1:20AM
I went to sleep.
ZZZZZ.....
4:47AM
No alarm no sound.... I woke up..... I walked outside with a heavy heart. I grabbed my smokes and it was pitch black.... It was chilly without a soul walking by.
I sat on the stairs and thought about what I am facing.... I said that I am not nervous and that I am not scared....
More than that I was supposed to be not anxious.... But I am.
so in the middle of darkness I lit one up. I went into a silent prayer.... I can't even recall what I prayed about...
When I opened my eyes, to my surprise, it was not pitch dark anymore... and slowly God was turning the lights on. Yes it was a gloomy morning... But the daylight was coming.... Slowly but surely... Nothing was gonna stop it.
I realized something....
God works in His time....
Not everything is hurried. His will will be done at His time and I the schmuck, will follow. whether I want to or not....
Cause no matter how dumb I am....
He is always good.
I simply ask for Peace from God that transcends all understanding...
