrain (or try to) from becomming the pesimist I seem to be. Praise the Lord I say. But my actions........ Booooo. I have been a big boob as of late. Nothing but discouraging words of madness comes out of my mouth. Must be more encouraging to others around me.
Obey the thirst they say. Has the thirst left my heart? Am I being stubborn? Am I burnt out from my life? These silly and immature questions haunt me everyday. This morning for some weird reason, I saw a bunch of hotties at Starbucks. I was staring at some girls bums. I realized I should stop so I turned around and WHAM. A hotter hottie. SO far this has never happened at Starbucks. Usually it is filled with ugly people telling ugly stories. It was even worse when the hotter hottie smile at me. I think I smiled first. I am so wicked. I am sick of being tempted by all these awful things. I hate it. What happened to my heart for the Lord. What happened to my intimate relationship with God? Why am I so far removed from the word. Why do I fall asleep as soon as I crack open the word? Spiritual discipline. Discipline discipline discipline. AARRRGGGHHHHHH!
