I was reading through some facebook posts tonight and came across a post by SunHi (our pastor's wife). I know she loved Seon and what she put on her post got me thinking. She put "Seon would have never guessed how many people were here tonight to show how much he was loved."
I was talking with Lisa earlier about the movie weatherman. It was a good movie. The scene that I found so compelling was when they held a "living funeral" for the main character's father who was given 2 month to live. If Seon could have seen how much impact he had on so many people's lives and recognized how much he was loved, would he have not gone through with that terrible act? How hopeless must he have felt? Why didn't we know what he was going through?
Seon's actions made me think of a great deal of things. The conclusion that my little mind came up with is that we must NOT hold things to ourselves. Whether things are good or bad we must share and we MUST keep each other accountable with love.
The great comfort that I have for Seon is the same comfort that I felt when Peter passed. Christ is greater than suicide. Christ's great work on the cross is surely greater than any sins that we commit. I firmly believe that Seon is no longer battling his demons. I believe that he is resting with Christ. Because Sean, like Peter professed his faith in the Lord.
Without a doubt life can be excruciating. We face battles everyday. We also succumb to the temptation that we face. We fall everyday. But we must live on.
The great depression produced some of the best writers of America's short history. Unfortunately great majority of them had a tragic ending of killing themselves. They say that writers of that era faced such sadness that they carried their sadness throughout their lives and eventually was not able to get through the weight of it all. One of the writers from that era that did not commit suicide was William Faulkner. Apparently one of the characters in his many books he wrote was a small character he created that was suppose to be himself . In the end of this book he had a description of all the characters. Description of this character that portrayed himself were 3 words. "He just survived."
Take heart friends. We don't have to just survive. We are to thrive. We are to be salt and light of the world. Christ made that possible for us. No matter how hard it gets, we know the result. Christ rose again from the dead which means we win.
So here is little excerpt from the poem Ulysses by Lord Alfred Tennyson that came to mind.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and though
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.